cornerofmadness

i have no idea but as depressing as it was, maybe that's a good thing. At least i got a test for tomorrow done. But let's not dwell on the shit that's bogging down my life.

Kanda is ultra lovable. He's doing stuff he's not done since Soul came inside. He's in my lap constantly. He's attached to my leg again by that invisible rope. I can't tell if a) he's terrified he's going to be the one leaving next or b) thrilled that bastard is gone and going to show me how much he loves me for ditching the furball.

I've completed a week of my 21 day meditation challenge. The disappointing thing about it I was right about why you can't download them this time. In the summer you could download all the meditations. This time you can't. I figured they're going to sell them. Sure enough there's a 30$ cd for the summer ones. You know, as if Deepka Chopra needs another cent.

ANyhow, yesterday's meditation was very nice and different. Usually if I see anything with my eyes closed it's deep purples or the network effect (ie. light thru my eye lids) this time I could see my own eye, complete with eyelashes. Then I saw bright yellow lava lamp like lights. I've never seen canary yellow before. Then came an eye with a pupil that was another eye. Today's meditation was monkey mind, worry and migraine ridden. sigh.