Stick a fork in deep

I'm more than done. Boy is my Wednesday long with a two hour lab, lunch hour then 3 hours of class back to back in a windowless cell of a room that's now over 80 degrees. But I think my classes will b e good.

I wanted to go more into my Prodigal Son thoughts but my god am I tired so not tonight. However, without being very spoilery, they continued the racism/cop issues story line (as I guess they shall for most of the season or at least the first part of it). And they are doing it well in spite of some of the back lash from some fans who just can't seem to handle it for whatever reason, they don't even believe it possible in spite of everything that happened last year and in recent years.

But I can tell you from experience it is real (and no I'm not putting this out there as me understanding the pain of PoC when faced with racism, not all. It doesn't compare). My brushes with it weren't going to put my life in jeopardy but my job and my mental health you bet. Once based on my sex and once on my ethnicity (okay more than once on both but one where it was deeply affecting). The first was do I report it, do I report the harrassment, the touching, the taking my patient files so I don't know what's going on so they could humiliate me in front of our bosses, belittling me in front of patients so they were afraid to have a female doctor, knowing that the last woman to report it was blackballed and was working nowhere because they wouldn't let her (eventually it worked out that we brought the suits together through a woman's group so our jobs were protected and we couldn't be singled out).

The other they found out I was Italian, I was locked out of surgeries with the 'WASP' doctors who ran the hospital (left with the Jewish and Black doctors who took me under their wing) And when they saw I did find mentors, lied to my residency directors where the least that could happen was me being fired, the worse being sued and even potentially jailed for patient abandonment. Luckily two other residents (also Italian) knew that hospital well since it was their med. school) and they told me. When the complaining doctor was asked to describe the person who ran out of the surgery mid-operation, (because that part was real but the doctors who didn't like my ethnicity told him it was me) and he said I was 5'2" and blond (I'm 5'9" and brown haired)

So yes I can believe what happened with JT's character. I find it far too believable.

And then we have Eugene Goodman who in spite of everything (because can you imagine what police officers who are of color are going through, unable to trust some of the racist officers and wondering if they're betraying their own?) made himself a target to rioting white supremacists to lead them away from the politicians.

I of course couldn't see the celebration in D.C. today but I did find Amanda Gorman's poem in full here. (and you can find her book of poetry here.)

Biden doing more in a day to make me happy than I thought possible and this is just ONE thing he did


then there is this guy If he wasn't supporting such a vile man, I might feel almost sorry for him. Some of them might be decent people lead astray by lies. Some are more than awful and not deserving a moment of pity. It's a fight sometimes to not harden your heart and be close minded. BTW does ANYONE know why


DW keeps stripping out my paragraphs? I thought maybe it was the snowflake HTML but I'm not using it at all today.