It ends as I expected
Dec. 3rd, 2019 10:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cornerofmadnessAfter all day and a thousand dollars, I have my answers. Kanda has cancer in his bowels and liver. They wanted to run a test to see if it was lymphoma (which could respond to chemo) and carcinoma (which doesn't) but in the end it would buy him 6 months to a year. I declined. His liver was mottled and the biliary tract thickened. He might actually have peritonitis starting (i.e. the bowel is perforated). If they had told me this earlier in the day I would have had them put him to sleep today because it's going to be a brutal two days for me until I take him on Thursday.
But I didn't want to drive in the dark at rush hour in Columbus and go for 90 miles ugly crying. And since it's another 300$ for the cremation/injection I decided my local vet deserved that money (especially since I wasn't impressed that because it was billed as an emergency it was 300$ just to come in the damn door). I was expected the vet school to be I don't know more reasonable.
I know it seems weird to obsess over the money but two grand (which it'll be all told) is a lot of money. The poor guy waiting with me had a dog with a torn tendon. MRI+ surgery = 5 grand. He was too shell shocked to say no but he can't afford that. We're beginning to price pet ownership out of reach which is disturbing.
I feel awful of course but especially so because I had hope this morning. Kanda ate for the first time in a week and he's eating right now as I type this. He'll spend the day with me but not much of it because I have to go in and stay late tomorrow for job interviews. I'll take him Thursday at noon.
To top it off my landlord finally texted me hey we'll be there tomorrow to fix your door (barely closes, doesn't lock). I said no, my cat's here and I'm not. Oh you don't need to be. My cat IS HERE. they didn't get back to me with a different date. Sigh. I'm not having Kanda's last day with him being scared of workers. And oh I don't want them in here when I'm NOT here anyhow.
But thank you, all of you, who've been so kind with your concern and prayers. I appreciate them more than you know.
But I didn't want to drive in the dark at rush hour in Columbus and go for 90 miles ugly crying. And since it's another 300$ for the cremation/injection I decided my local vet deserved that money (especially since I wasn't impressed that because it was billed as an emergency it was 300$ just to come in the damn door). I was expected the vet school to be I don't know more reasonable.
I know it seems weird to obsess over the money but two grand (which it'll be all told) is a lot of money. The poor guy waiting with me had a dog with a torn tendon. MRI+ surgery = 5 grand. He was too shell shocked to say no but he can't afford that. We're beginning to price pet ownership out of reach which is disturbing.
I feel awful of course but especially so because I had hope this morning. Kanda ate for the first time in a week and he's eating right now as I type this. He'll spend the day with me but not much of it because I have to go in and stay late tomorrow for job interviews. I'll take him Thursday at noon.
To top it off my landlord finally texted me hey we'll be there tomorrow to fix your door (barely closes, doesn't lock). I said no, my cat's here and I'm not. Oh you don't need to be. My cat IS HERE. they didn't get back to me with a different date. Sigh. I'm not having Kanda's last day with him being scared of workers. And oh I don't want them in here when I'm NOT here anyhow.
But thank you, all of you, who've been so kind with your concern and prayers. I appreciate them more than you know.
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