what I feared has come to pass

This morning I cut my toe nails and painted them and got a bit on the skin. I went to get the polish remover and saw blood on the cotton ball. Something (probably Soul reaching out to grab me like he does) cut my big toe, the one I can't feel, and sure enough the toe was sliced open. I had to remove a flap of skin. It's not deep but the point is, I couldn't feel the wound. It's all cleaned, antibiotic ointment covered and bandaged, still not my point. I'm a little depressed about it all.(and oh, NOW it's throbbing nicely thank you)

To top it off, my novella is missing from my royalty summary for the quarter (yes, they're looking into it but gah)

And then I found out the meat I put away, I used half prior then froze it to keep, was bad. so much for dinner. I guess the freezer was out of power in that storm longer than I knew.

And my secretary's mom and sister are selling their houses, both ones I would like in areas I find livable but I can't afford either of them. Why are they moving? Sis has multiple medical problems and is moving closer to Cincinatti and better health care but also she is having trouble living alone because she lost both legs to diabetes.

BUT it's not all doom and gloom. I met the new computer science prof. We have a big new CS degree that I've mentioned. She's a quirky little thing and it looks like she's going to be a lot of fun. Yes occasionally we fight but on the whole, the faculty at this school is great. we're more like friends.

So since state of mind is proven to influence healing, tell me something good or funny.

Also has anyone tried the blog associated with wordpress. It's probably the easiest thing for me to deal with when starting up my non-erotica webpage.


ETA - I also think I accidentally shredded everything i wrote in the last three days. WAH (unless it's on my desk at work, I think it was attached to something i gave to the secretary to shred. I didn't realize it wasn't in the folder i thought it was)

Fic - Small Comfort

Title -- Small Comfort
Author-- cornerofmadness
Disclaimer -- I don’t own them
Rating -- teen
Characters/Pairing -- gen fic, Heine, Naoto, Nill
Timeline/Spoilers -- soon after Naoto starts hanging out in the church
Word Count -- 901
Warning -- angst
Summary -- She doesn’t see him as a monster.
Author’s Note -- written for hc_bingo for the prompt ‘experiments by evil scientists.’

( I’m a monster )

A day of harsh reality

Tuesday is a long grueling day at the best of time. The non-stop standing for 6 straight hours makes my leg go numb (spinal issues). Today was worse. Some of the students make me want to shoot them. But the harsh reality wasn't for them (okay it was that too) I got to work to learn my coworker/friend's dad passed away last night. Honestly I knew it was coming and I know he's not going to deal well. I feel very sorry for him. And here's the creepy thing, yesterday's date was also the date his mom died years ago. So I guess the funeral will be in a day or two.

My toe is beet red. Still doctoring.

I DID shred my damn story bits. I'm pretty upset right now. I'm just as upset that I changed my mind again. I'm pretty sure I do not like Jo Evans as a pen name. Yes it's easy. Yes it reflects my grandmother's name but I just don't know. Is thatbetter than Concetta? Is Auleria too hard to spell? I don't know. My parents have opinions but they won't voice them. They will voice useless advice though. I'm about to cry (thank you that time of the month)

I aslo wrote myself into a corner. I was trying to fix a problem in the Scarred Soldier story that both mamculuna and evil_little_dog spotted and I fucked it up royally. So now I have to start all over. There is no way the conversation can go as I have it since Aaron and Sebastian are not in a relationship yet when Kyle threatens Seb's kids. So for this to work he either ignores the threat to his daughter and the relationship has time to happeyn or goes to save his kid sees the threat to Aaron and says fuck it, I'm doing it anyhow. I have to figure out if i can salvage ANY of this. what a waste. Maybe it's better I stuck the shit in a shredder by accident.

And Mom and Dad are really missing Rogue

This week can go suck itself.

ETA - I forgot to mention that I got a call today from India to tell me that he was with computer services and that they have detected a virus on my computer and he was here to help. I told him that in no way does my antiviral programs HAVE my phone number and to go to hell before hanging up.