cornerofmadness

I had a horrible night. My sugar was high. Took my evening insulin, went to read a book before bed, sugar crashed in a major way. I was up til three AM, eating things and trying to get it to stablize.

I woke at 7 AM, and I couldn't fall back asleep. I didn't feel wide awake. I was groggy and every time I felt like I was going to sleep I was jerked back awake like I was a yoyo on a string.

What does this have to do with the weather? Mom called at 9 AM and said stay home. There's a 70% chance of a horrible storm today (and yes I heard that too). Worse than they thought with high winds and hail. Just pack your car up and come tomorrow. I was so disoriented, I argued a bit. I got out of bed and started packing up the last of the toiletries and she called again. Serious do not come.

You know what Mom, I feel horrible. I need saline and what about my laundry since I'll have no undies for the trip. We'll do laundry all night and I'm going to the store anyhow, you stay there. Okay. I'm going back to bed then since I had like 4 hours of crap sleep.

I went back to bed, thinking I still can't sleep.It's too hot in here and I can't get more naked and there are two fans on the bed. Boom. I was out for an hour.

So let's pray that the storm hits today and tomorrow IS only the 30% chance they predict because I have to go tomorrow in order to make the plane on saturday.

Also

sp23 you're in the path of this storm I know for sure so be safe.

are we shocked? No. It's supposed to rain all night but clear by the afternoon. You know no matter WHEN I leave, it will be miserable. I have no choice but to go tomorrow.

That said I'm glad I stayed. I felt horribly drained all day. Mostly I did nothing but piss about on the internet, paid some bills I nearly forgot and watch some tv and finally around five started working on a couple lectures for the new class. The publisher puts out power points you can use for this and they are way overly detailed. In one way that's good, less typing for me but on the other hand, it's hard to know what to remove.

my neighbor, the older woman who promised to help water my garden knocked on my door today and almost started crying. She and her husband don't get his disability until tuesday and they have no food. Can she work for me for 20$? I said I was going to give her 20$ for doing the garden and taking care of Roy anyhow. Oh, but that's not enough work for that much money. Okay, well you can help me when I have my surgery. Of course there are a few other things running thru my mind. A) will I have ANY belongings by the time I get back from this trip b) is this for real? c) if so, then HOW can they live here? This place isn't cheap by standards down here (by everywhere else, yes). If it's a problem this month won't it be a problem next month? I think I smell a whiff of bull but since I had already planned on paying for her help (though I would have based it on how many plants I had left when I got back), I did it anyhow.

Also since there won't be a writerly ways this weekend, check out both

onyxhawke, an agent whose post today was a pretty good look at how to market yourself, especially if you're a bit more introverted and here's another way to market yourself and earn reader loyalty here at pink fuzzy slippers

Sort of wondering do I do round two of help the south for Missouri/Oklahoma and whoever the hell is next?

( day 208, Buddha )