It's spring break

[cornerofmadness]

I should be happy. Between hormones and high blood sugar (and this is the result OF the hormones), my mind feels like it's coming apart and i can't hold on to the pieces.

My sugar makes me mean. Got into a fight with mom who seems to not really understand that I'm drowning in debt at this point. She can't just keep giving me money. The only other things i have to give up are my internet and tv. I'm not sure what I'd do all night without at least one of them. Im not sure what quitting my job and moving home would do. She seems to think I'm capable of living back home with them and working retail or something.

I think mostly she just wants me to come home since I'm a refuge from her mother and my dad. But hell their governor is even more fucking nuts than OH and WI. He wants to strike higher education down by over 50% to save money. Really? WHen did professors start making CEO pay scale? How are we such a threat? Well if we were all dumb it would make it easier to control us. AND as if that isn't bad enough, he refuses to tax the new gas drilling companies which is becomign a boom business in PA. Guess we know whose pocket he's in.

This hurts. I keep dreaming of going back to the two states I really like PA and WI. Most of my friends and family are back in PA. I would like to return. It's not easy when you're a professor, having to wait for a job to come open.

And my student loan idiots are fucking up again too. Last week they sent me paperwork saying they were processing my forebearance. WHAT? You fucktards that was paperwork for my repayment. then they sent me paperwork stating I owe nothing right now. today I got paperwork saying my forebearance was denied. IT WASN'T FOREBEARANCE PAPERWORK!!. I don't even know what to do at this point. They're making me insane.



I might be putting the cats in the kennel. Mom wants to pay for it since I'm going to be gone for a few days this time and not weeks. I'll call tomorrow to see if they'll take them on short notice.

I typed so much my thumb is acting up. Damn you big bang.

I will be doing something for help_japan once it opens up. I'm also thinking of doing it as jana_denardo so people might get the chance to get a short story or invent a character in my novel or something like that. i'll see.




just off the road at 327 heading to Wellston. It's BIG. It's a shame. This must have been so nice once

Comments

[marynachaotica.livejournal.com]

Oh that poor sad house. It's waiting for it's humans to come back...and they're not.

Honey you definitely need a few days away from all the insane stress! Let mom pay for the kennel and just run away for the weekend or so....I'm becoming very worried about you!

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks. granted going home probably won't be less stresful

[marynachaotica.livejournal.com]

Well it'll be a different kind of stress, and will help you get back in balance.

[a2zmom.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry life is so rough right now. I wish I had a solution.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks. right now the solution is money. sigh

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Ugggh. I wish I knew how to help.

That house was gorgeous back in the day. SO sad.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

like i said to a2zmom, money solves it, but no one has it in the quantity i need

yeah this would have been a nice one

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Right. I know that feeling, believe me.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

oh yes

[silvrethorn.livejournal.com]

The governors in PA and WI are no crazier than our new governor in FL. It looks like my state is all set to become the ground zero...er, proving ground of all the Tea Party's pet theories about ultra-right-wing government. Yes, education is taking the brunt of the budget cuts. Environmental safeguards and health care for the poor are taking all the rest.

You know, if I sold my parents' house and cashed out all our CD's, that wouldn't raise enough cash to pay even half of your student loan debt. I don't know which is more depressing--that your debt load is so high, or that the entire sum of my worldly possessions is worth so little.

Well, at least ELD has some good news. Maybe we should both go and move in with her.

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

I'd say 'yes, please do' but we'd need a bigger boat house.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

but the cats might outnumber the dogs

[silvrethorn.livejournal.com]

Aw, c'mon. One of us could live in the attic, and one of us could live in the basement. It would be...cozy.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

that does not surprise me of FL. good luck.

No it probably wouldn't. And BOTH scenarios are freaking depressing.

that's a thought

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

I'd rather it take place in Savannah, personally, but.

[sillymagpie.livejournal.com]

Too late, Florida, Arizona already got there with the crazy Tea Party, ultra-right wing, let's okay guns on campuses craziness. :/

[silvrethorn.livejournal.com]

That was Arizona? I had just assumed it was Florida when I read about it in the paper. Or maybe Arizona _and_ Florida are both considering it. Whatever, freedom to carry in stupid places is so in keeping with the current political climate in this state that I didn't even blink.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

i totally missed that. granted in the 80's we did have our hunting guns on campus but back then no one shot each other on campus either

[winters-queen.livejournal.com]

Re: Governors - Yeah. And the thing is, both candidates had taken money from the Big Gas companies for their campaign. I love how ever is like "Yeah, reduce the state worker load". They seem to think we make what the freaking legislature makes per year. But of course, they won't take a cut in their pay or pay for their health benefits and they get six figure retirement entitlements. And the tax payers bitch about state workers.

My department is losing 23 positions but they are pretty much vacancies from people who have retired or what we might have gotten to hire for. The big thing is we support six program offices that are taking big cuts and one of them is being gutted by losing over 700 positions, the Office of Mental Health and Substance Abuse Services. We're thinking that with those kind of cuts, a few of the MH hospitals will be closed.

Oh and did you see that Penn State HAS to raise their tuition and lay off some teachers to supplement their cuts? Really? The school has the highest tuition in the state that raises yearly and they're going to raise it more and maybe close one or two of their satellite campuses.

And with the cut in Education, comes higher school taxes because they're having enough trouble balancing their own budgets.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

oh yeah when you get down to it, they're mostly the same, out for themselves. we don't see them doing any of the things you just mentioned.

so let's cut schools and all become stupider.

sorry you guys are losnig so much.

no I missed that about penn state.

[winters-queen.livejournal.com]

I've gotten used to the threat of being laid off after Rendell. He kind of desensitized us to it.

Penn State got $304 million last year. They're only getting half of it in the 11/12 budget.

http://www.pennlive.com/midstate/index.ssf/2011/03/penn_state_pitt_complain_about.html

[sillymagpie.livejournal.com]

Hugs! Ignore the cluless parents and family.

[ital-gal.livejournal.com]

man, this is just a sucky year all around so far. you sure could use the break, although, i suspect your cats will make you pay for the kennel time....

so hard to know what to do when things are going bad, parents want to help, but sometimes don`t see that the getting of help from mom and dad is not so fun, plus agreed, they rarely realize the extend of the trouble.

sounds like those student loan people could get a job working for your cable/internet company....:)

sorry about the crap time hon.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you very much yeah it's just all over crazy here

[ital-gal.livejournal.com]

probably not very helpful, but there`s a whole lot of suck going on over here as well... .