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cornerofmadnessI went to Big Lots and they had a cool animatronic halloween thing I didn't buy but should have. I did buy the german chocolate cake latte at my coffee shop. OMG so good.
But around 2 pm I had one of my too tired to do anything attacks. I rallied a wee bit around 6 and tore everything out of my closet on the left side (the right side is shirts that I go through seasonally) leaving with two giant piles of skirts, pantsuits, suit jackets, scrub pants and slacks. There is stuff I haven't seen in YEARS. No like I know I bought this in South Dakota...in 1995. Oh look there's my robe that makes me look like I skinned out Valentino.
WHY do I have suede leather pants? And a western leather vest? WHY? I can't imagine any point in my life I wanted this stuff. I found the two dresses Mom got me when I fucked up my leg and couldn't wear pants for months (they're in the go away pile), why do I have SO MANY pantsuit/skirt combos? Oh look the one I wore to get this job...19 years ago.
Yes I'm sitting in my shame corner.
So have some fanfic while I'm there.
Title: Tomorrow's Getting Harder
Summary: Giles tries to work through his feelings over losing Jenny and the looming threat of Acathla waking up by making a journal entry.
Author Note - Brumeier in comment fic for the prompt Any, Any, an archaeological find deep beneath the earth and for spikesgirl58’s six word challenge and the six words were Wrathful, Steadfast, Swim, Cent, Sacrifice, & Wandering. Also written for the Get Your Words Out diary challenge using the prompt Are you happy living where you live
Watcher’s Journal, Rupert Giles, November 12, 1998
Today someone asked me was I happy living in Sunnydale after she heard my accent since I was grumbling as I waited for the cashier to count out four cents. Young people these days, don’t know how to make change. I said I missed England and that it was very different here but I did like it. I know that it’s a lie but she believed me. How could I be happy living on a Hellmouth?
Of course, the woman doesn’t know the dangerous Sunnydale is, how it’s sink or swim every night for Buffy, as is the way for all Slayers and their steadfast Watchers. The curious stranger doesn’t know that I lost Jenny, not so long ago to a creature I should never have allowed Buffy to befriend. She doesn’t know Jenny’s soul, a wandering one by upbringing, has wandered out on its last journey. I don’t know how to deal with any of this. I’m a Watcher. I’ve lost people before. I haven’t lost a woman I could see an eternity with before. I lie and tell Buffy and her friends I’m recovering but I don’t know that I am.
But I’m not writing in this journal to document the every day boring bits of my life. A hundred years from now and when someone else is looking how to defeat Acathla, they won’t care if I’m happy in Sunnydale. I should hope that they care Jenny lost her life. I cannot let her sacrifice be in vain. I have to find a way to stop Acathla and I have to destroy Angelus. I shouldn’t leave that to Buffy. I know it’s a Slayer’s duty and future Watchers might judge me for taking a more active role but I have my own magic. The incident with the band candy and Joyce and remembering my time as Ripper has served as a reminder of what I am fully capable of. Angelus killed Jenny. He will strip Buffy of all her friends, every last bit of support including me and Joyce if he can, and then he’ll have Acathla destroy the world. What he gets out of that, I cannot fathom.
All I know for certain is that tomorrow’s getting harder. How I wish those archaeologists had never found the wrathful Acathla entombed so deep in the earth. I can imagine their exhilaration at such a find. I would have been whooping with joy, thinking I had just made my career-defining discovery. Only being a Watcher and not an archaeologist, I might have had second thoughts about hauling the artifact out of the ground. I’d like to think I’d realize that I’d uncovered something better left buried but how could anyone have known? Those archaeologists had no way of knowing they had unearthed the end of the world.
It's not too late to reentomb Acathla. So long as he’s not reawakened we’ll be able to dump him where he’ll never be found. I’m sure that’s what they thought last time. Never underestimate the curiosity of humans and the willingness of archaeologists to dig. I wonder if he can be dumped down a caldera. Yellowstone is not so terribly far from here. With my luck the hot waters will wake him up or at the very least come boiling out of the ground killing me and Buffy.
No, probably not my best idea. I wish Jenny were here. She was so good to bounce ideas off of. She thought out of the box and I’m learning that is for the best. The Watchers are too hidebound, too traditional sometimes. Still, I know what has to be done. What I need to do is find a place to bury Acathla where no one would want to look. I’m going to look into artificial coral reef creation. That would make disturbing his resting place illegal. However, I think cement will be needed too, to make him look less like a statute and less interesting to any divers who might happen across him. Definitely something to investigate.
But that is for another night. It’s nearly two in the morning and I have to be awake in four hours for work so it’s time to wrap up this journal entry. I’m getting rather old for this.
Sins of the Father Prodigal Son wip
Watching for Trouble Teen Wolf
Messages FAKE
meaning in the suffering Murder she Wrote/ Teen Wolf
Lost In Translation Torchwood
Wicked Games Batman/Lucifer
[ART] Wyll/Halsin Baldur's Gate
[ART] 💕Fucky Fucky 💕 Deadpool/Wolverine NSFW
gravity of loss Murder she Wrote/ Teen Wolf
Reasons to Get Lost Sapphire & Steel & Are You Being Served?
storge Murder she Wrote/ Teen Wolf
[ART] hold here, no loads refused. Deadpool/Wolverine NSFW
[ART] Lucy/Ghoul fanart Fallout NSFW
[ART] Eggs ダンジョン飯 | Dungeon Meshi | Delicious in Dungeon NSFW
Thou Shall Not Fear Stargate Atlantis
[ART] Splurt 💦 Deadpool/Wolverine NSFW
Old Friends in Unexpected Places Harry Potter
Lord of the Manor. StarGate Atlantis
An Unexpected Dinner Companion 911
Of All the Taverns... Stargate Atlantis
where there's smoke Murder she Wrote/ Teen Wolf
Tea for Two Teen Wolf
But around 2 pm I had one of my too tired to do anything attacks. I rallied a wee bit around 6 and tore everything out of my closet on the left side (the right side is shirts that I go through seasonally) leaving with two giant piles of skirts, pantsuits, suit jackets, scrub pants and slacks. There is stuff I haven't seen in YEARS. No like I know I bought this in South Dakota...in 1995. Oh look there's my robe that makes me look like I skinned out Valentino.
WHY do I have suede leather pants? And a western leather vest? WHY? I can't imagine any point in my life I wanted this stuff. I found the two dresses Mom got me when I fucked up my leg and couldn't wear pants for months (they're in the go away pile), why do I have SO MANY pantsuit/skirt combos? Oh look the one I wore to get this job...19 years ago.
Yes I'm sitting in my shame corner.
So have some fanfic while I'm there.
Title: Tomorrow's Getting Harder
Summary: Giles tries to work through his feelings over losing Jenny and the looming threat of Acathla waking up by making a journal entry.
Author Note - Brumeier in comment fic for the prompt Any, Any, an archaeological find deep beneath the earth and for spikesgirl58’s six word challenge and the six words were Wrathful, Steadfast, Swim, Cent, Sacrifice, & Wandering. Also written for the Get Your Words Out diary challenge using the prompt Are you happy living where you live
Watcher’s Journal, Rupert Giles, November 12, 1998
Today someone asked me was I happy living in Sunnydale after she heard my accent since I was grumbling as I waited for the cashier to count out four cents. Young people these days, don’t know how to make change. I said I missed England and that it was very different here but I did like it. I know that it’s a lie but she believed me. How could I be happy living on a Hellmouth?
Of course, the woman doesn’t know the dangerous Sunnydale is, how it’s sink or swim every night for Buffy, as is the way for all Slayers and their steadfast Watchers. The curious stranger doesn’t know that I lost Jenny, not so long ago to a creature I should never have allowed Buffy to befriend. She doesn’t know Jenny’s soul, a wandering one by upbringing, has wandered out on its last journey. I don’t know how to deal with any of this. I’m a Watcher. I’ve lost people before. I haven’t lost a woman I could see an eternity with before. I lie and tell Buffy and her friends I’m recovering but I don’t know that I am.
But I’m not writing in this journal to document the every day boring bits of my life. A hundred years from now and when someone else is looking how to defeat Acathla, they won’t care if I’m happy in Sunnydale. I should hope that they care Jenny lost her life. I cannot let her sacrifice be in vain. I have to find a way to stop Acathla and I have to destroy Angelus. I shouldn’t leave that to Buffy. I know it’s a Slayer’s duty and future Watchers might judge me for taking a more active role but I have my own magic. The incident with the band candy and Joyce and remembering my time as Ripper has served as a reminder of what I am fully capable of. Angelus killed Jenny. He will strip Buffy of all her friends, every last bit of support including me and Joyce if he can, and then he’ll have Acathla destroy the world. What he gets out of that, I cannot fathom.
All I know for certain is that tomorrow’s getting harder. How I wish those archaeologists had never found the wrathful Acathla entombed so deep in the earth. I can imagine their exhilaration at such a find. I would have been whooping with joy, thinking I had just made my career-defining discovery. Only being a Watcher and not an archaeologist, I might have had second thoughts about hauling the artifact out of the ground. I’d like to think I’d realize that I’d uncovered something better left buried but how could anyone have known? Those archaeologists had no way of knowing they had unearthed the end of the world.
It's not too late to reentomb Acathla. So long as he’s not reawakened we’ll be able to dump him where he’ll never be found. I’m sure that’s what they thought last time. Never underestimate the curiosity of humans and the willingness of archaeologists to dig. I wonder if he can be dumped down a caldera. Yellowstone is not so terribly far from here. With my luck the hot waters will wake him up or at the very least come boiling out of the ground killing me and Buffy.
No, probably not my best idea. I wish Jenny were here. She was so good to bounce ideas off of. She thought out of the box and I’m learning that is for the best. The Watchers are too hidebound, too traditional sometimes. Still, I know what has to be done. What I need to do is find a place to bury Acathla where no one would want to look. I’m going to look into artificial coral reef creation. That would make disturbing his resting place illegal. However, I think cement will be needed too, to make him look less like a statute and less interesting to any divers who might happen across him. Definitely something to investigate.
But that is for another night. It’s nearly two in the morning and I have to be awake in four hours for work so it’s time to wrap up this journal entry. I’m getting rather old for this.
Sins of the Father Prodigal Son wip
Watching for Trouble Teen Wolf
Messages FAKE
meaning in the suffering Murder she Wrote/ Teen Wolf
Lost In Translation Torchwood
Wicked Games Batman/Lucifer
[ART] Wyll/Halsin Baldur's Gate
[ART] 💕Fucky Fucky 💕 Deadpool/Wolverine NSFW
gravity of loss Murder she Wrote/ Teen Wolf
Reasons to Get Lost Sapphire & Steel & Are You Being Served?
storge Murder she Wrote/ Teen Wolf
[ART] hold here, no loads refused. Deadpool/Wolverine NSFW
[ART] Lucy/Ghoul fanart Fallout NSFW
[ART] Eggs ダンジョン飯 | Dungeon Meshi | Delicious in Dungeon NSFW
Thou Shall Not Fear Stargate Atlantis
[ART] Splurt 💦 Deadpool/Wolverine NSFW
Old Friends in Unexpected Places Harry Potter
Lord of the Manor. StarGate Atlantis
An Unexpected Dinner Companion 911
Of All the Taverns... Stargate Atlantis
where there's smoke Murder she Wrote/ Teen Wolf
Tea for Two Teen Wolf
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