cornerofmadness

since I'm sliding into the sit and stare at the wall for hours depression thing again. I'm allergic to the main sorts of antidepressants and don't like them anyhow so I end up in trouble. I need to learn to declutter, plain and simple. I swear i'll be on hoarders soon at the rate I'm going. i hate my place when it gets this messy and then i get mad at myself.

Of course part of this is the usual end of year haunting by the student loans people AND my health is bad...real bad. Like sugar went so high today i nearly blacked out talking to mom. the sugar is out of control even with me losing weight but I think that has a lot to do with the ovarian cyst I'm pretty sure developed in October which has made my whole cycle go off kilter and my emotions with it. Something felt like a knife in my side and then things went back on track last week, probably the stupid cyst popping.

the one good thing that happened today was the landlord and his workers popped in today to fix the damn toilet...just when i had every box in the world scattered all over my living room (for holidays gifts) he probably thinks i'm a fire hazard (well...)