Now that I'm slightly calmer

[cornerofmadness]

I will say I really want this job.

I doubt I'll get it. There will be teaching at a master level. That means research ph.d. My doctorate is wrong.

I want this job. I would get to do cadaver lab.

I'm shaking inside at the thought of having to undergo tenure process again.

Two of the three people I asked for letters of rec today (one chair, one dean) told me they were going to tell them not to take me because they couldn't bear to lose me. (joking of course). It makes you feel good to have someone feel that way about you, to be told you are irreplacable. We all know that's a lie. I can be replaced but they might not be as good as I am or work as hard or make themselves as available as I do.

I had to stop looking at the job ad because all I can hear is 'you aren't getting this job.'

I want this job. Of course I wanted the Gettysburg Job and didn't even get an interview.

My head hurts and I'm scared of both getting this job or not even being considered.

I told them Lucky Uncle's wife is an IUP alumnus. Don't know if that matters but hey, school spirit.

I feel sick.

Comments

[bay115.livejournal.com]

Wish you luck!

[0-mother-0.livejournal.com]

Oh cool! I know it's late and all the crazy stuff with the application material formats, but I soooooooooo hope you get this!! Just try not to freak yourself out too much (hard, I know... and who am I to talk? I just used 3 exclamation points! ok, make that 4)

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks so much. I'm calmer now. More like prepared for rejection because that's how 2015 is going

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

I hope you get the job!! *HUGGLES*

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

You're welcoem! :D

[dragonydreams.livejournal.com]

My fingers are crossed that you get this job.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you

[0-mother-0.livejournal.com]

yeah, it has been a pretty stinky year... but, sometimes, it's the worst years that out of the blue, just randomly drop something wonderful in your lap. I hope this is that thing.

But, if it's not, this may just be the thing that helps get your CV in order and into new formats for the next (maybe even better?) opportunity.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure that's ever happened to me

we'll see. I'm probably not qualified for this

[sillymagpie.livejournal.com]

Hugs! I wish you the best of luck.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks