writerly ways
May. 1st, 2011 05:57 pmI decided to tackle a slightly charged topic this time because it's been eating at me.
Matters of racial identity. These are becoming more and more a concern of any author. There is both good and bad to this. Most of us only know one, maybe two identities intimately and everything else is hopefully a researched guess. There is a tendency to stick to one’s own cultural/racial identity when writing and run the risk of being accused as bigoted when there isn’t diversity in your writing. On the flip side, you try to be diverse and get accused of being racially insensitive.
In a perfect world, people are people and everything else would matter less but this is a far from imperfect place and many of us take great pride in our ethnic backgrounds. There is nothing wrong with this. On the other hand, there are a whole lot of authors out there more than a little afraid of ending up on the bad end of race!fail blogs.
Why am I bringing this up? It’s one of the things that have put a real halt on Machiavelli Moon. Fifteen years ago when I wrote this originally, I would have worried less about this, right or wrong. However, now I’m more than a little paranoid. Moon has a deeply embedded component of Lakota heritage. I did my best to research it and have my own personal experiences from my time as a part-time reservation doctor. I feel in love with the culture but there are two things weighing on me now. 1) no matter how much I’ve researched it, I’m still an outsider 2) I don’t want to come across as a Caucasian woman fangirling Native Americans. I want it to be as true to the cultural as I can make it.
Oddly, if Caksi was merely a Native American cop and his culture didn’t come into that much I would worry less. But the culture does play a role. I want it right and I feel very uncertain of myself. Ideally I would like to find someone inside the culture to look at it. I had even thought about contacting someone at Sinte Gleska University to read the novel. I hesitate mostly because I do not know if I could afford to hire someone to do it and for that matter, last I looked a lot of the professors were still outsiders culturally/racially (though that has been years ago. I probably SHOULD look into this more fully).
It has gone a long way to killing my enthusiasm for working on this as much as I love the story. I’ve given more thought to finishing my two YA stories where ethnic background plays less of a role. Has anyone else felt this way? Do you not worry about it as much? Have I made a mountain out of a mole hill?
I just I just feel that we’re a long way from the beautiful Vulcan ideal of ‘infinite diversity in infinite combination.’ We’re still more polarized and it seems to be getting worse rather than better. A decade ago if you asked me what my biggest worry about this novel was, that wouldn’t have been my answer. Now I find myself almost afraid to keep editing and trying with this story even though I feel I did a good job of being fair to the cultural without fangirling it and idealizing it. I could just be far too close to it to tell.
On a lighter note here's something from Writers' Digest (includes at least one agent search engine) top 10 productive time wasters for writers
I didn't write much and literally nothing for my
help_japan claims(I'm so sorry) but I did get some done for my space pirates.
yearly word count -
22840 / 125000 words. 18% done!
Matters of racial identity. These are becoming more and more a concern of any author. There is both good and bad to this. Most of us only know one, maybe two identities intimately and everything else is hopefully a researched guess. There is a tendency to stick to one’s own cultural/racial identity when writing and run the risk of being accused as bigoted when there isn’t diversity in your writing. On the flip side, you try to be diverse and get accused of being racially insensitive.
In a perfect world, people are people and everything else would matter less but this is a far from imperfect place and many of us take great pride in our ethnic backgrounds. There is nothing wrong with this. On the other hand, there are a whole lot of authors out there more than a little afraid of ending up on the bad end of race!fail blogs.
Why am I bringing this up? It’s one of the things that have put a real halt on Machiavelli Moon. Fifteen years ago when I wrote this originally, I would have worried less about this, right or wrong. However, now I’m more than a little paranoid. Moon has a deeply embedded component of Lakota heritage. I did my best to research it and have my own personal experiences from my time as a part-time reservation doctor. I feel in love with the culture but there are two things weighing on me now. 1) no matter how much I’ve researched it, I’m still an outsider 2) I don’t want to come across as a Caucasian woman fangirling Native Americans. I want it to be as true to the cultural as I can make it.
Oddly, if Caksi was merely a Native American cop and his culture didn’t come into that much I would worry less. But the culture does play a role. I want it right and I feel very uncertain of myself. Ideally I would like to find someone inside the culture to look at it. I had even thought about contacting someone at Sinte Gleska University to read the novel. I hesitate mostly because I do not know if I could afford to hire someone to do it and for that matter, last I looked a lot of the professors were still outsiders culturally/racially (though that has been years ago. I probably SHOULD look into this more fully).
It has gone a long way to killing my enthusiasm for working on this as much as I love the story. I’ve given more thought to finishing my two YA stories where ethnic background plays less of a role. Has anyone else felt this way? Do you not worry about it as much? Have I made a mountain out of a mole hill?
I just I just feel that we’re a long way from the beautiful Vulcan ideal of ‘infinite diversity in infinite combination.’ We’re still more polarized and it seems to be getting worse rather than better. A decade ago if you asked me what my biggest worry about this novel was, that wouldn’t have been my answer. Now I find myself almost afraid to keep editing and trying with this story even though I feel I did a good job of being fair to the cultural without fangirling it and idealizing it. I could just be far too close to it to tell.
On a lighter note here's something from Writers' Digest (includes at least one agent search engine) top 10 productive time wasters for writers
I didn't write much and literally nothing for my
yearly word count -

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Date: 2011-05-01 10:10 pm (UTC)I'd like to see Machiavelli Moon published, seriously. At least Caksi has a personality beyond the "Handsome Lakota Man" that appears in romance novels.
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Date: 2011-05-01 11:12 pm (UTC)Thanks for the writing sites!
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Date: 2011-05-02 01:40 am (UTC)I mean, for all i know the Lakota would view werewolves as products of evil and that would need to be worked into the story as more angst for the male lead
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Date: 2011-05-02 02:07 am (UTC)That said, this fear is exactly why I'm contemplating taking kenjutsu lessons. There is automatically going to be suspicion of an author writing about another race/culture who has no first-hand experience of that culture. You have bona-fides through your work in South Dakota. I have no credentials where Japan is concerned. Years of research, sure, but that's nothing beside being able to say in my author's blurb that I'm a fifth-dan kenjutsu master (mistress?) and a practicing Zen Buddhist. Anything less is going to get me dismissed as an amateur, a fangirl, or both. (I don't know if you saw it, but when I posted my "hook" in that contest a few years back, someone immediately commented that a samurai-ninja story was an interesting concept, but only if it was a researched effort and not the work of some anime fan who'd watched too much Naruto.)
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Date: 2011-05-02 02:15 am (UTC)thank you. I'm glad you think so
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Date: 2011-05-02 02:32 am (UTC)But you are right. The lead character is pretty much me, Italian. Sulien is Welsh (and at least now i can almost speak enough of it to ask for beer). I HAVE considered not using their Lakota names and just use the angelo ones. sigh
and yes I see YOUR dilemma too
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Date: 2011-05-02 02:44 am (UTC)I've always thought so. :D
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Date: 2011-05-02 02:13 pm (UTC)I respect the culture enough that I definitely want to do it right but you're right as well, haters are gonna hate
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Date: 2011-05-02 07:10 pm (UTC)But I think at a certain point you have to quit worrying and write what you want. People will always bitch. If it isn't one thing it'll be another.
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Date: 2011-05-02 07:58 pm (UTC)I'm just looking for the best idea on how to make sure I've done MY due diligence with this.
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Date: 2011-05-02 09:43 pm (UTC)There isn't a way to be 100% sure about anything unless you got every member of the Lakota Nation to sign off on you book :)
Relax! Hell you LIVED there!
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Date: 2011-05-02 09:56 pm (UTC)hmmm there IS something to be said about writing pure fantasy...