There was a 40 mile drive in Scottish Moor Level fog

but this happened




I have lots more to say about this but it can wait until tomorrow. It's not done but I'm fairly happy about how it turned out. I do need first readers for it. I'm looking for more than my usual because this one deals with things I have no experience with (loss of child) but also I'm not sure if it's been layered in too heavily (the angst) or if it feels real. Josh is okay I think but I do want some eyes on Brendan to see if it's too much on the angst or if his arc feels real, etc.

I'm emotinally drained

Yeah nano will do that to you. But it's more than that. I had a student email me to take the lab final early (but didn't do so until the other section was an hour into the test) because she had a student ambassador meeting when HER test was. I said no and you can not make it up. Guess who didn't show up.

Mom said 'this has really upset you.' Yes it has. I'm furious. SO many people want to go to school, want something more and for a myriad of reasons can't get there but I have to deal with multiple students who just fritter away their chances. I have a half dozen who WOULD pass if they did their homework but they haven't. I just...this job is soul sucking some days. It should be a great job, enabling young people to take on a bright future but instead it's this.

Then I got home to find out Ohio never got my goddamn tax form. Took their sweet time to tell me. I didn't even realize I didn't get my refund. THat is how scattered I am these days.

It took about an hour before I realized that I wasn't angry or anxious about this. That's when I realize I had moved into numb. Nothing good is going to come of this.

I thought my steampunk short was due today but it's due on the 31st of Dec. Torn between just sending in or seeing it I can find someone else to look at it. Then again the two beta readers didn't seem to find much wrong, mostly just bad sentences so maybe I should just send it.