Mom and Dad have been talking replacing the floors upstairs and down. Originally mom only wanted the downstairs done but then the upstairs living room/hall carpet is old and showing it. from there it went to maybe let's redo all the rooms (and increase the value because sooner rather than later my brother and I will be dealing with this house and I tear up just thinking about it).
Anyhow the people want them to do ALL the rooms upstairs at once. I said 'man that's ridiculous' Mom was all 'oh it won't be so bad.' 24 hours later Mom: 'you were right.' (let me mark that on my calendar). Think about it. They would literally have to pack up two bedrooms, one computer room, four closets and a living room including every knick knack, piece of wall art and remove all the molding and register covers. That would be like packing to move. Apparently doing one or two rooms at a go isn't how the flooring places want to do things. The parents have changed their minds for the time being.
But it also got me thinking about all the useless shit I keep around here. I have FAR too much garbage. Some things I loved but no longer do, some I loved and still do, others I never wanted in the first place. I keep buying collectibles without getting rid of others. I cannot continue to do so. I'm rethinking my Loot crate and Loot anime subscriptions. It was fun but it's like 25$ and you don't know what you're getting just the fandom. So now I have boxes of shit I don't want and that's with me skipping the crates with fandoms and the fandoms I do like sometimes the item is a piece of crap I don't actually want. I need to see if I remember how to work ebay.
I carted out five bags and a box of books to the car to go to Half Price book store (I was going to go today but it was raining and I wasn't up for 100 miles one way trip to COlumbus in that) . You can't tell I removed any books. That's a bad thing. Really.
I think I need to get serious with myself and carve out time every day to get rid of some of this stuff. Yes I did 1 and half years of remove something every day and still there's too much stuff. Way too much stuff. I have to decide what I truly still love and what needs rehomed.
Part of the problem is I have a lot of things I've received as gifts, things I've never wanted. Some of it has actually made me wonder how I come across to people to make them think I WOULD like these things. My family is just as culpable in this as my friends. What's worse it's always the item that they seem to be SO excited to give me. I'm like wow and they light up thrilled that I'm wowed but it's not a good wow....
But I keep these things too. I don't know why. I guess in the back of my mind I think 'what if they visit and ask why I don't have that item out. Chances are they barely remember giving it to me. ANd when's the last time anyone has visited me? My family has been here in a couple years and I can't even remember the last time a friend's been here. It's probably safe to toss these things.
I did find one bag to get rid of. I thought it was books. It was Christmas cards, the ones I had saved to send to St. Jude's charity where they use them to make other cards. Obviously they've been lying in the book box for nine months. Humiliating. I did put them into an envelop. Crying. Don't ask. At this distance, all that is good about Christmas overwhelmed me unmarred by the bad (i.e. politics and my family's desire to talk about them).
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