Soul is gone

[cornerofmadness]

We spent the day today playing and just sitting. He was with me on the couch when I grabbed him and put him in the carrier. He shrieked. He hated the carrier (and Kanda went and hide when he heard him). He didn't say a word after that.

The guy from the Perennial Cat Shelter (check them out) met me at the car and asked me how I was. I couldn't answer and he didn't miss a beat, answering for me. Sad. He told me about how he cried when he had to give up the kittens his cat had. We talked about getting my students down there to volunteer. He showed me the place and the new cats, 9 of the predicted twenty all from the same woman. One looked just like Kanda.

Soul will be in the isolation crate for a week. We couldn't get him into it. I had to completely dissamble the carrier to get him out. He was terrified and I felt so horrible. He spent the rest of the time huddled in a corner, his chin on the litter box. At least he'll have company in that room because someone else came to surrender a very calm and cool about it white cat with bi colored eyes. I was there for about an hour before I said goodbye. Oran, the man who's sort of running it, assured me they've never not had a cat qualify for the no kill exemption and that if there was some reason Soul didn't make it, they'd let me know. I'll go get him back.

I'm calmer now than I was all day and it didn't help that the day started horrible. I had had a headche all day yesterday but at midnight it turned blinding. I'll call it a migraine for intensity but it wasn't one of my migraines. It was one of the ones I went to the doc for and he acted like he didn't believe me, the old bastard. It has to deal with my sinuses and this weather. Lying down hurt. If I did fall asleep I'd be awake within the hour in so much pain I thought my eye was falling out. If it wasn't 3 in the damn morning I would have gone to the ER and said look at my sinus NOW. It's doing it NOW. So I've had no sleep and it was a long day.

I took a video (the first time on this camera) of them playing but it was SO dark it's not really good but here it is with me sounding like an idiot. You can see the huge stack of grading in its bag.

"The HU - Yuve Yuve Yu" (Watch on YouTube)

And I took some final photos


Last night, as is this



This morning, his favorite spot to sit


I keep looking for him on the side of my chair.

Kanda ran and hid from me when I came home. It's been a sucky year pet wise. I lost Roy in March. Mom and Dad lost Rogue in June, John lost Pebbles last month and now Soul.

And to end on a slightly better note check otu these

Christmas trees around the world I love looking at takes around the world (so why did we need about 3-4 things from DC I don't know)

Comments

[mustangsally78.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry, hon.

He just wouldn't be a pet. Some cats aren't. You did your best and you can't be expected to live in a house full of piss and shit. He'll be fine and probably will acclimatize to his new life in no time. Cats are so opportunistic.

I am so sorry, you did the best that you could.

:::hug:::

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you. I know you're right.

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

I know how bad it hurts. I cried and cried after we took Loki to the shelter, even though I didn't really like him very much and had come to resent him being in my house. But I felt like I'd failed him because I couldn't do anything with him.

It's painful, but remind yourself this might be for the best. Someone might be looking for Soul.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

that is definitely how I feel.

If i lived anywhere but here I'd feel a little better about this

[helliongoddess.livejournal.com]

You know I can relate. But you really did try so hard, and you really are doing the best thing for him. He's such a GORGEOUS guy, I have no doubt some good patient person who wants a one-kitty home will fall in love with him, and Soul will find his soulmate (sorry ^__^.) But really! It took a few months, but eventually I got a letter from the breeders of my pup, saying they had finally found him just the right forever home- and I'm sure Soul will find his. That sounds like a wonderful shelter, it has to help knowing they are so caring, and will take such good care of him. He'll be ok. Now you focus on taking care of you! *hugs* Feel better - that's an order from the oldest goddess around this joint!

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

hahahha i need to do that. I always neglect myself

and thanks. and I'm glad the breeder let you know the one you had to return found his home

[sp23.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry that you had to give up Soul. I know that was so hard for you. (((hugs)))

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

It was. thank you

[mamculuna.livejournal.com]

So hard, but you do what you have to do. I really believe he'll find the kind or home he needs.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you very much

[ljgould.livejournal.com]

I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better, but there really isn't. You did what is best for you and for Soul. I know that it doesn't feel that way right now, though. I believe there is someone out there who will give him a wonderful forever home.

Hugs to you.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks. I sure hope so. My worry here more than anything is I am so rural and some of these people are locked in the 1950s in attitude about everything. I just hope someone wants him (or as I said in another post, living in the shelter wouldn't be bad. It's a whole small house.)

[wildrider.livejournal.com]

I understand so much. This is exactly how I felt about returning Felix. I still think about him and hope he found his best Forever Home whenever I see a brindle now.

Soul will find someone who loves him. We have to think it was best for both of you! *hugs*

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you yes. I know it had to be hard to return Felix.

I just hope good someone here takes him (or he lives out his life in the shelter. it's an actual house they mostly have free run of)

[bay115.livejournal.com]

Indeed giving a pet away is hard (had to do that several times). Like everyone else, I'm sure someone will be able to give Soul a good home. *hugs*

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you very much and sorry you had to go thru it so often

[sholio]

*hugs* I'm so sorry that it turned out this way, and that you're having to deal with feeling bad on top of everything else.

But I agree with everyone else that you did the best thing, and that it'll work out for Soul in the end.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you very much.

I can always trust this body to do the wrong thing at the wrong time

[medelle.livejournal.com]

*HUGS*

I'm so sorry you had to give him up. Hopefully there is some sweet little old lady out there waiting to give him her undivided attention.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

That's the hope. thank you

[flybynight00.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you're so sad, but you know you did the right thing. I hope he finds the home he needs!

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you

[purple-smurf.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry you had to do this, but (as everyone else has said) it's what is best for both you and Soul in the end. I'm sure he'll find a forever home with someone whose house suits him better.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks. I certainly hope so

[0-mother-0.livejournal.com]

{{{hugs}}} to you, my friend, and best wishes for Soul. it's hard, but we gotta do what we gotta do.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks. you are so right

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

I think you've done the best thing for him you could have done under the circumstances. Good luck, Soul!

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

I agree. thank you

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, Soul finally had to go. You both tried, but you couldn't make the relationship work. Sometimes that happens, but you did the right thing, by giving him a chance to be happy with a family looking for a single cat to pamper and love. *huggles*

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks so much

[winters-queen.livejournal.com]

Awww, I'm sorry. {hugs}

You did all that you could and at least you found a place that he'll have someone to play with until he finds a furever home. And at least the guy will keep in contact with you.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks yes that's the good part

[dragonydreams.livejournal.com]

*hugs you tight* I know that wasn't easy for you, but hopefully he'll find a place he'll be happier.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks. with them only taking 15 cats at a time, it'll be easier for them to place him

[silvrethorn.livejournal.com]

I wish there could have been some way to fix Soul's problems. He's been a good companion aside from the marking issues. I hope he won't manifest those issues in his new "house" and cause himself more grief, but maybe the change of venue is just what he needs. Fingers crossed.

Now go get your Febreez and reclaim the apartment :/.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

so do I. Thanks.

I think we're beyond Febreez. I need to get one of those enzymatic cleaners and soak the carpet

[havocmangawip.livejournal.com]

You did the right thing. He's a beautiful cat and will make an excellent ONLY cat.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

I sure hope so. Thank you

[rahirah]

:hugs:

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you

[dinpik.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. It sounds like you're doing what's best for you, Soul and your other cat, though.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks. Yes it really is for the best

I'm so sorry.

[digitalmeowmix2.livejournal.com]

You gave him all the love you had and he knows you cared for him. Wherever he goes next I'm sure he will be adored and safe.

Re: I'm so sorry.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you very much