how can the act of slithering over the car console

[cornerofmadness]

end up in THIS many bruises. pout.

Also it is cold. I like the cold but it is also DAMP and raining. Now that is a miserable combo.

It is mid-terms. I got into it with students today and I'm sure tomorrow. They are NOT doing the online portions as I mentioned. I can't pay a baby sitter to stay with my kid so I can stay on campus. Me - go to the public library. Plenty of computers. I could NEVER do that. Kids shouldn't be in the library like that. Me - people do it all the time. Sorry it's the 21st century for over a decade now. Online work is expected. It is mandatory. I've given you options.

This is very powerful and hard to look at. sad photo journal Cancer is such a terrible thing.


Balance it with this.

That is Pookie bear. Someone got him for me the day I was born. My father insisted I get it out of the house. It's been the first time in over 40 years Pookie has ever left my bedroom. He is sitting on the couch. I moved him for the picture. I can't touch him without crying. I can't even think about him without crying. I'm not entirely sure why. Mourning lost youth? Feeling like my father would be happier if there were no traces of me around? All I know is something changed the moment I put Pookie in the car. The feeling of home changed. Even typing this the feeling of tightness is so strong it feels like the sinuses are ripping out of my head taking my teeth with them. Pookie originally had pink eyes but they were lost and we only had blue ones. Kanda's not sure what to think of this.

Also I need to NEVER look at comments on you tube I don't know what's worse, the so-called Christians barging into Pagan music videos or people on pet videos but I'm going with the latter because no person owning a pet can do ANYTHING right.



declutter day 155 item tossed -A handful of greeting cards why kept=People sent them why tossed -Some went to St Jude’s ranch for charity, the rest recycled

Comments

[sillymagpie.livejournal.com]

Hugs! Screw your dad. Pookie Bear is meant to be with you. I wish the teddy bear my dad bought me when I was a little girl hadn't fallen apart. :/

Many hugs to you and Kanda.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

well he is now so he's no longer there to welcome me back home. Also his nose has been replaced.

thanks

[priarani560.livejournal.com]

*huge hugs*

xx

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

That is a beautiful photo journal.

...Kids shouldn't be in the library? Oh, how the times have changed.

I'm sorry about Pookie coming home with you, if it makes you feel that way.

Only read comments if you're looking for a laugh. Or can stomach them.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

It is

yeah they have. She's a much older student (this is her grandkid )

yeah I wanted him to stay home

they rarely make me laugh. I love it when I see a comments disabled label

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

If she's an older student, she ought to know that studying is important.

I don't blame you for wanting him to stay there.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

some people like playing the victim

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

*snort*

[0-mother-0.livejournal.com]

aww, I love your pookie story
it's normal to feel emotional about something to important to you for so long - it was your first pal! there are probably several reasons it makes you so sad now (just try to get those things to talk to you one at a time, so you can learn it and let it go)

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks. Well he certainly is my oldest pal. He was always in my crib (I'm surprised I didn't just smother)

I suck at letting go.

[rahirah]

At least Pookie's with you. Sometimes home is where our stuff is. :/

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

This is true.

And Kanda doesn't mind him...Kanda is like he's on Kitty Pot all the time