cornerofmadness

so i've been kind of thinking about it for some time now, and i think i need to take a long break from the internet. meaning, i might check my dreamwidth once a day, but that's it. i'll still use discord, just not as often. and i also will write here and there using ellipsus.

i bought the first six books of heaven's official blessing and i want to read more anyways. i need to get into a new fandom, and i'm really excited to read these books.

i might try to set a schedule. maybe i'll start by maybe posting once a day, if not maybe i'll just post when i have something to say (which... i always do).

something else: it would be kind of fun to treat DW like a proper journal. i might share pictures of travels and miscellaneous things. i also want to maybe keep a reading journal, i have one somewhere in my room that i haven't touched yet.

i'll also write my live reactions to the books i'm reading!

after i post this, i'm going to make a masterlist of things i need to get done. i do have a list of events i've signed up for but i kind of want to compile a large to-do list. i also have a private entry that contains journal entry ideas too (you can't see it since it's for me, but it's nothing exciting).

so... yeah that's it i think.

i posted about this on fandom.ink, a mastadon server that i'm giving a try. it's very quiet and i enjoy it a lot. not much traffic. but since it has a 500 character limit i might as well talk more about my writing here.

i found | miklan & byleth

for ficwip's genuary jubilee event, i wrote yet another fic of miklan and byleth as a duo. this time the prompt was found family, which is one of my favorite platonic tropes. i found is kind of a shorter fic than i wanted it to be, but i'm really proud of how it ended.

it has a simple ending, and it's a quiet conversation between miklan, someone who has never really had a family, and byleth, someone who has a father to protect her.

miklan feels out of place in a lot of my fics. he's a bandit, thug, criminal. byleth is the opposite; she delivers justice, whether it's in the name of the goddess or underneath edelgard's banner. i kind of imagine that i found is an AU where, for the longest time, byleth and jeralt were still mercenaries long before byleth met the three house leaders.

i imagine that at one point, byleth was the one who found miklan years ago, wounded and on the brink of death. hence where the title of the fic comes from, which is also named after an amber run song.

miklan is sometimes difficult to depict in situations involving family. i imagine that he hasn't felt the love of a mother in years, and so love is a foreign concept to him. when byleth tended to his wounds when she was nine years old, i feel like miklan, at the time, suspected a trap. that byleth would patch him up and kick him into the dirt. miklan is a cynical person, he always has been, and i do think he wouldn't have trusted byleth if he were older.

since this story takes place during the pre-timeskip, i kind of imagine that miklan is around his mid-20's and byleth is 21. even though it's been over a decade since they first met, miklan is still not used to the mercenary life. he's used to raids, theft, murder. he isn't used to honor codes or protection. sure, he's a brilliant leader and he does care for his crew, but do they care about him?

that's the question i kind of wanted to answer in my other miklan/byleth fic.

someone to hate | orphjosrick

i posted chapter two of my orpheus/joseph/frederick fic, someone to hate. it's a slow burn, and i will admit, this chapter was a little slower than i'd like it to be. it explores more of how frederick feels about joseph, about how orpheus's behaviors are making frederick feel uncomfortable and replaced.

joseph, who i'm portraying as autistic (using my personal experiences and symptoms), is very observant. i imagine that frederick thinks that he might be too observant.

on the other hand, frederick can't blame himself for being captivated by joseph. in this fic, joseph is frederick's new housemate. orpheus suggested that joseph could fit in with frederick.

but it's later revealed that joseph and orpheus are collaborating together on orpheus's novel, identity v (yes, this is a little tongue-in-cheek easter egg). joseph takes photographs for the novel, while orpheus writes it.

frederick, a musician, isn't sure where he stands.

he's been orpheus's best friend for over two decades, and now it feels like the relationship is slipping. but is it?

i'm pretty happy with how chapter two turned out. and i'm also pretty excited about writing chapter three.