What if I'm not enough

[cornerofmadness]

Abby Scuito posed that question tonight and it's one, I admit, I've asked often in regards to myself. What If I'm Not enough? Sometimes I feel like not much at all. Other days I'm unstoppable. I just need to concentrate on the unstoppable days.

It was not a good day. For some reason I do not know (I have to call tech support) my new computer keeps defaulting to Pacific time. I caught it at 10pm last night. Then I got busy editing my scarred soldier novel and didn't realize when it hit midnight it reset to Pacific time. By the time I was getting sleepy, I thought it was quarter to midnight (I was lost in the novel) and it turned out it was 1:45am! So I got no sleep and felt queasy all day. Also my skin got all freaked out because it's SEVENTY again today. Gah.

First off I ended up with two blood blisters in my mouth. I have no idea how/why. I did a foolish thing. I know I have issues but I must just admit it to myself. I can no longer eat fried foods. Period. I had fish and chips. Three hours later I was in agony and so horribly nauseous. In three hours food should be digested and moved out of your stomach. Nothing of the kind here as I threw up. My throat is burned and my voice a harsh whisper. Those blood blisters burst in the process and naturally all this happens after I take my insulin so I have to keep monitoring my sugar. Sigh


Also I wanted to say thanks to those who weighed in on the world building post. That makes it so much fun for me.

I completely forgot Lost Girl was back on. I think I'm done with it. The parents are still watching it but honestly Bo is too stupid for me. I don't get why anyone fights for her. Anyone still watching this?

Speaking of TV I saw the Spenser centric episode but it seemed like I missed one (like where he got a girl friend) how did that happen?

I feel like hell so no decluttering today.

For the kindness section I give you the Mellow Mushroom. I would buy their pizza

Comments

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Your poor body.

Mellow Mushroom sounds like a great company!

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

the body is having itself a day.

doesn't it? I've never heard of them so it must be a relative small chain given all the various places I've lived

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

If they started in Jacksonville, FL, they're within the past 30 years, since I knew all the pizza places up there. :D

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

gaia said they were in gainesville. we somehow missed them because you KNOW I would have insisted on it just for the name

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Well, if Sekhmet didn't take us there when we were in Gville...it would explain it.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Or Sita

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

I remember Sita coming to visit us, and I saw her with Silvrethorn once at an art show. And then when I last went to visit, Sita and I went out for ice cream or something?

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

we went there once to her apt.

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Did we? I don't remember. D:

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

yes we did

[rahirah]

The weather this winter has been yo-yoing like mad. First a cold snap like we haven't seen in twenty-thirty years, then record heat, then rain, now it's cold again, and in theory we'll be back up above normal by the weekend. Yeesh.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

same here. 70 today and tomorrow and back to snowing by Thursday. Madness. And yeah you guys got one helluva a cold snap (I typed that gold snap but we all would have enjoyed that)

[sholio]

*hugs* I'm sorry you had such a terrible day. Hopefully tomorrow will be much better.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thank you. with my body this is not unexpected

[winters-queen.livejournal.com]

I have a bunch of Lost Girl episodes recorded but haven't had time to sit down and watch them. That might be something I do this weekend, depending on what's going on.

Ouch, there are times when your body seems to want to revolt against everything. :/

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

i probably will eventually start watching again knowing me but eh it wasn't doing much for me

my body is a pain

[rain-oubliette.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you feel crappy. Want my orzo with carrots and raisins recipe? Not fried.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

that could be interesting.

thanks

[gaia-lulia.livejournal.com]

I hope you're feeling better soon.

The husband has been suggesting we start watching Lost Girl, but I think I'm going to suggest something else. We're almost finishing the five-year arc of Supernatural, so we need something else to watch while we exercise in the evenings.

Mellow Mushroom made me happy. There was one in Gainesville, and they always seemed cool. If a bit stoner-y.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Lost Girl has a ton of soft core porn of all flavors since Bo IS a succubus. I just find her dumb. I liked all the characters but her which is a draw back in a show.

and thanks

Hmmm never found that one in Gainesville but I often avoided that place so. However with a name like mellow mushroom, stonery wouldn't surprise me

[makd.livejournal.com]

Bo is dumb, but Kenzi is a hoot.....;-)

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Kenzi is. I loved Kenzi and the siren and Dyson but I want to strangle Bo.

[gaia-lulia.livejournal.com]

They're also maybe after your time? I think of them as a new place. Although on reflection probably that means they've been there 12 years or so. *sigh*

I was aware of your feelings about G-ville. :)

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

they would have been starting when I was there. Yes I had a particular dislike of G-ville. And Florida. I did like St Augustine. Does that count?

[gaia-lulia.livejournal.com]

Heh. My husband basically agrees with you, especially as regards the weather. ELD will just sit over here in our "I miss Florida" club alone.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

hahaha You guys do that. I miss Wisconsin

[makd.livejournal.com]

(Gibbs-slaps you.)

Don't you ever, ever, doubt yourself! D, you are one of the most accomplished people I know - and I know a lot of people. You are awesome: a successful scientist, a successful professor, a successful doctor, a successful writer, a successful woman, a successful friend, (are you seeing the pattern here?).....

You are fabulous, sweetie, and do. not. ever. doubt it.

::::::::::::::::::::;hugs:::::::::::::::::::::

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

haha slap taken.

thank you very much