another day no closer to my goal

[cornerofmadness]

THough today I can blame having to finish my final pathophysiology lecture (and I'm nearly 100% caught up on my tv viewing. I've gone through @ 18 hours of video). You might see the following c&p'ed into my writing journal as well.

I'm finding it unexpectedly hard to write as I mentioned last night. I hadn't realized how USED to having beta readers look at each chapter as I write them. Usually that takes time and no one is overwhelmed. Nano is different. I'm firing this out at reckless speeds. This dependence has come upon me gradually.

A fifteen years ago I barely had the internet and most of my writing was done in a vacuum. No one would see it until it was done. Then I started posting online at FFN and other online sites. It paid to have another beta. Well, I would have them for my original fiction back in the day and less so for fanfic because you had to pay to photocopy and mail it to friend and wait for them to get it back to you.

No doubt the instance online feedback is a drug and I've grown more than a little dependant on it. Is my nano any good? Am I going the right direction? I don't want to spends months revision crap that shouldn't have been written in the first place but I will because that's the nature of the beast. I started handing a chapter or scene at a time to my first readers a decade ago. Now I feel almost utterly too dependant on them.

They're busy with other things, not the least of which (as far as my selfish concerns go) is my novel Kept Tears which could be ready to send out by January if I'm lucky. I'm waiting to hear back where I messed up this time (because I'm sure I have), is the PTSD organic or inconsistent, do we care about the protagonists etc. Even that novel really didn't have instant feedback but I was less of a baby about it.

In other news I better get off of here and finish that blasted lecture. But first Caturday pics. Soul NEVER sleeps on my legs on the couch. Either he knows I called the shelter or he is very upset I'm speaking to the cat outside but here he is
(rain_oubliette crocheted the shawl he's sitting on)

And speaking of outside kitty he's in the nest I made him. He was all curled up but i couldn't take the pic thru my window screen. I was trying not to wake him up. He has intense eyes. I may talk to the vet and see if she'll try to place him being a kitten and all.

The original Star Wars is on. I know every word but it still helps my mood every time i see it.

38811 / 50000 words. 78% done!

Comments

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Oh, Soul.

Little Grey is disgustingly cute.

Can't tell you what to do about the writing. I'm somewhat miffed I posted something on FFN today and had about ten favorites and one comment. -_-

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

poor Soul, so loving so fucked up

Isn't he? I love those eyes

yeah I know just what you mean

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

*nod nod*

He's quite the charming little guy (maybe he's Ling? - no, you don't need another cat).

I know.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

I had a Ling, neutered him and he ran away (remember the russian blue that was out there with Kanda)

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

THAT'S the name I couldn't remember when I saw the kitten.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

yep. he was the one in your luggage that time

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Yup. Silly cat.

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

Poor Soul... & lil kitty is making himself at home, hunh? ;p

I don't know what to tell you about the writing. I rarely get feedback, but I do get a few faves when I post. So either it sucks royally ;p or it's so good no one can find the words to tell me. ;p Basically the only time I do worry when no one comments is when it's something I write for Hentai Contest, since people vote on it & comments are the only way I know someone's looked at it.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

poor poor Soul. Little kitty sure is

Yeah you know a decade ago, fanfic got a LOT of reviews. That's how i met more than half the people on my flist. I think now, it's just taken for granted and its rare someone comments. I have an original fiction filter but it's rare anyone comments (and I'm not much better. I admit it)

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

Yeah... He's a gorgeous kitty, the more I see of him. I feel bad for him.

*nods* Maybe lil Kitty knows you'll need him.


Yeah? I've met peeps here through writing too. :D I guess so... I do make a point of commenting on everything in Hentai & I try to comment on everything at hetachallenge. With Bake-off & some of the other comms I'm in where a ton of peeps write, I just don't have the time to really read anything, much less comment. And I do prefer to say nothing at all if I can't find anything nice to say. ^^;

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Soul is pretty with tons of personality but his bad points are outweighing his good. The little one needs a home

That's the same with me. If I read it on the fma fic contest I comment to everyone including pairing etc that aren't my favorites. Elsewhere in fandom I stick with my pairings and fandoms in multifandom things like the bake off or springkink

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

Awe... ^^;


*nods* the only place I read stuff where I don't know the fandom is Hentai, since it's multi-fandom based.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

yeah it makes me sad

unfortunately lately my time is b eyond limited.I barely keep up with the stuff in my fandoms. I probably owe about a dozen or more reads right now

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

*huggles*


I hear you. I'm going do some stuff I need to get done, cuz I got way behind when I lost power for 2 weeks. ^^;

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

oh I'm sure you are but as far as excuses go that's a good one. I haven't even been back to fanfic_bakeoff since they rebooted (very few have) but I think that's because of nano...or so I'm hoping.

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

XD Thanks...

I did write for the quick October prompt, I haven't written for the new one. I like to think Nano's got people focusing on it, rather than anything else. I really should pop over there & see what the new prompts are. XD

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

I couldn't even tell you. I saw them once and I'm not sure anyone at all has written

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

I went & looked. They're not grabbing me, so I'm going to skip this month. XD

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

hahaha, i get that. Honestly the reboot probably should have waited until January. November is nano and December is 1001 holiday ficathons/exchanges

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

*nods* I never thought of that, but you're right, they probably should have waited for January to restart. XD Then again, so many peeps were unhappy over there, myself included, that they felt they needed to do something or it would implode. ^^;

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

I never did know what the problem was. I wasn't having any and they didn't elucidate so...

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

The problem I was having was I often felt like the only one writing for my team, which was sucking all the fun out of it. Especially since I was asked to to change teams & help out. I don't mind helping, but I kinda resented do everything. ^^;

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

ah i'll be honest i never even paid attention to the team other than i had to put it on the title

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

Yeah? XD

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

pretty much. While I am usually competitive, I wasn't for this. I just wrote when I had time

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

*nods* I was always like "how much can I write to help my team win?" XD I think this is the first time I'm not writing for it since it started.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

I usually do at least one thing a month but not so much this time. I feel bad since it's restarting but yeah, no time

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean, but I'm just not feeling these, plus I have other stuff I need to get done.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

yeah I think we all do this time of year. I almost missed a professional deadline. thank goodness i double checked

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

*nods*

Oh! Thaht's not good! XD

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

yeah that would have been disappointing

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

oh yeah!!

[rain-oubliette.livejournal.com]

I sent Jenn a lap afghan years ago. Bailey took it. I made one for a friend at college - her cat took it. I'm sensing a pattern here.

I'm no help with writing. It's all I can do to post on LJ coherently. Wish I could help, though.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

you should actually make pet gear. that crap sells

eh, I'll work through it. I'm mostly being whiney and self indulgent here

[rain-oubliette.livejournal.com]

I have always wanted to make old suitcases into pet beds. Sigh. One of these days I will learn to upholster.

I know you'll do well. Good luck with the new publisher.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

that could be really interesting

thanks. I need to go do the cover letter and send it out