So it was a very very VERY bad day

[cornerofmadness]

First off my blood sugar went to 310 last night (that could put you in the hospital but since I know how to treat it, I tried). I'm not even sure why. Mostly I had two pieces of chocolate and nothing but protein all night. Then I couldn't sleep.

All day the blood sugar has been between 250-300 all day putting me in a very bitchy mood. And then less than a half hour before the faculty association meeting (technically our union) the college president tells them to deliver news that should have been held until the full faculty meeting in the last week of the month. That wasn't the forum for this and most of us weren't there. I wasn't because they hold the meetings when I have class.

Basically they're making us justify our programs because they're going to cute 25% of all programs and faculty (because the moron board still thinks this runs like a Wal-Mart and closing a store will save them). And the best part is they won't tell us until MAY. That means we can't even look for new jobs (because universities hire on a schedule and if they hire in the summer it's usually an emergency) AND students in cut programs won't be able to apply to new schools. Or are they going let the freshmen in these programs finish out their three years and then the programs are gone? We DONT KNOW!

I'm like just make us a fucking community college and be done with it. Half the faculty were in tears and half were so enraged we're lucky there isn't a smoking crater where this school is. ANd on top of this shit salad we sprinkle the bacon bits of Trump's fake emergency.


Want to know how many jobs there are in my field? Yeah in PA (where i'd like to return) None. IN pointing this out to mom she yells at me for being so pessimistic.

Of course there's also the utter bitchiness that accompanies high blood sugar. Today is NOT the day to light my fuse (looking at you mom. Please, tell me how happy should I be that I could be losing a job in a field where there's like 12 in the entire country?)

The only bright spot was getting something on AO3 (The Dragon's Heart) for International FanWork day. I might work on that meme tonight because I need a distraction. I've taken a HUNDRED units of insulin so far. That is a huge amount, a dangerous amount and my sugar isn't budging. It might. I can feel it because with the pens you can't pull back the plunger and see if you're in a vein. The last 40 units went right into a vein. Also dangerous. So I'll be awake until at least 2 if not 3 AM to be sure I'm safe.

Comments

[sylvanwitch]

Academia is a fucking nightmare, no matter the field, and that's largely because almost every university and college in the country went with the same stupid business model back in the early nineties, and then they wonder why they can't keep students or pay their faculty or fix the heating. (I'm saying this to commiserate, not to lecture--I know that YOU know this. It's just infuriating, and I share your anger and frustration.) *sighs* I'm so sorry to hear about your college's situation. I'm sorry you have a moronic board of egotists who don't know academia from a hole in the ground and think they can run it like a business.

I'm also sorry you're struggling with your blood sugar. I hope it goes back to safe levels for you soon. *hugs*

[cornerofmadness]

I wish someone WOULD lecture the fucking board because you are so right (they pulled this shit in hospitals in the 90s too when I was working as a doc and it doesn't work there either). This is insane. You want to save some fucking money? Don't pay our president 450K a year at a school that has 1700 students. Her salary could pay for about 10 faculty members.

I never wanted in academia. I'm too old now to do much else.

And thanks, me too

[ysilme]

So sorry about all of this, and all the sympathies! I hope your blood sugar situation will improve soon and you feel better, too. *hugs* Is there a correlation to stress and frustration? I have no experiences with diabetes, just with high blood pressure issues in the family, where the two always go hand in hand.

[cornerofmadness]

Thanks so much.

I was wrong it wasn't 3 Am it was 345 when my sugar crashed and I had to go eat stuff now it's back to 235.

And yes stress can do this but more likely it's the last vestiges of my cycle. Estrogen and progesterone interfere with diabetes too

[thenewbuzwuzz]

Oh no, that's some serious suckage. *hug*

[cornerofmadness]

It truly is. thanks

[bay_alexison]

(Also hugs)

I too am sorry to hear all this. Totally get the frustration there.

[cornerofmadness]

Thanks so much

[spikedluv]

I'm so sorry to hear about the uncertainty with your job. That is some major suckage for sure. I've got my fingers crossed that it all works out well for you.

[cornerofmadness]

thanks so much

[enemytosleep]

I never went to college so my only real knowledge of how they run programs is from people like you who teach. It all sounds like a fucking mess, and it's ALWAYS a disaster when you have a board of people voting on things when they usually have less knowledge and experience than the staff in the business/programs. I'm sorry that the whole system is a sinking ship that's also on fire.

I sincerely hope the sugar has been in better control since this post went up. That shit is no joke, as you know!

Getting my chocolateboxcomm treats was such a great pick-me-up this week. I saw yours and was very impressed!

[cornerofmadness]

Colleges are being run like businesses but they can't work that way especially not with the 'CEO's pulling down half a million or more. It's unsustainable (and even a piddly ass tiny school like mine has a president make 450K) A sinking ship on fire that's about right.

It's slightly better but not great (glances at ovaries who are causing this problem right now)

Mine made me very happy. I was thrilled with that piece of artwork, especially for how fast it had to have been dashed off. Yours was cute too!