blech

[cornerofmadness]

I woke up exhausted and so I remained. My stomach and guts weren't too happy either. could be sugar. could be gastric paresis. could be 'catching something.' whatever, it put me off my game all day.

I'm angry at myself. two weeks ago I cleaned out my files and found my health saving's account checks I need to pay the doc's until my deductible kicks in. I said oh good I need them especially since I put away the 'debit card' for this account last March in a 'safe place' and can't find it. Yesterday i went to get the checks...gone. quick search still gone.

today I launched a major search. Nada. WTF? I have NO idea where they went. I go medival on the living room, put everything on the table in a box (including keys I just found in another box this morning. See?I'm awful. I have no idea what those keys are for and I obviously no longer own the things they open. THROW THEM OUT). I didn't find the checks but I did find the debit card. NOT In a safe place but somehow scurried under the lazy susan comet top of my weird coffe table (where it's been for over nine months)

In the process i generated FIVE bags of recycleable paper (on top of the 5 pages I carted out last week). it's disgusting how much shit I've let build up. ugh.

I'm not neat. I've no interest in being neat. Neat makes me literally nervous. BUt this, i also do not want.

It was warm and rainy and the kids were out with the dog. THe kitten is not happy. It was so frightened of them and me that when i tried luring it with chicken it just looked longingly at the chicken and CRIED. Standing still and just watching helped since it did finally eat.

writing has been SO SLOW

ETA - For my Canadian Friends. This came to my notice in goodreads.

turning your used books into literacy programs from what they said you donate the books and the money from sales fund literacy programs

Comments

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Poor crying kitten.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

i felt so bad

[bob_fish.livejournal.com]

Sorry you're still feeling rough.

Your place sounds like my flat. We seem to accumulate piles and piles of paper, into which important stuff will occasionally disappear, never to be seen again. We did buy a filing cabinet (and foolishly spray-paint it red indoors, not having outdoor space - but that's another story) and that does totally help.

I feel so sad for little feral kitten. Heartbreaking!

BTW I love the icon. I did think "I wonder what the OT4 story behind this scene would be", which I think shows you're corrupting me. XD

[winters-queen.livejournal.com]

Awww, the poor baby. At least it came over later.

What I hate is when I just put something down, do something for ten-fifteen minutes and then when I go to get that something, I can't find it because I've forgotten the exact place I put it. That's what I need to do today is straighten things up.

[0-mother-0.livejournal.com]

Clicks! (and my stomach is doing flip-flops this morning too)

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Too much stimulation.

[ozma914.livejournal.com]

I like being neat -- I just don't have time, and what's the point when you have kids?

I'm glad I'm not the only person who hides important stuff, then can't remember where.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Your icon says it all. I want it on a shirt

yes i do the hiding things lal the time

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

there's a stomach flu roaming around

look at how pretty my dragon is

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

oh i do that one all the time too

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

i feel a bit better today but the rain is giving me a headache

My apartment is a wreck. I DO have file boxes. You'd think I'd put stuff in there...

poor little kitten is gonna float away if this rain doesn't stop. The moat is close to over flowing (seriously I'm ringed by Rocky Creek)

isn't this icon great? Chibi Roy is so full of himself. And it wouldn't be the first time i've corrupted someone

[bob_fish.livejournal.com]

Glad you're feeling a bit better.

We have a filing cabinet, but of course it takes us months to catch up with the filing ...

Poor kitten!

Chibi Riza is about to beat chibi Roy to death with that bunch of flowers.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

my migraine might explode my head at this point but at least i don't feel like i did yesterday

Oh filing...that's what I was doing.

Yes, yes Chibi Riza is. (of course somewhere i requested that of Roy/Olivia. Don't give me roses, i want the thorns...)

[bob_fish.livejournal.com]

Oh no, migraine, horrible.

Not the kinkmeme fic where Olivia beats him with rose stems? Heh heh heh. I was actually thinking in the icon maybe he's finally bagged that date with Olivia, and Riza's thinking, "Pride comes before a fall." XD

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

migraine has now sapped my will to live. Also I have on Sirius Spa music and it's dark and rainy out...i could go to sleep right now


yes that's the one. hahaha that also could be happening in that icon

[bob_fish.livejournal.com]

Should you be in front of a computer screen? *nags*

Ha! Olivia would definitely beat him with those flowers.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

no i shouldn't but the gay vampires are talking to me...

Olivia so would and it would be a delight to see

[bob_fish.livejournal.com]

Snort at both of those. Good luck with those gay vampires!

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

For someone who was so reluctant to admit he was gay, Luc won't shut the hell up about it now. geez. but I AM going to take a break to clean the damn living room

[bob_fish.livejournal.com]

Ha! Very true to life. The tedious, recently-come-out "Let me tell you about how I'm gay, constantly" phase. Given time he will mature in confidence and get over himself?

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

snort. Is it? I've wondered. I was just thinking about that last night when I finally caught up with Heroes and had two thoughts

1. why am I still watching this
2. how common can it be for a character to be portrayed as liking the opposite sex and suddenly boom 'i'm gay.' with no warning. It's like does it ever actually happen this way? (being neither gay nor bi, I have no reference)

but so long as Luc is finally talking... at least he had reasons to be hiding his bisexuality (wonders if I'll have another go-around about this if I give it to my one writers group)

[bob_fish.livejournal.com]

I don't really watch Heroes, but ...

Dr H came out at 24, and a friend of ours just came out at 31 - both after a series of opposite-sex relationships. Helen describes herself as somewhere between gay and bi, our other friend is way more into guys and describes himself now as basically gay. So ... it can happen. However, in my experience, people do usually see it coming. A lot of Helen's friends and family told her immediately after she came out that they weren't surprised or had suspected as much. If you see childhood photos of her and her (mostly straight) identical twin sister you can sort of see why ... As for our other friend, people who meet him for thirty seconds assume he's gay and H and I had already predicted that after his last opposite sex relationship ended he was going to come out.

But I think on TV it's 'TV logic' - it's more motivated by issues from the network and the producers than by the story or observation of people. There's more impact to making an established character gay and I guess less risky than making them gay from the start? I don't think it was quite so bad in the case of Willow as she was, what, 19? - which is pretty young to come out anyway. They did handle the gay/bi thing very inconsistently, though, which again I thought was more to do with meta-logic (showing they weren't going to go back on their decision and straighten her out) than a nuanced portrayal of sexuality.

/noodling

[sillymagpie.livejournal.com]

Ugh. Your search sounds like the searches I go through. I blame gremlins, but really, it's because I don't know where to put things. Then I put them in "safe" places.

Poor kitty. At least it overcame its fear long enough to eat.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

the heroes thing was even less well handled than Willow (and she sort of bothered me too but at least I really LIKED her and Tara). I think what gets me is that on tv is often just feels like the producers decide you know what will get ratings...

but in my real life, it's much more like you described. Most of them had an inkling (and us around them did too) that they were either bi or gay.

At least with Luc, he has known for a while he's bi but with his family he didn't dare even think about it. During the first story I have to deal with all that. This one i'm picking at now is actually the second story (and the one most likely to be done first), Luc's moved into the first real relationship he's ever had with a guy

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

i blame the ghosts. It can't be ME who's crazy and senile about where things go.

didn't see poor kitten today but it was POURING.

the icon

[ozma914.livejournal.com]

Words to live by!

[bob_fish.livejournal.com]

Yes, I liked Tara a lot too. Still bummed out that she died to advance teh plot of my least favourite season, and then ... Kennedy. *throws a shoe at Kennedy*

While I do want to see more gay/bi/flexible characters on TV - I still remember the time when there were hardly any, especially main characters, and cut the Willow thing a lot of slack because it was quite a bold move at the time to allow a main character to be gay - I wish it got handled differently, and more producers just had the balls to make characters queer from the start rather than to bring teh issue drama for another badly done coming-out story. (wow, run-on sentence)

... And that's why I like Captain Jack. Well, one of many reasons. (Shame about Torchwood.)

[0-mother-0.livejournal.com]

I think mine was just one of those 'chemically off balance stomachs' that crop up from time to time (for no apparent reason) - and last all day. :(

It seems better this morning *knock wood*

And your dragon is very pretty - Kinda reminds me of the ice dragons.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

glad you're feeling better and yes that dragon does rather resemble the ice dragons

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

loathed Kennedy. I wanted to smack the smug out of Joss when he announced that one of his characters DID have a good relationship (a criticism many fans leveled at him) I'm like Kennedy is one step from sexual predator and creepy

That's also why I liked captain Jack. Yes, TV does a very bad job of coming out stories, really. Poor luc is in love with someone a lot like Jack in many ways