what a day

Starts out at 7 AM when mom calls me to ask about the plane tickets she's buying me to go to FL. (okay we already talked about this a dozen times...) she gets them. Oddly enough I can leave here at 1pm instead of 430pm but once I get to Minneapolis I only have ONE flight out to Orlando so if I go at 1 pm I'm on the same plane so why go early (there's only 3 of us on this plane so far...) Minne to Fl is overbooked so this will be fun.

Then I call my student loans. The bitch calls me a liar and refuses to believe you can NOT mail to the house because there's no postal delivery because the town's too small and tells me they'r going to sue me. I said do it. I make under 500$ a month. WHAT do you think you'll get? Lint?

Then the boss is pushing me to talk to the dean and suddenly it's urgent. i.e. someone must be kicking up a fuss and he wants her to get my side to. This sucks. What a bunch of crybabies.

Now tonight I was stretching out my arm trying to figure out why it hurts and I have a huge lump on the inside of my elbow. It's a swelling about two inches long and across. It hurts. I didn't hurt my arm...if it doesnt' go away guess who has to figure out if her insurance works in this state. It's on that bad nerve so it might be further nerve damage. sigh.

And I can't make ch 15 of Hyperion's Son find an END. It's 20 pages long. Gag.

Dreams

I know I said I'd be putting my dreams in here from time to time. Here's what I remember of this week's

a) I was home. My brother was desparate for me to see this new allopathic bone graft he had invented. (for those who don't know we use allopathic bone as cement and screws in orthopedic surgery). I'm like neat, sure. Instead of going to a lab to see lab rats, he takes me out into the woods and out there is this little elfin looking boy with a malformed leg. My brother shows me the 'graft' which is nothing but bare femur, tibia and fibula but no foot. He's lining it up to this boy's leg and telling me how great it'll be even without the foot because prothesis for just a foot are easier to walk with than one that has to take the place of a whole leg (this is true). I'm screaming at him that a) you can't experiment on humans b) it'll never work. It's dead bone, no periosteum, no active marrow and how in the world could you work in all the muscle attachments, blood vessles and nerves. Then I woke up.

b) I was at my aunt's house, the one who died of alcohol-related problems this year. Her two daughter were with me and it was Halloween. We were waiting for trick or treaters and we were in costume. We were all in the living room and I was sitting in this 70's super high wing back chair and I kicked over a wine bottle that was hidden under the chair. I grabbed it up a little of the chardonney had spilled. We were happy it wasn't a red wine that would have stained the white carpet. So we started to clean it up. But the more we cleaned the more wine welled out of the carpeting, far more than was in the bottle. Finally, my hand went right through the floor because it had been eaten away. I said we were in trouble and then we all fell through into a huge blackness.

c) This morning I was on stage, HUgh Jackman was the director, Emma Caulfield was writing our lines and Vincent Kartheiser was at least one of our actors. It was a weird almost vaudeville like production, part musical, part not, real short skits. We were doing really well and Emma would write us new lines as we'd go. and something had happened well into the production after we were off book and none of could remember our lines. Keith Urban walked in and was watching from the wings and all the ladies noticed (for those who don't know he's an Aussie Country singer). One of the girls flubbed a line and then I realized I didn't know my song at all but then VK started singing it for me instead of his song then stopped realizing it was mine but even after hearing it I couldn't remember it and Hugh fired us all.

Because I can't resist peer pressure

I'm now signed up at Nano WriMo...fine. So I foolishly said I'll write a novel in a month. Yea me. Hey did find out a handful of people actually HAVE published their nano novels...

oh and here's me in tarot form NOT ONE WORD!

I am The Fool The Fool can signal a new beginning or change of direction - one that will guide you onto a path of adventure, wonder and personal growth. He also reminds you to keep your faith and trust your natural responses. If you are facing a decision or moment of doubt, the Fool tells you to believe in yourself and follow your heart no matter how crazy or foolish your impulses may seem. The Fool also frequently messes up the numbers he inputs into forms. Maybe you should try it again... For a full description of your card and other goodies, please visit LearnTarot.com

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You hear about it happening

BUt you never think it'll happen to you. Okay so I work late thursdays so that becomes prepackaged food night. Tonight I decided to try the Bush Homestyle chili in a jar (you know the one the cute Golden Retriever promo's). It's not bad. Sadly I couldn't find it here with just beans. While I'm a carnivore, and unrepentant about it, I hate ground beef but I figure a little won't be bad. Okay, this stuff actually tastes okay especially loaded down with cheese. I hit something hard and it hurts my tooth and I'm thinking oh great. a piece of gristle or something. THIS is why I hate ground beef. I spit it out and it's a ROCK. A freaking half inch stone! I'm beyond grossed out at this point.

ELD will tell you I'm an exceedingly picky eater and I don't eat that much to begin with. Now my appetite is GONE but my blood sugar was so low I can't skip a meal. I do cobble together a salad for dinner. And yes I AM writing Bush Beans about this. How vile.

And to top it all off, one file folder is now missing from my word documents. It was there this morning. I went to access it because it's for my writers group and my critiques are due tomorrow. It's GONE. It's not there. It's not in the recycle bin. Now, I CAN find if I run a search for it but not if I just go and look for it. I have several music video files like this. If I search for them I can find them. It says they're under my music but if you look there, you can't see them but they downloaded that way. HOW can a file that was there simply disappear?