I'm not sleeping

[cornerofmadness]

I'm not sure why. I was very tired last night, didn't even try to read before I went to bed. Was still awake at quarter til 3. Got up a 6. Gave up at 8. I've done that for the last three nights. It's probably the summer heat. It usually does it to me in spite of all the fans pointed at the bed. It's like sleeping in a wind tunnel.

It got me out of bed early though. I thought it would be cool enough to work on the garden. SO fucking wrong there. I want to know where all these weeds are coming from? Plastic down. Mulch over it. cardboard UNDER it. Still weeds. Oh god the weeds. I at least got in half the plants. I have more to plant before they die, including the lilies from Lilyfest TWO weeks ago. SO hot. So flooded. Whimpers. If I get it down and don't die in the process I'll take pictures.

Hmmm the serial killer in my area might be dead. Or at least someone with a rape/murder kit got killed by the woman he was trying to kill. More here

Day 24 of the self love challenge - What do you wish for more than anything else? (When you tell people what you dream about, they can help you…)

I like that thought. I DO but mostly my wishes are not something you can help me with. I wish I never hurt my hand and lost a job a trained SO hard for. I wish that losing that job didn't saddle me so much student debt I will never see the end to it. I wish I wasn't diabetic or at least I wish that my feet, kidneys and eyes stay healthy in spite of it.

Those are my deepest wishes and they are impossible. The best I can do is manage my diabetes the best I can. I'm thinking of talking to a lawyer about crowdfunding for student loans. I don't know all the ramifications of that (hey someone got thousands to try freaking potato salad...)

The wish I have that people could help me with is my writing. When I have something to share, help me share it more broadly. If you like it, tell others. REVIEW IT! Seriously in this electronic age, that matters. Amazon bases how visible a book is based on reviews. Review any author whose book you've liked (and if you're the type to give bad reviews well at least give examples of why it's bad. Don't be the person who gives one star and say 'ewwwww werewolves' on a book clearly labeled as a werewolf story. I mean why even bother?) Help me get noticed more. That is my wish (and help those I'm trying to showcase too because it's good karma).

Comments

[mamculuna.livejournal.com]

Yay that the woman took care of herself! Maybe those assholes will remember that.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Here's hoping. I'm going to Chillicothe on sunday night and I was thinking about this guy. Granted I wasn't much of a risk. He went for the lowest hanging fruit (most of the women were prostitutes and/or drug addicts)