I've been sad

[cornerofmadness]

You've probably noticed. It's just summer doing it to me. I can't sleep. My body is stressed (my sugar is nearly 400 tonight which should take me to the hospital but I did what they would have, jacked myself up on a ton of insulin), the skin peels off my hands and feet and I feel like I'm not going to make it. In all seriousness, I'm just flat out ill with more than one chronic illness so it wears on you. I found my peak flow meter (determines how well you're breathing). 600 L/min is where the bottom end of normal is. I'm between 350-400. That's after my inhaler and I don't even feel like I can't breathe like yesterday. I think the only reason I didn't die in Florida was that I was a decade younger and just too stubborn to go.

I am only sleeping between 5 and 8 AM for the last 4 days. This is not just because of my memory foam mattress. This is decades of summer nights with the same pattern. It took until 1 pm to get moving. I need to clean my house and that's more of the sad. I let it get SO bad that you could put me on an episode of Hoarders (okay it's an exaggeration but only a little). I'm starting in weird places. I decided that I HAD to empty the 4 tier plastic stand that uglies up my computer room because I have NO linen closets or medicine cabinets. I took away THREE grocery bags full from just the top shelf and I had to use swifters to pick up the dusty shit. (I was NOT wearing gloves in this heat) Kanda is still sneezing from all the dust. By the time I threw away the expired pills (some dating back to BEFORE I moved to FL in 2001. WTF. Why would I even pack this shit?) and all the other junk I was down to 1 grocery bag of good stuff. And yes I'll count this as decluttering because for me it does. Now with that shelf under control I can put the toiletries that are on the floor up where they belong. And that's just 1 shelf of four (and took half the damn day).

I feel stupid. No seriously. I do have a land line because of how spotty cell service is here and the fact I have a tracfone for cell to keep costs down. I got a new system from Panasonic that can synch with my cell, transfer messages to it or my Bluetooth etc etc. All I want is to program in a few phone numbers and talk. the booklet is 100 pages long and I can barely find what I need. It's SO confusing.

I am almost done with my 1930's demon hunter novel. I think I need cheerleaders to carry me those last few yards.

declutter day 86 item tossed -Yaoi manga why kept -Wanted to read why tossed -Hello rape me, I love you trope, goodbye book

Comments

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

As someone we both know would say, "Sleep is for wusses".

Unless, of course, you need it to, I don't know, function or something.

Why did you have pills left from BEFORE FL???? That's just wrong.

[bay115.livejournal.com]

I can be one of the cheerleaders for your demon hunter story! :)

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

good. thanks. because I'm 79K into it (which is already long) so it would be a shame to choke now

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

usually it is but after a while I'm getting too old for this.

I DON'T KNOW. I mean I would have to had packed and unpacked them THREE times. wtf

[priarani560.livejournal.com]

*cheers wildly for demon hunter story and waves pom-poms*

[ookamikagakusha.livejournal.com]

I have read you previous posts and I do hope you are starting feel better:) I HATE the summer and the heat, so I too, am ready for fall. I have also heard from you and ELD that your students are ridiculous, ELD commented on my FB about how it was good that I completed ALL of my nursing homework over the summer, and I am a good student unlike the poor souls that grace your class :p they make me seem like a genius. I have zero tolerance when it comes to students not paying attention or doing their work. I am, as you know is in nursing school, I have already had others students ask how to get the hw, we were all told the end of last semester to get out work because black board is not available over the summer. I am sure you can believe that there are students who did not do the work and they will be the first to whine when they fail. And they are going to be nurses? I could tell you some funny stories about the people I go to school with:)

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks

yeah I don't think I have you friended over on FB. At least SOMEONE is paying attention in nursing school. I have no patience for half-assed students in any field but in one where lives depend on it, it's inexcusable.

oh i'm more shocked that anyone did their homework (good for you) than people blew it off. sigh

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

yay thank you

[sholio]

*hugs* That sounds like so much to deal with. It would wear down anyone's strength.

Hopefully the heat will break before too long. And best of luck with the novel! So close! \o/

[bay115.livejournal.com]

Oh, very nice. You're almost to the finish line! *cheers and waves pom poms too*

[0-mother-0.livejournal.com]

I hear ya on the clutter...as tidy as I am, I have hoarder barry and a strong "I may need this later" streak myself, so... I basically clean out and organize the same study closet over and over and over yet it always looks like crap. It's like being trapped in the OCD ring of hell (because I'm sure there is one)

and, yes, summer BLOWS

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

my brother will be the Lord of the OCD ring of hell (at least the one for cleaners). My place is just too small for all my crap.

summer does

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks. and yes I am. I just need to figure out a plausible ending.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

it is.

I never deal well with summer. It's not psychological like some people think. It's physical.

Thanks. I'm ALMOST there

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

I am already amused. :D

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

I found a scrap of a cvs drug bag in the stuff I brought from home this time. I don't even know(I'm assuming it was stuck to something else I meant to bring but...)

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Well, then.