It's spring break

[cornerofmadness]

I should be happy. Between hormones and high blood sugar (and this is the result OF the hormones), my mind feels like it's coming apart and i can't hold on to the pieces.

My sugar makes me mean. Got into a fight with mom who seems to not really understand that I'm drowning in debt at this point. She can't just keep giving me money. The only other things i have to give up are my internet and tv. I'm not sure what I'd do all night without at least one of them. Im not sure what quitting my job and moving home would do. She seems to think I'm capable of living back home with them and working retail or something.

I think mostly she just wants me to come home since I'm a refuge from her mother and my dad. But hell their governor is even more fucking nuts than OH and WI. He wants to strike higher education down by over 50% to save money. Really? WHen did professors start making CEO pay scale? How are we such a threat? Well if we were all dumb it would make it easier to control us. AND as if that isn't bad enough, he refuses to tax the new gas drilling companies which is becomign a boom business in PA. Guess we know whose pocket he's in.

This hurts. I keep dreaming of going back to the two states I really like PA and WI. Most of my friends and family are back in PA. I would like to return. It's not easy when you're a professor, having to wait for a job to come open.

And my student loan idiots are fucking up again too. Last week they sent me paperwork saying they were processing my forebearance. WHAT? You fucktards that was paperwork for my repayment. then they sent me paperwork stating I owe nothing right now. today I got paperwork saying my forebearance was denied. IT WASN'T FOREBEARANCE PAPERWORK!!. I don't even know what to do at this point. They're making me insane.



I might be putting the cats in the kennel. Mom wants to pay for it since I'm going to be gone for a few days this time and not weeks. I'll call tomorrow to see if they'll take them on short notice.

I typed so much my thumb is acting up. Damn you big bang.

I will be doing something for help_japan once it opens up. I'm also thinking of doing it as jana_denardo so people might get the chance to get a short story or invent a character in my novel or something like that. i'll see.




just off the road at 327 heading to Wellston. It's BIG. It's a shame. This must have been so nice once

Comments

[marynachaotica.livejournal.com]

Oh that poor sad house. It's waiting for it's humans to come back...and they're not.

Honey you definitely need a few days away from all the insane stress! Let mom pay for the kennel and just run away for the weekend or so....I'm becoming very worried about you!

[a2zmom.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry life is so rough right now. I wish I had a solution.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks. granted going home probably won't be less stresful

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks. right now the solution is money. sigh

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Ugggh. I wish I knew how to help.

That house was gorgeous back in the day. SO sad.

[silvrethorn.livejournal.com]

The governors in PA and WI are no crazier than our new governor in FL. It looks like my state is all set to become the ground zero...er, proving ground of all the Tea Party's pet theories about ultra-right-wing government. Yes, education is taking the brunt of the budget cuts. Environmental safeguards and health care for the poor are taking all the rest.

You know, if I sold my parents' house and cashed out all our CD's, that wouldn't raise enough cash to pay even half of your student loan debt. I don't know which is more depressing--that your debt load is so high, or that the entire sum of my worldly possessions is worth so little.

Well, at least ELD has some good news. Maybe we should both go and move in with her.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

like i said to a2zmom, money solves it, but no one has it in the quantity i need

yeah this would have been a nice one

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Right. I know that feeling, believe me.

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

I'd say 'yes, please do' but we'd need a bigger boat house.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

but the cats might outnumber the dogs

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

That could be rectified. XD

[marynachaotica.livejournal.com]

Well it'll be a different kind of stress, and will help you get back in balance.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

oh yes

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

that does not surprise me of FL. good luck.

No it probably wouldn't. And BOTH scenarios are freaking depressing.

that's a thought

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

i'll go get 4 more felines

[silvrethorn.livejournal.com]

Aw, c'mon. One of us could live in the attic, and one of us could live in the basement. It would be...cozy.

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

I live in the attic, and I don't have a basement! We need a bigger house. There are a couple of nice ones in the area....

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

I'm sure silvrethorn might be convinced to kidnap Blob Face for our mutual amusement.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

oh no doubt. he'llbe a great addition

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Of course he will. Pewter's getting old and feeble, she might not be able to eat him.

[silvrethorn.livejournal.com]

Your house sucks.

When I viewed your reply on the gmail page, I got a side-ad for residential mold removal. Hmm. Does Google know something you don't? Like it eerily knew that I was in the market for a horse incinerator?

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

hahahaha you and I still need to team up on an Ocala based mystery using a horse incinerator

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

and roy is pretty mean

[silvrethorn.livejournal.com]

Which is eminently doable because Ocala is a big horse incinerator market. For real. Lots of horse farms equals lots of horse corpses. There are at least five livestock disposal services here, probably more. Offing some rich bitch and immolating her along with her favorite show horse would be easy. Too bad those distinctive, custom titanium riding-crop earrings didn't burn, too...

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

My house DOES suck, believe me. If you come up in July, I'll show you how much. XD

I think Google thinks my house could use mold removed? Which, you know, is true. Even if it's dead mold?