I can't have a nice day

[cornerofmadness]

Because I needed more bad news I can't even talk about my surgery until after my vascular appt on the 5th because I need to be off the blood thinners. I'm not sure how to handle at least 3 more weeks in a home and then even more weeks after surgery. I didn't know that until I called the doc's office and they didn't know why. My question is why so damn long for a consultation. nearly 3 weeks in this dressing unchanged in spite of the pain and the diabetes etc.

Worse at 2 AM I called for my pain pill groggily. Then I realize I can't feel my leg from the knee down. AT. All. The nurse ran in seeing the panic in my face. My leg had swollen against the brace so badly, the circulation was cut off. We iced it down and it was okay

So now the heart has gone out of me. Yes I know keeping a positive attitude helps healing. Telling me that doesn't always help. I should be allowed to grieve some.

And then the parents went down to get my car but they turned around and went right back with it. I'm so pissed at Dad for that. They're getting too old for that. They could have stayed the night in my apt but he wouldn't hear of it.

Comments

[sperrywink]

{{{hugs}}}

I can definitely understand why you are dispirited. I hope things pick up despite all evidence to the contrary.

[cornerofmadness]

Thank you

[enemytosleep]

I just hope they can get your meds and swelling, etc. under control soon because I can't imagine any of this helps your mood or your recovery. I wish this wasn't going to drag out like this.

[cornerofmadness]

Thanks. It's definitely affecting my mood

[badly_knitted]

*HUGS* and *MORE HUGS*

[cornerofmadness]

thank you

This IS hard, so hard

[dauntless_heart]

And you're allowed to feel WHATEVER you feel. We're here for all of it, Dana. Just breathe, sweetheart.

Re: This IS hard, so hard

[cornerofmadness]

Thank you so much.

[sylvanwitch]

Ugh, so sorry to hear of this setback. I won't tell you to grin and bear it; some things are unbearable forever or for a while. I hope you find your equilibrium, but you're also allowed to grieve, especially with so significant a disappointment.

[cornerofmadness]

thanks so much. And there is good news, they were wrong. my surgery IS scheduled for the 9th so thanks for the trauma receptionist....