cornerofmadness

Today was relatively easy. I went to PT in the morning, sat in the coffee shop to write (and the parents with the unruly child took turns taking him outside why the other ate so no one would be disturbed, thank you to them) and the rest of the day was me working on my research until my eyes bled.

It was then around 5ish I looked down and thought, what's on my toe? Torn skin, that's what. On my left foot my first three toes are seriously black and blue. I do not know why. I'm literally highly upset by this. I'm neuropathic, meaning I don't feel my feet well. However to do this much damage I should be aware of doing it. This is signficant injury so how do I NOT know how I did it. It looks like I dropped something on it or slammed my foot into something. I should be able to remember that so I'm wondering if I did it on the footboard last night and didn't wake up (somehow)

What I Just Finished Reading:
Execution Dock - Anne Perry, not one of her strongest efforts
The Boston Metaphysical Society graphic novel I enjoyed it with one big exception, Tesla as the not so great guy


What I am Currently Reading:
A Botanist's Guide to Parties and Poisons by Kate Khavari -- I'm enjoying this too but I do not like one thing that happened

Native Wisdom - Ed McGaan, I'm remembering why I put this on a shelf 30 years ago...

The Heir of Bluescale - this is self published and boy this is why self pubbing had such a bad name for so long. I'm not sure I can make it through.


What I Plan to Read Next: the stuff I just got from the library

Mom and I both had podiatry appointments. I almost canceled mine (as I AM a podiatrist and I could tell my foot was healed) He agreed. My feet are in excellent condition (as they should be) Most likely because of the bad architecture of my foot I had stress fractured my big toe up and down the steps at my parents at Christmas so 2 1/2 months out (HOW?) it's healed.

I was worried about mom's foot because she's lost the one toe and suddenly had a dark callous on the neighboring toe that wasn't there the last time she saw her manicurist. Luckily it's nothing as well but it's worth keeping an eye on.


Yesterday I took a mug out of my new microwave and clipped the edge of the turntable...and it broke a piece off.. Are you even kidding me with this

ANd here goes the rollercoaster again - 75 today 50 tomorrow


Music Monday

One of the Prodigies on twitter posted this a Gil song for Malcolm and I'm like wow, I missed a Citizen Soldier song. It is perfect for Gil and for any of us who have been there with someone suffering.






Here's one that I like a lot...and am not sure I understand a single lyric. ha.

I have two different pains. My knee is killing me. It feels like a curling iron is across the back of it which is nerve pain. I'm not sure if this is merely because I'm not riding the bike right now. I will get back to it on Saturday. It's also hurting right on the quadriceps tendon. Now it has been since the beginning and now it's no longer a blob hanging off on end, the whole patellar area is edematous. I still wonder if there is a small tear from my fall (I still need to find a better ortho)

My big toe is also burning pain which is the neuropathy and it is swollen and I think I've said it before i'm worried there are bad diabetic changes going on. Maybe I'll get lucky and it's a lipoma or ganglion cyst. I see the doc on monday.

And had a mild panic attack today, thinking my appointment to see vascular was the same day I see the podiatrist. I don't want to put off my toe but I can not miss the vascular surgeon (he is a kind man and has his team schedule testing and seeing me on the same day so I don't have to drive to Columbus twice but that also means it's an all day affair.

classics_lover

I can't manage to edit my story for some reason.

I also wish a) people would do me the favor of honoring my one request: do not send me political emails (from either side) b) stop engaging me if the only thing you're going to do is yuck on my yum. There are a couple friends (not here over on FB/twitter) who ONLY say anything to me when they have an opposing thought. I do mean that. they don't like any of the other stuff. If they didn't jump in to tell me how wrong something is I'd never hear from them leaving me wondering why am I putting up with this nonsense. Anyone else ever have to deal with this?

I didn't really expect it was but it was good to check. So had the x-ray. NP says you have a HUGE plantar heel spur. Yes I know but that's not where the pain is. NP: Your Achilles has a crown of spurs around it, big ones. Me: Yes I know, doesn't hurt there either. It hurts here. (points to circle drawn on foot with sharpie). Long story short, it's neuritis, I bought some lidocaine gel and slapped my TENs/Inferential unit on it and called it a day. Neither have done much for the pain but there's a shocker.

It hasn't snowed yet like they promised but it rained for at least 16 hours straight. I'm just as glad to sit at home and write things I'm not supposed to be writing. Eye roll.

I am pretty happy to see that in just 2 days 2 AM Aftermath has made it to almost 90 kudos and it would be cool to see it go to 100 so if you know anyone who might like Prodigal Son fan fic....

9414 / 50000 words. 19% done!

So now I have a broken toe to go with the broken tooth. Same toe I broke last year. At least it took me 13 months to rebreak it this time. Oddly enough it ached liked it was broken yesterday to the point I was checking it to see what was wrong. Apparently it knew it was going to meet the sweeper head on today.

I got my blog posts done so thanks everyone.

Now I HAVE to get my spook_me story done. Why the hell is this story over 10K already? WHY? I'll never have time to do the other story I wanted to.

And for those I owe trick or treats, I will get to them. I promise. Eventually.

At least my hot water tank gave up and spewed everywhere last night and NOT when I'm gone for 10 days. Everything would have been ruined instead of just today. SOrry for ruining your day Landlord but... And it was ruined. I didn't have enough time to kill the power and cool that tank. They tried to drain it. It was SO filled with calcium deposits it wasn't possible. It blocked off the hose and no one told me they had the door open. It was hours before I knew if Kanda was out or hiding really well (the latter). So they muscle the tank out, FULL, and burn themselves and nearly break my door but finally the fucking thing is lying in the yard and it STILL can't drain.

So people with hot water tanks you own, it pays to do as they say, hook up a hose and flush that thing from time to time. LL's helper is supposed to come clean the carpet but doesn't. LL tells me to do what I need to do because it's an hour of travel time alone to even got get a damn tank at Lowes and get back again. Now someone is supposed to come in the afternoon to change out that old thermostat too.

So I go put in my grades and do what I need to there. Get home just as he gets back with the tank. The thermostat guy came while I was gone. Naturally. So the tank is bigger than the old one (so maybe I can actually get thru a shower without it going cold now). It takes doing to get it in there. Meanwhile he has none of the right tools. I had to give him my screwdrivers, my pliers and strippers and even my damn reading glasses so he can put the thermostat on.

He needed tiny screwdrivers for that. I had those. The only thing I didn't have was a drill. Must buy drill. He even raided my tool box for a damn hammer (what was he planning on using to do this? the force?) I dropped my gargoyle on my foot in finding those tiny screwdrivers.



It's solid terra cotta and you can't see it's wings. I'm not sure if the toe is broken but it IS cut and that thing had been in grandma's basement for nearly two decades so yeah I better keep an eye on the toe.

But it's all done. I have a bigger brand new tank, a wet floor and a new thermostat and a boo boo toe.

Finally got around to sharing the links from the Irish Fest a week later. I got the Oak Ogham necklace Soul Harbor Jewelry Click on it to see it's meaning (It's my Celtic birth sign). If you look at the pendants and see the Celtic sun, I had a dream about that back in the early 2000s but all the rays were Celtic knotwork. I dreamed a friend had taken me to her tattoo artist and I got that as a tattoo.

lovely animated art

And I listened to new releases on SPotify today and came across a 3 disc set I'm still working through called Orbit: Music for Solo Cello and I love it. I also found a band called Kaleo. My character of that name is amused. I think they're from Iceland, kinda bluesy. I need to listen to more.

my Windows 8 computer has been begging me for months to update to 8.1. I've TRIED. It's never downloaded. For some stupid reason I told it to try again last night. It finally managed it nearly 24 hours later. It asked me to restart so it could apply the changes. I went to start dinner, came to check and about died. It had a Boot error, no discs detected. I'm like OMG the update killed the computer (AGAIN, this has happened before). I restarted it again and it obvious is working but damn.

My students make me literally sob. I have never had a class where I have one person getting nearly 100% and the rest should not pass. They barely even come. They all want to go to grad school. I don't even know what to say to that.

The heel of my right foot split open and sleeping was painful. My fault. I didn't put on the medicine. Dummy.

In good news: new stuff in my writing

This morning I cut my toe nails and painted them and got a bit on the skin. I went to get the polish remover and saw blood on the cotton ball. Something (probably Soul reaching out to grab me like he does) cut my big toe, the one I can't feel, and sure enough the toe was sliced open. I had to remove a flap of skin. It's not deep but the point is, I couldn't feel the wound. It's all cleaned, antibiotic ointment covered and bandaged, still not my point. I'm a little depressed about it all.(and oh, NOW it's throbbing nicely thank you)

To top it off, my novella is missing from my royalty summary for the quarter (yes, they're looking into it but gah)

And then I found out the meat I put away, I used half prior then froze it to keep, was bad. so much for dinner. I guess the freezer was out of power in that storm longer than I knew.

And my secretary's mom and sister are selling their houses, both ones I would like in areas I find livable but I can't afford either of them. Why are they moving? Sis has multiple medical problems and is moving closer to Cincinatti and better health care but also she is having trouble living alone because she lost both legs to diabetes.

BUT it's not all doom and gloom. I met the new computer science prof. We have a big new CS degree that I've mentioned. She's a quirky little thing and it looks like she's going to be a lot of fun. Yes occasionally we fight but on the whole, the faculty at this school is great. we're more like friends.

So since state of mind is proven to influence healing, tell me something good or funny.

Also has anyone tried the blog associated with wordpress. It's probably the easiest thing for me to deal with when starting up my non-erotica webpage.


ETA - I also think I accidentally shredded everything i wrote in the last three days. WAH (unless it's on my desk at work, I think it was attached to something i gave to the secretary to shred. I didn't realize it wasn't in the folder i thought it was)