Busy day, unhappy day

[cornerofmadness]

I got my tests graded. I got about 25 papers graded. I've selected several questions for an upcoming final and have two more waiting in the wings. I addressed all my holiday cards. If you didn't see the post you can find it here. Oddly enough I have almost no cards going out of the country this year. So far I have A2Zmom, florana, masq, bay115, aaronlisa, dragonydreams, seta_suzume, orvida, trekwriter, lejlkwiet, scratching post, sonjajade, suspicious & geeky_rambling and wilderider/rahirah, silvrethorn, eld are part of the permanent files anyhow) just in case you were wondering. I didn't feel like dinking with rescreening by replying.

The unhappy is, they sent my aunt home to die. Yes, this is the same aunt who was not going to leave the hospital way back in Oct. SHe did. Several times. But I think they have finally said no more. There is literally nothing they can do. It's a waste of blood at this point. I wish she had passed on back then. There is no good time to die. Dying around a holiday seems somehow worse. I said last night she'll probably die on Mom's birthday (she and her identical twin are mom's best friends since junior high) but now it's unlikely she'll last the week.

When I saw her over thanksgiving, I was convinced that death would be the kindest thing even though she says she's in no pain (and yet the mere thought of sneezing panicks her because it might start an unstoppable bleed). Before she went into the hospital on monday she told her twin that a young Jesus came to visit her and told her it wouldn't be very long now. My aunt is very devout and believes this. Who am I to say it wasn't real? I've seen this same thing (Jesus, God, a deceased relative) many times with my dying patients. More than once I've sat with the dying because they were alone, holding their hand so someone would be with them when they had no one in the nursing homes.

Mom is naturally upset but is coming to terms with it. She couldn't help her own sister when she died of cirrohsis (and I missed that funeral) and she can not help Aunt S as she dies of cirrohsis (and I'll probably miss this one too).

Comments

[sp23.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry about your aunt. And, yeah, death near the holidays is really hard. My favorite aunt died unexpectedly the day after Thanksgiving, my dad died two weeks before, and my mom died two weeks before Christmas. It sucks.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks. Geez, that's a whole lot of death around a holiday. That really sucks

[bob_fish.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry to hear about your aunt.


On a far more trivial note, I totally missed your holiday card post! Added my name in just in case, but no worries if I missed the boat.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you very much

and not a problem. I have so freaking many cards (as in found a stash I totally forgot I bought so I have literally dozens of cards)

[helliongoddess.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear about your aunt. It does seem to happen that way, around the holidays. Back in Dec. of 2006, my mother-in-law became very ill rather suddenly and passed away about ten days before Christmas, and the same month, one of my oldest, dearest friends, who had just gotten engaged and moved into a new house, dropped dead mowing his lawn. In a way, it was fortunate I didn't even find out about him until after Christmas - I'm not sure my daughter or I could have handled it (his fiance and I hadn't met yet, and his mom didn't know how to get ahold of me.)

Maybe I can brighten your day a little.... There is a Christmas present created just for you posted in my journal! If you think it is worthy of posting in any of the FMA comms, give me your recommendations,and I will follow. As of now, I have only put it on fullservicefma. I really hope you like it. *hugs*

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you very much. It always does seem to happen around the imporant holidays.

Thank you very much. Right now fm_alchemist seems to be the most active of the groups I belong to.

I really liked the story. Thank you

[artemisrae.livejournal.com]

What an awful situation. I hope she's peaceful and comfortable.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks. yeah. No one's life should end in like this but what can you do?

[bay115.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear about your aunt. Death near the holidays is always upsetting. I almost lost my father during the holidays in 2005/2006--right smack at New Year's Eve. >.>; I too hope she'll be peaceful and comfortable.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you. That had to be a terrifying thing for you (especially given how much younger you are than me)

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear about your aunt. Let me know if there's anything I can do.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks. I will.

[rain-oubliette.livejournal.com]

My condolences on your aunt. I've often heard of Jesus/God/family coming to visit the deceased. I hope that He is right as it sounds like she has no life at this time. I hope He will be gentle with her.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much. She has no life at all. She can not even get out of bed at this point (and it's wearing her twin out to the point I'm surprised she hasn't died of her cardiac issues)

[sillymagpie.livejournal.com]

Hugs, sweetie. I'm sorry to hear about your aunt. I hope her passing is as painless as possible.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you very much

[halighfataliter.livejournal.com]

Aw, that's very sad what's happening to your aunt and your family. It is true that modern medicine, for all the blessings that it brings, sometimes keep people alive in an unnecessary and even cruel way...

Let's hope that she'll pass away peacefully and that all that needs be said will have the chance to be said.

On a more trivial matter, I'll go and add another European recipient to your holiday cards. I know that we don't know each other much, which is why I didn't do it before, but it seems like fun and I love sending and receiving letters... :)

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you very much. Yes, the problem was/is she's not ready to go (she's mid-60's) so she refused to sign off on not having any more transfusions. I think the doctors are finally refusing to do any more (cruel as it sounds, it's a waste of blood which is often in short supply)

Sure by all means. I don't mind. I'm old. I miss the paper days of sending out letters. This is the last vestiges of that