cornerofmadness

Because I've been forgetting to. One of you asked what drives up my blood sugar. STRESS. OMG it's 300 tonight and I barely eat anything (also that could also be a reason for it to be so high) THat will get my surgery canceled for sure.

All the damn rushing around, it turns out I'll be back here for like 4 days prior to my sugery since i have to come back here for that pre-op physical. Well, if I knew that I could have packed up the car and left tonight but now i'm not ready to do that and tomorrow is supposed to SUCK. I'm a little nervous about driving home tomorrow. The weather should be bad.

I'm afraid I've forgotten something. I usually do. Oh well. here's hoping not. I would like the anxiety to go away now. Woke up with the full body shakes last night. Everything inside me now feels like it's dancing. THe meditation didn't help much.

now things are going thru my mind like, can I wear a bra after this surgery? That'll make for fun class time if I can't. Gah, wish I had known this back in Jan. when they first gave me the diagnosis (or under diagnosis). I wouldn't have taken this convention on and I would have given away the summer class and survived on beans and raman.

looked all over for some hand written story bits only to finally remember where they are, in the folder from the monday workshop on my desk at work. Sigh. chalk that up as a loss for now.

Okay you're tired of hearing me whine. I'm sorry.

( day 208, my garden )

ETA - Forgot to mention Happy Towel day to all the hoopy froods out there