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Run over by life
Aug. 31st, 2015 11:38 pmI mentioned some of this last night but again let me repeat after 9 months of behaving with Invokana my blood sugar has spun out of control again. Last night it was nearly 350 which is extremely high. Also you have no idea just how bad you feel like this. Your brain is swimming in sugar. You get bitchy and say/do things you barely are aware of. For example, I was so out of it I tried to carry my dinner plate vertically. Think on that.
So I took my insulin and my sugar plummeted. Now I'm afraid to go to bed because I'm thinking am I tired or is this a coma? I was seriously up to about 3 or 4 AM too worried to sleep. Then it was fine all night and day and now because I barely ate dinner it's back to 300+. I am unamused.
It's a damn good thing I'm a medical doctor, I swear.
And this segues into this thought
One of my friends shared this on FB the other day. Mom has been saying this for a while now. 2015 has sucked. So many of us have lost someone this year. Grandmothers, parents, aunts/uncles, spouses, people we look up to.
This meme sums up how I really feel. If you want to know why I reply to so many of your posts even if I don't have much to say. It's one way for me to say I am thinking about you. I do notice when you're not around. I also wonder sometimes when I hear from no one. I can't afford to send everyone flowers but I usually can stop at least once or twice a week to say I'm thinking of you. I try to buy things friends make etc etc. So love the people in your life today. You never know when they'll be gone. Many days I feel like it'll be soon for me. Or I could live to be 100 like my grandma. You just never know.
Also I am worn out by the assholes here. One of the new people brought two kittens here. Her husband/boyfriend/baby daddy threw the kittens out. One neighbor asked me to do something about them. I said I CAN'T. We no longer have any resources her. And fuck it, I'm TIRED. I've rescued 38 cats in the 10 years I've been here. How much more can I do? What makes it worse is one kitten hides. Only seen it once but the whisper thin gray tiger wants so much love from me. He is desperate for contact. He at least could be saved. The other neighbor said Landlord would throw those two out if they didn't take those cats in. I'm going to talk to him this week when I pay rent.
So I took my insulin and my sugar plummeted. Now I'm afraid to go to bed because I'm thinking am I tired or is this a coma? I was seriously up to about 3 or 4 AM too worried to sleep. Then it was fine all night and day and now because I barely ate dinner it's back to 300+. I am unamused.
It's a damn good thing I'm a medical doctor, I swear.
And this segues into this thought
One of my friends shared this on FB the other day. Mom has been saying this for a while now. 2015 has sucked. So many of us have lost someone this year. Grandmothers, parents, aunts/uncles, spouses, people we look up to.
This meme sums up how I really feel. If you want to know why I reply to so many of your posts even if I don't have much to say. It's one way for me to say I am thinking about you. I do notice when you're not around. I also wonder sometimes when I hear from no one. I can't afford to send everyone flowers but I usually can stop at least once or twice a week to say I'm thinking of you. I try to buy things friends make etc etc. So love the people in your life today. You never know when they'll be gone. Many days I feel like it'll be soon for me. Or I could live to be 100 like my grandma. You just never know.
Also I am worn out by the assholes here. One of the new people brought two kittens here. Her husband/boyfriend/baby daddy threw the kittens out. One neighbor asked me to do something about them. I said I CAN'T. We no longer have any resources her. And fuck it, I'm TIRED. I've rescued 38 cats in the 10 years I've been here. How much more can I do? What makes it worse is one kitten hides. Only seen it once but the whisper thin gray tiger wants so much love from me. He is desperate for contact. He at least could be saved. The other neighbor said Landlord would throw those two out if they didn't take those cats in. I'm going to talk to him this week when I pay rent.
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