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cornerofmadnessThat's how my day is moving. Even working with timers I got so very little done and it was suddenly it was time to go to the endocrinologist. I could use another day down here but I'm afraid to go home friday. Thursday is meant to be nearly 60 and raining but then down to freezing again. I'd rather be home to avoid that.
I'm getting to that overwhelmed, gonna cry state. But at least I finally got the damn holiday lights out there (boy that little solar panel battery is something. They turned on immediately after being in a closet for a year. I put the garland on the other side of my porch, the one that's collapsing. I think at this point the garland is gonna be what's holding up the side rail if it get another heavy snow.
It looks like maybe, just maybe I can keep most of my meds and/or qualify for coupons. I make like 200$ too much a month to qualify for medical assistance. Let that sink in for a little while. We're doctors. We're college professors. Our pay is SO low we almost qualify for medicaid. And If I had kids I WOULD qualify. And oh, I signed up for the new insurance with the 9K deductible. It's costing 1100$ a month. Let that one soak in too. FFS. No wonder they won't hire help for my department.
My blood work is not great. My kidneys are working great but with my HGA1C sneaking ever higher. That's not great. I'm unhappy which is only going to make my sugar higher thanks to the stress. At least my hemoglobin is coming up. I still have too many tiny pale red blood cells but they're functioning better than last time. She did agree I'll probably have to start B12 shots. Cries. But at least the evolutionary bullshit adaptation for malaria is behaving itself for now.
From there I went to Gallipolis for dinner and the Christmas lights. I knew the Mexican place (since it's owned by the same brothers as the one in Jackson) would be giving out those envelopes for free stuff in January. I was laughing at the new offerings. One of them is punny. Juan Huge Burrito.
the lights were beautiful. They always are. I didn't upload the pictures yet. I will. but I haven't even showed you anything for months.
I forgot my tea advent again
Day 12 - Rocky Mountains - National Park Tea Black teas, raspberry leaf, raspberry flavor, sage leaf, and raspberry pieces. How did I miss this one? I had a sample box of these ones. either I had gotten a bad sample then because this was phenomenal very raspberry
Day 13 - Rooibos Sweet Sizzlin Cinnamon Herbal Tisane Rooibos, organic cinnamon pieces, sweet sizzlin cinnamon flavor and safflower petals. At least the cinnamon overpowers the rooibos funk.
Day 14 Apple Sage Black Tea black teas, apple pieces, natural apple sage flavoring and blackberry leaf. oddly weak sauce and boring. At least it didn't taste like sage
Day 15 Fyodor Dostoyevsky's Black Tea Blend Black teas from India, Sri Lanka, China and Taiwan and bergamot oil. They have a whole collection of literature inspired teas (Poe is my favorite) What says Dostoyevsky about this? Nothing but it is a nice complex earl grey
day 16 Snickerdoodle Rooibos Herbal Tisane Organic Green Rooibos, organic cinnamon pieces, sweet blackberry leaf and snickerdoodle flavoring. Needs more snickerdoodle/cinnamon
Fannish 50
honestly I have zero idea why people thought any part of this was funny. I laughed zero times. I am surprised anyone was surprised by the twist. That was blatantly obvious to me the moment "Abel" didn't want to bring Kinger into this.
I have thought (and I'm not alone) since E3 that Kinger was one of the programmers of the digital circus. Abel (i.e. Caine) would know that Kinger could realize that the story wasn't true.
Don't get me wrong, I thought it was a good episode. Yeah Jax's near abstraction LSD hallucination went on too long but it was a good episode. Jax managed to nearly humanize Caine in the dinner scene.
You can feel sorry for Caine. He wants so much to be human, wants them to like him but he is incapable of making the connections because he's an AI He's too self aware for his own good.
But this adventure changes everything. He doesn't seem to understand how badly he's damaged them. He did it to stoke his own ego, his need to be loved. How they'll react to this betrayal will be interesting (and I can't believe we have to wait until March for that!!)
And will the others accept that Caine was messing with Jax's mind and that's why he hit the red button or will they blame him (even if the blue button wasn't real, they didn't know it when Jax hit the red one)
Jax's real world memories were enough to put him into a panic attack. Fans are speculating he killed someone in a car accident. Could be. I think he was running from something bad.
But the real thing sitting in my head is Kinger's E3 comment about having a resilient mind. Is Kinger right that Caine trying to rewrite people's minds is causing the abstractions. I think he is right. And oh the implications of that are very interesting.
I'm getting to that overwhelmed, gonna cry state. But at least I finally got the damn holiday lights out there (boy that little solar panel battery is something. They turned on immediately after being in a closet for a year. I put the garland on the other side of my porch, the one that's collapsing. I think at this point the garland is gonna be what's holding up the side rail if it get another heavy snow.
It looks like maybe, just maybe I can keep most of my meds and/or qualify for coupons. I make like 200$ too much a month to qualify for medical assistance. Let that sink in for a little while. We're doctors. We're college professors. Our pay is SO low we almost qualify for medicaid. And If I had kids I WOULD qualify. And oh, I signed up for the new insurance with the 9K deductible. It's costing 1100$ a month. Let that one soak in too. FFS. No wonder they won't hire help for my department.
My blood work is not great. My kidneys are working great but with my HGA1C sneaking ever higher. That's not great. I'm unhappy which is only going to make my sugar higher thanks to the stress. At least my hemoglobin is coming up. I still have too many tiny pale red blood cells but they're functioning better than last time. She did agree I'll probably have to start B12 shots. Cries. But at least the evolutionary bullshit adaptation for malaria is behaving itself for now.
From there I went to Gallipolis for dinner and the Christmas lights. I knew the Mexican place (since it's owned by the same brothers as the one in Jackson) would be giving out those envelopes for free stuff in January. I was laughing at the new offerings. One of them is punny. Juan Huge Burrito.
the lights were beautiful. They always are. I didn't upload the pictures yet. I will. but I haven't even showed you anything for months.
I forgot my tea advent again
Day 12 - Rocky Mountains - National Park Tea Black teas, raspberry leaf, raspberry flavor, sage leaf, and raspberry pieces. How did I miss this one? I had a sample box of these ones. either I had gotten a bad sample then because this was phenomenal very raspberry
Day 13 - Rooibos Sweet Sizzlin Cinnamon Herbal Tisane Rooibos, organic cinnamon pieces, sweet sizzlin cinnamon flavor and safflower petals. At least the cinnamon overpowers the rooibos funk.
Day 14 Apple Sage Black Tea black teas, apple pieces, natural apple sage flavoring and blackberry leaf. oddly weak sauce and boring. At least it didn't taste like sage
Day 15 Fyodor Dostoyevsky's Black Tea Blend Black teas from India, Sri Lanka, China and Taiwan and bergamot oil. They have a whole collection of literature inspired teas (Poe is my favorite) What says Dostoyevsky about this? Nothing but it is a nice complex earl grey
day 16 Snickerdoodle Rooibos Herbal Tisane Organic Green Rooibos, organic cinnamon pieces, sweet blackberry leaf and snickerdoodle flavoring. Needs more snickerdoodle/cinnamon
Fannish 50
honestly I have zero idea why people thought any part of this was funny. I laughed zero times. I am surprised anyone was surprised by the twist. That was blatantly obvious to me the moment "Abel" didn't want to bring Kinger into this.
I have thought (and I'm not alone) since E3 that Kinger was one of the programmers of the digital circus. Abel (i.e. Caine) would know that Kinger could realize that the story wasn't true.
Don't get me wrong, I thought it was a good episode. Yeah Jax's near abstraction LSD hallucination went on too long but it was a good episode. Jax managed to nearly humanize Caine in the dinner scene.
You can feel sorry for Caine. He wants so much to be human, wants them to like him but he is incapable of making the connections because he's an AI He's too self aware for his own good.
But this adventure changes everything. He doesn't seem to understand how badly he's damaged them. He did it to stoke his own ego, his need to be loved. How they'll react to this betrayal will be interesting (and I can't believe we have to wait until March for that!!)
And will the others accept that Caine was messing with Jax's mind and that's why he hit the red button or will they blame him (even if the blue button wasn't real, they didn't know it when Jax hit the red one)
Jax's real world memories were enough to put him into a panic attack. Fans are speculating he killed someone in a car accident. Could be. I think he was running from something bad.
But the real thing sitting in my head is Kinger's E3 comment about having a resilient mind. Is Kinger right that Caine trying to rewrite people's minds is causing the abstractions. I think he is right. And oh the implications of that are very interesting.
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Date: 2025-12-17 07:18 am (UTC)What is your university, Wal-Mart? Holy crap. Maybe you should apply just in case.
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Date: 2025-12-17 04:19 pm (UTC)This is typical of most universities and there is a push at the federal level to make them go to all adjuncts who don't get insurance at all. Because that'll be good for education, right?
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Date: 2025-12-17 04:24 pm (UTC)https://youtu.be/aYEoKHcvYeI?si=x1r3VxxXCmG96KIZ
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