cornerofmadness

The funeral was hard. I was astounded that they not only had an open casket but that they managed to make my aunt look like a human being again. We had to get there first and that was literally one of the longest hour and halfs of my life helping to receive guests.I helped Aunt S2 with the donations which entailed holding her purse which I'm pretty sure had a dismembered body in it. it was SO heavy even before people handed me money cards The service was... baptist and so long.so very long. Everyone was crying at the beginning but the pastor went on so long most of that stopped. It was a strange service (granted anything but a Catholic mass feels a little odd to me) but it went on so long the funeral directors had to wave him to an end. the first part was fine but then he added in about my aunt wanting him to tell us about salvation. Honestly none of us believed that. Yes she was religious but not like this and it just seemed an odd time to really start preaching.

My aunt had chosen all of her own songs and the food for us afterward (mostly all her favorite things). That was nice and I'll have to have Dad show me and mom where she was buried (only the pall bearers went to the graveside).

It's amazing how exhausted an emotionally trying day will make you