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Yeah the closest I came to anything in the way of celebration was eating some Doritos. Today was LONG. SO long. It was four hours of soaking in dissection fumes and then off to the coffee house and the gym.

I need to figure out what I'm eating/drinking there that's making me sick. I never made it to the gym. Picked up brisket so I didn't have to cook later and all I did today was grade. And write. Like a lot. Like a 4K day. Would be nice if it is was original but no.... it was this dumb thing


Broken but Healing (The Owl House)
Summary: One day after Belos was gone for good, Luz knows there is a lot of work left to do. They are broken but they are healing. This is her family and she will hold them together.
Rating: teen
Notes: Written for 4bdnsn0wflake in comment fic for the prompt Author's choice, any character(s), waking up in the middle of the night and for the allbingo prompt cat and for spikesgirl58’s 6 words challenge. The words are: Pile, Harmful, Crack, Fraud, Develop, & Cast

( 13 different fandoms and even more stories )

Today I'm having tons of pain and tons of heart burn. Sigh. I could hardly walk today and my knee looks bruised. tomorrow I will go to see my surgeon. Cross fingers everyone. And today they started making me walk to the bathroom vs bedside potty. I can do it so that's good.

I've been lax in saying thanks. Thanks to sylvanwitch for I think a journal (mom is not much help here) and to kiramaru for something that the parents wouldn't try to look at. And if you mailed a card here to the home I'm about sure it was sent back since they all seemed to be.


And thanks to enemytosleep for this gift Thanks so much for the injured little Pokemon fox. I love her.

Trying to whip up Prodigal Son enthusiasm but I feel crappy so it's not working.

The hospital sent me to the SNF (skilled nursing facility) today. That poor EMS team so confused. All the nurses and aides in Grant's bone/joint floor gave me a standing, waving send off and all the nurses and aides at Westminster gave me a waving greeting when I returned.

On the other hand, riding in the ambulance after dinner and the narcotics which make me sick was ROUGH. So nauseous. I'm laying in bed waiting to puke myself to death (so far so good)

I didn't mention it but the home did me a favor. They left ALL my stuff in my room and didn't charge me for a bed hold. So I'm back in my cosy room, my snacks are here (when I'm done trying to puke) and I'll be here for a few days. The insurance wants me reevaluated by friday. I'm only approved til then.

However I WALKED today. That's right. I walked. The first time didn't go so good. I got up and walked down the hall a little. I'm proud of me.

I got back up and dressed myself. That was one time too many. My leg hurts but fuck it, I WALKED for the first time in 6 weeks.


Also HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Evil_little _dog. I'm a bit too blech to do that up righ.

Apropos of nothing, Harry & David's Crater Lake crunch trail mix is yummy and I need to learn to make it.

And I am too nauseated to enjoy Prodigal Son's return tonight.

I woke up with every part of my spine hurting and then I sliced open the inside of my cheek. I then had a four hour meeting online. I will have to do social distancing in my classroom which makes it impossible to hold some of my classes and labs. I'll have to come up with hybrid courses online and face to face. And that's IF we can be in class. If not, I have to make it ALL online. I am going to have to record a lot of my classes and I have a new template for my online classes. It will be needed for my one class that will always been online. I have a lot of work to do.

And I've been nauseated for over 24 hours now. Every time I eat it gets worse. Beginning to wonder if I have a stupid ulcer again.

And then my sugar dropped AND a tornado was sighted within 30 miles and I had to sit in the tub eating peanut butter with a pillow on my head. The storm at least has passed.

THANKS for the help with my Buffyverse conundrum. Kiramaru is right, talking it out helps me (ELD will attest to that). It's the annoying part of my process. Even if I don't take your advice I will get something out of it trust me.

Somehow I forgot to take my meds at dinner last night AND at breakfast this morning which is very unusual for me. I'm good with my pills. I even thought man this heartburn is SO bad and I can't take tums because it's not more than 2 hours since I took Prilosec (it deactivates Prilosec) and it didn't occur to me that I hadn't taken it! My heart burn was so bad. Yeah sure insurance company I'll be off these pills some day. I really do need to consider the surgery but it won't play well with my other issues I'm afraid.

I didn't quite finish my finals today. Sigh. Almost. I just have the extra credit to do up and then I'm DONE. Oh I might put up another assignment or two but I am done. I'll have to go back to the school next week and put in some of the assignments they've done and reassure them that they are doing good (or need to do better). I will pop in every day or every other day with tips and other stuff. Like today I told them why the right testicle hangs lower than the left, something I never imagined putting into an EMAIL!

I did get nearly 1000 words into camp nano, not on the pro jects I wanted to write but there you go. I DID finish all the paper edits I have on the novella. Tomorrow I need to start pulling it apart, reordering it and putting in the new scenes, one of which I haven't finished because I was bored and I forgot. What could go wrong? And if it's not to 25K by then another sex scene is going in.

Speaking of which, alexseanchai introduced me to dick_or_treat for the next two months you can write smut for this but the titles have to be Pokémon battle moves. How funny is that? It can be any fandom. So who shall I smut up? Hmmmm

I'll bbl with tonight camp nano count.

ETA just for shanachie_quill two clips of Malcolm in the white suit and

And that episode of Prodigal Son tonight made me laugh (but I still don't like Eve) I'm glad I have something to look forward to once a week.

I am not having a good day health wise. I have trouble with fibrous things. I ate a little apple. I've been sick since. Whee. Felt a bit better after I threw up the apple but it was a soup and bread dinner day. Watch me wake up at 4 AM starving.

I was pretty disillusioned today too learning what one coworker who is leaving here is going to make in his new job. That kicked off the old depression bomb.

Though that got a little better because I got a smile out of Aurora Perrineau replying to one of my live tweets about PS tonight.

sorry, this sounds sad but it is a bit, dealing with students who just don't care and won't put forth any effort. Also I did something idiotic today. It's the last day of class (let that sink in for a minute) and I know that the class runs from 10-11:15. Some how I was convinced the class ended and let them all go. It was 1045 and then I went to my next class and couldn't figure out where they were because it was 20 minutes too early....and the chair of my dept couldn't convince me of it. She's like well Dana's lost it (I swear to god I saw the computer say 11:15 not 10:45). Boy I feel dumb

I'm almost done! How'd that happen??

40745 / 50000 words. 81% done!

So Tuesday started out badly at 130 when I took a fall...okay so I had updated my computer and nearly 2 hours later it was STILL updating so I came to check on it sans glasses and missed the couch when I sat down (well I can't see....) Banged up my left arm, pulled the muscles in my right and either that's a bruise or a clot in my left leg. Sigh.

Then today I had to go in and sit in my office because my lab was canceled for a school function but i still had to be there. Then I forgot when my office hours ended and was there an hour over. WTF is wrong my brain.

I did go to the faculty/staff picnic. There were hundreds of dollars of gift giveaways. I won nothing but our two new hires both won so that was very cool.

I've kind of worked out the particulars of my MG story but it still might be too dark. Wonders what I should do.

ETA -That faulty valve between stomach and esophagus just gave me a lung-full of acid and caprese salad.

Or at least my liver and gallbladder can. I spent an hour and a half trapped on the world's most uncomfortable 'bed' under a counter that was monitoring the radioactive isotope they put into me to see gallbladder function. WHY can't this be at least a padded bed/table? I can see why it can't be in an MRI but there is no reason to be lying on a plank for this especially since the test is SO long. At 8 AM. ANd the tech is one of my students' boyfriends. Sigh. Small town problems. It looks like my gallbladder is functioning again. I wish we could do this when it's acting up not now when it's been good for 3 weeks. He did good though, no bruising at all at the IV site.

So LJ finally did what I've been expecting (you know when most of us moved here to be sure we didn't lose everything a few months back). The new terms of service. I signed because at this point what do I care? I have everything backed up here and LJ is half dead and DW even deader. But I guess if you're only going to be on DW now let me know so I can add you here so I can at least go looking for you.

I tried looking at houses but I merely got depressed by it. SIgh.

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I've done no writing today. sigh. But if you want to see what Jana's up to check out B is for Bryn Celli Ddu.

Last night I went to my brother & SiL's and we played cards all night. If you didn't see last night's Graham Norton go see if you can find it. He had less stars on than usual, just Hugh Jackman and Patrick Stewart, (for Logan's release, which everyone has said is fantastic) and surprised them with Ian McKellan. It was funny, raunchy (we talk about Sir Pat's dick) and the tenderness between Pat and Ian is amazing.

today we traveled home with no problems except in Steubenville at the beginning of the journey. They have the ramp closed to the bridge over to 22/30 to Pittsburgh. You have to go down the road about 5 miles and turn around (on a well marked detour). This idiot in a van goes around the barricade, nearly slams into me and the guy in the lane next to me so he could get around the road closed sign and go up the ramp.

I get here to find just what I feared a message from my surgeon's office asking me to call. (yeah thanks for not calling my alt number which is the cell). I was SUPPOSED to go in for my hidascan on my gall bladder at 8 AM. The last time Rita called it was because my insurance hadn't cleared the scan. Remember me mentioning i called on Monday and got a snotty answer 'well it's on the books so of course it's on) from the tech. I KNEW I should have called on Friday to triple check. There is no way I'm getting up at 6 AM after fasting for 12 hours (that's not a problem) and driving 25 miles (on a day I don't work until 230) to find out i can't have the scan especially if the techs doing it don't know it's not cleared. I have NO idea when they'll be in the office in the morning (because the message machine doesn't say) so I left a message to cancel it. IF I get up early enough I'll call down there but whatever. I can't see the surgeon until APril anyhow. And if my insurance has said no they are SO getting an angry call because they've been paying all this shit for the woman in Texas.

My allergies are SO bad, I can't blink or it feels like knives in my eyes but if I don't blink the eyes dry out. I am never this bad until like April but since it IS April out there for all intents and purposes....I hate this. Everyone is like oooo this is such a pleasant winter. Yeah sure, it beats snow to your ass BUT this is a serious disturbance in the natural order signalling nothing good.

I'm drowning in work and I haven't written a damn thing in two days again. I just remembered picfor1000 Sigh.

The Nebula Nominees I've read none of them but one or two sound good.

This made me very happy. 7 sister earths


Boy have I been disappointed in my shows lately. The new one that started last week, Murder CHose Me on ID Discovery is a bit odd. He keeps linking the victims with his life (hopefully this will be the last time for that).

Criminal Minds has gotten utterly ridiculous. To be honest I'm only watching because they put the actress they had cut in as the chief so... but the last two weeks with Reid is ridiuclous, tedious and predictable and tonight's episode? Stupid. Does no one know you can pull a parking break and stop (or at least seriously slow) a car no matter who's hacked it. For that matter you can still shift the gears or pull the damn key.

But the one that bothered me the most is The Big Bang Theory (did I mention this already) The dumb episode with Raj calling in the exes to find out why he's a bad boyfriend was stolen lock stock and barrel from a Family Guy episode and was only barely less offensive.

Still no word from that realtor.

And oh, I had to rearrange ALL the testing on my gallbladder( to next month and to April for the surgeon) because my insurance didn't okay the scan yet BUT they did just pay 700$ in shit for the Dana in Texas. Head desk.



What don't I miss about childhood? Honestly mine was pretty good. I don't miss how tempermental Dad was back then. I definitely don't miss the bullying in school. Middle and High school were pretty vicious. I don't want to even think about those people. I don't miss barely having money to make it to the next month.