cornerofmadness

As if it wasn't hard enough today when the meditation (guided) was about loving one's self made me think 'no, not really,' Mom tells me one of my relatives (doesn't matter which) told her that I complain too much on facebook. This is not the first time someone has said that about me in one medium or another. I DO try not to complain too much. I know how tiring that can be to hear/read. But this is like the third time I've heard this from the family and it hit hard. I even went back as best I could on the time line and only saw TWO complaints since June, one about the chili oil on the car and the other about the housing options here.

I hid it from Mom but hearing that really made me upset. I always feel that no matter what I do, I'm never quite good enough for everyone else in the family. Amazing isn't it, how family does that. They ought to see some of my friends' posts. They air dirty laundry like no one's business. Frankly I make a bigger effort not to complain on FB than hear because it's so open. My family is there, students could find me and hell potential EMPLOYERS look at it routinuely now. I never mention students there or anything.

Sigh. Certainly didn't help that 'do i love myself' thing. How ironic is it to whine about being accused of being a whiner? I will try to do better. I don't want the only thing people remember of me is 'she complained a lot.'

So let's find a happy for you all. Today was a do nothing day of grading, laundry and scrubbing out litter boxes and toilets but I DO have something to share with you.

Here help me pick a bad guy This is for my story that I want to submit to an anthology that will be sold to help homeless LGBT youth. If you'd like to try your own hand at it, click as well. Come on, look at the fun baddies I've narrowed the list down to.

declutter day 105 item tossed- Native American in a Canoe statue why kept -Part of my Native American collection why tossed -My collection is too vast. Time to separate the wheat from the chaff