That was hard

[cornerofmadness]

Way harder than I thought it would be. Little Edward is at the shelter now. Cried all the way there, the both of us. In just two days he went from terrified wild kitten to king of the couch. I'll miss him. I wish I could have kept him. This time I did ask what happens to the non-adoptives and since the shelter opened they've only had to put down a few sick cats so i feel good about it. He'll find a home.

Today is just going to suck. I only got 4 hours sleep and then I have to leave work and immediately go to the endocrinologist and ask why my sugar has suddenly spun out of control and beg not to be put on insulin, not yet. I want to give the sleep studies a go and see if I can actually sleep will my sugar get better (i've noticed that during nightmares my sugar skyrockets and the night before I had a dozy of a nightmare. I don't remember it all but first I was crushed by a giant brindle wolf and suffocated. Then I dreamt I was on a space station and a2zmom was working with me but someone had pumped nerve gas into the place and there was no anti-toxin for it and we both laid down and died (sorry Mom). SOmething about not being able to breathe that night)

And if this isn't all that bad, then I have to go home and clean up all the evidence of Edward in the apartment then hurried make up an exam because I FORGOT to take home all the stuff I needed to make the exam over the weekend.