Giant tactical error

[cornerofmadness]

I got half the kitchen cleaned up and my hoarded foodstuffs bagged up to take to Mom's because dammit I'm tired of wasting money on food I buy and never eat because there's a crossed wire in my brain. Then I decided, let's dig more into the closet in the computer room.

Wrong choice. I knew it has been a long while since I really dug into it. So I started. So. Much. Shit. I have things pulled out. The back room is buried. I realized this was more time than I have left because I want to be in Pittsburgh by next week as there's a birthday party for me on friday after all (all you can eat seafood at the Casino).

So the anxiety ramps up. I jam some stuff back in. Some I can't even imagine why I have it. LIke two land line phone systems that were so bad I replaced them. Why wasn't that in the fucking trash? And then there is something I can only assume was the result of me coming home from Christmas with a) stuffed animals from when I was a child from Grandma's b) three decades worth of high heels I'll NEVER wear again c) a bottle of wine that had to be a Christmas gift since I hate merlot.

I'll keep the animals, give the shoes to goodwill, cook with the wine. Then I found a garbage bag with my Crow T-shirts. I was just thinking about them when I pulled out the summer clothes. I knew I would never have thrown them out (I would have made pillows out of them first). I found all three plus the 1995 Neil Gaiman Death art for Comic Con T-shirt and three Italian ones. So there you have it 20 year old T-shirts all marked XL. they FIT. So in 20 years a) I haven't lost a fucking pound b) My weight hasn't changed but my shirt size has gone from XL to XXX. Thanks fashion industry. Because I don't feel bad enough about myself.

so now I have more of a mess than when I started. I found a bag of stories. Some are worth keeping. Some will never be typed. Some aren't mine (recycler). Some are Buffy stories that might be gone in a crash. I might keep and retype those.

I did make cleaning manageable by using a timer. 15 minutes clean, 15 minutes do something pleasurable. I ended up writing 1,500K on Kaleo's story.

And I'm STILL not sleeping. I was so tired last night the bed was swimming and I still could not sleep.


In better news, I got to chat to dzioo today. That was cool. And I did try out the new wordpress blog for Rainbow Snippets. You can see it here. I need to figure out how to get a border/layout on this because it looks like crap. see what you think

however in looking over Blood Red Roulette for the snippet I found TWO typos that I don't know how spellcheck missed them.

declutter day 3 Electric windshield cleaner Why kept God knows why. It was a gift. Why tossed - Because who needs this?

Comments

[silvrethorn.livejournal.com]

Ugh. I ended up doing the same thing with my books that you did with the closet shit--just shove it back where it came from because it's too much to deal with right now. Plus I managed the bonus insult--I stood all day shuffling books around and screwed up my back. And I didn't find anything cool like lost t-shirts. On the other hand, if anybody needs a wooden Bentley tea box with a bunch of square, flocked compartments inside, I'm evicting one from the premises. I don't know why I held on to it so long (actually yes I do, it was all those cool but ultimately useless little compartments).

I thought clothes sizes trended down, not up. My old clothes I wore in college were size 12's--they fit me again when I was wearing a "modern" size 4. Don't clothing manufacturers want to sell clothes? Vanity sizing sells clothes. Jumping customers up four sizes and making them feel like hippos does NOT sell clothes. WTF?

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Yeah I saw you were doing that. I'm terrified to deal with my books. I've been doing it slowly trying to pick ones I can evict from here because I've finally hit that point in my life when I can honestly say a) I rarely reread ANYTHING because I don't have time to read what I haven't seen yet b) don't need to keep things just because I paid for it c) keep the good books and send the rest out into the wild.

Sorry you hurt your back. My fucked up shoulders and hip are half the reason I'm in this mess.

I don't need a little box (though I was looking for something to put business cards in as if I have ANY reason to be keeping those.)

don't I wish? I knew that sizes were going up and up and my weight was not. I keep having to buy bigger and bigger stuff. I can't wear ANYTHING at thinkgeek unless it's a man's shirt. Those really cool ST swimsuits that any geek would buy? the 2x is a size 33 chest. I was a 36 when I weighted 120 pounds. Who but the smallest of A cups is going to fit that?

I DO feel like a hippo.

I got something for ELD at animazement and traded it back for the next size up. I know she's not heavy but my god even the XL I bought looks like it could fit barbie.

[dragonydreams.livejournal.com]

At least you found some shirts you'd been thinking about. Sad that the sizing has changed so much over the years.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Yeah I knew they were here and was puzzled as to where they were because it's not that big of a place.

Sizing has gotten insane

[siphraniax3.livejournal.com]

This post sounds a lot like me. Hang in there!

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Oh geez. You too. This is a job and a half.

[siphraniax3.livejournal.com]

I think the last three years of my life have been dedicated to decluttering. Finally changing my ways.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Same here. Especially the books. Some I will keep but it's impossible to keep them all but it's taken me this long to admit it.

[siphraniax3.livejournal.com]

Yes, I have been getting a lot more digital books lately. I'm getting better at sorting "keepers" from things I just want to read.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Sadly ebooks trigger migraines no matter what reader I've tried so I do get some that way (mostly the lgbt books from my publishers and stuff from the gutenberg project)

but yes I have too many keepers when very few of them truly are.

[siphraniax3.livejournal.com]

Oh, that's terrible, I'm so sorry! But yeah, making choices about what books to keep is hard. I'm trying to break it down to "get rid of anything you really haven't even touched in the last few years!"

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

I'm used to it though it's hard to deal with since much of my classes are on line at least the homework part.

Mostly now i'm keeping manga/graphic novels, anything autographed and series I love and anything that helps in my writing that I can't easily find online.

[siphraniax3.livejournal.com]

Yeah, me too, I hate digital comics, I have to have the printed copy. I got rid of my comic books but keep the graphic novels.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

I follow some digital comics but then I forget about them. I prefer hard copy.