It ends as I expected

[cornerofmadness]

After all day and a thousand dollars, I have my answers. Kanda has cancer in his bowels and liver. They wanted to run a test to see if it was lymphoma (which could respond to chemo) and carcinoma (which doesn't) but in the end it would buy him 6 months to a year. I declined. His liver was mottled and the biliary tract thickened. He might actually have peritonitis starting (i.e. the bowel is perforated). If they had told me this earlier in the day I would have had them put him to sleep today because it's going to be a brutal two days for me until I take him on Thursday.

But I didn't want to drive in the dark at rush hour in Columbus and go for 90 miles ugly crying. And since it's another 300$ for the cremation/injection I decided my local vet deserved that money (especially since I wasn't impressed that because it was billed as an emergency it was 300$ just to come in the damn door). I was expected the vet school to be I don't know more reasonable.

I know it seems weird to obsess over the money but two grand (which it'll be all told) is a lot of money. The poor guy waiting with me had a dog with a torn tendon. MRI+ surgery = 5 grand. He was too shell shocked to say no but he can't afford that. We're beginning to price pet ownership out of reach which is disturbing.



I feel awful of course but especially so because I had hope this morning. Kanda ate for the first time in a week and he's eating right now as I type this. He'll spend the day with me but not much of it because I have to go in and stay late tomorrow for job interviews. I'll take him Thursday at noon.

To top it off my landlord finally texted me hey we'll be there tomorrow to fix your door (barely closes, doesn't lock). I said no, my cat's here and I'm not. Oh you don't need to be. My cat IS HERE. they didn't get back to me with a different date. Sigh. I'm not having Kanda's last day with him being scared of workers. And oh I don't want them in here when I'm NOT here anyhow.

But thank you, all of you, who've been so kind with your concern and prayers. I appreciate them more than you know.

Comments

[sholio]

*hugs* I'm really sorry.

[cornerofmadness]

Thank you

[bay_alexison]

Oh man, so sorry to hear that. =< Losing pets is never easy. (hugs)

[cornerofmadness]

No it is not. Thank you

[sylvanwitch]

I'm so very sorry, hon. I wish there were a way words could actually help. Sending virtual *hugs* and the energy you'll need in the coming days. Again, I'm so, so sorry.

[cornerofmadness]

Thanks so much. I appreciate it.

[aaronlisa]

((hugs)) I am very sorry.

That is outrageous. But I agree, pet care is becoming extremely costly.

[cornerofmadness]

Thank you

I agree. I mean I make decent money, not a lot but enough for my needs but absorbing a two thousand dollar hit is not easy

[mdlbear]

My thoughts are with you.

[cornerofmadness]

thank you

[thenewbuzwuzz]

Poor Kanda! :C I think you made the right choice.

And that IS a lot of money! :(

*hugs*

[cornerofmadness]

Thanks so much. I appreciate it.

Pet care in this country is getting insane

[spikedluv]

Oh gosh, I'm so sorry to hear that! Poor Kanda, and poor you. *hugs* It's so hard to let our pets go even though we know it's best for them. The day we finally took Shiloh in is indelibly imprinted on my brain.

The cost of pet care is getting ~ridiculous. When Shiloh tore his ACL it cost $1000 for the surgery; when Beau did the surgery cost had gone up to $3000. We elected to not have the surgery and Beau has been getting Rimadyl (an anti-inflamatory) every day since. (The surgery might've been cheaper in the long run, but it's easier to come up with $35 every two months than $3000 all at once.)

[cornerofmadness]

thank you. Yeah this is never ever easy, it's going to be a long night tonight waiting to take him tomorrow.

Right? the ACL tear was 5 grand like I said for that guy waiting with me

[rahirah]

I'm so sorry. Poor Kanda, and poor you. :hugs: I know you're doing the right thing for him, and I hope your last day together is as good as last days get.

[cornerofmadness]

thank you so very much. It's definitely hard

[ysilme]

Oh hon, I'm so terribly sorry about these news! *hugs you ever so tightly and Kanda very gently* I'm totally with you on this decision, too; it's always so hard if we have to do these kind of decisions, and have to weigh quantity against quality. I've always been in favour of quantity, but damn it's so hard and painful. My heart goes out to you, and I'll be keeping you both in my thoughts and prayers. ♥
I'm also so sorry about everything else that's piled up on you right now, too, including the vet bill. That's utterly insane!

[cornerofmadness]

thanks so much. It is really hard.

I do think the price of all this vet care is so nuts

[smittenbyu]

So sorry to hear about Kanda! <3

[cornerofmadness]

Thank you

[suzume]

Ugh, sometimes it goes like that... >_>;


Something like this happened years ago with, Lindy, the first (black and white) cat I thought of as 'mine.' I'm not sure she was even 10 and cancer treatments for cats were even /more/ expensive then......

[cornerofmadness]

it does and in a way I'm glad it was fast because he never took medicine well. It would have been torturous to him.

Yeah chemo is pricey and if it had given him some life then maybe but 6 months wasn't a good tradeoff for him

[suzume]

Oh, man, I completely understand.

...We couldn't come up with absolutely any way to keep Ana from spitting out and (up; please don't imagine a long-haired black cat practically frothing at the mouth, running away from my mother and my teenaged self to find somewhere she could get away and squeeze every last drop of spit from throat) all of her thyroid medicine.

I had to keep getting it compounded at a lab in Arizona so I could rub it inside her ear. (but $30 a month wasn't that bad)

...I remember feeling both relieved and sad that I wouldn't have to dose her with it anymore (ooh, man, and just writing about it brings that lump back to my throat).