Managed to sneak out shopping

[cornerofmadness]

The Joy for the day: finding a few nice shorts at Macy's to replace some of my ancient ones. I broke down and tried on one of the skorts. It didn't look half bad.

Then I went into Home Goods. That's another bad store to enter, so dangerous but I didn't buy anything for a change!

Got my contacts too.

Kanda met his first deer. SHe pawed the ground and snorted before taking off. He was fascinated.

Other than that, I'm busy exploring my defeatist self loathing attitude. It's easy to see where it comes from when you realize that nothing you do is right and you've been told that your whole life. Ridiculous body image ideas mentioned all the time. I have to wonder just how much I disgust my dad (Mom must too), he couldn't even look at a liposuction commercial because they were disgusting. He keeps going on and on about how much the actress in Miss Fisher's mysteries needs to loose 20 pounds and her outfits would look better then. I'm like this woman is thin as a rail.

Also I'm making HIM fat. every time I come home he gets fatter according to him. It's ME n ot the fact that he eats non stop. (and is no longer 50 and get away with that). It's because I buy all sorts of junk food etc etc. I'm like a) no I don't b) if I did why are you eating it if you don't want it? Eye rolls

I haven't written shit, edited anything and feel like throwing all the stories in the bin.

Comments

[dragonydreams.livejournal.com]

Don't even get me started on parents and weight issues.

A couple of months ago, before WW (and this isn't why I joined - I joined because a co-worker said, "Would you do WW with me?" and I said "Yes", then she went on medical leave for 3 months), I told my mom that I was going to see the doctor because my elbow hurt. That lead to a 20 minute "discussion" about how I needed to lose weight. o_O

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Oh geez. Yeah it's like thanks for being supportive but yay for you for doing WW and doing well.

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Your dad needs to get a life somewhere. :|

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

No kidding. today was the why aren't you working as me doing all my research for my paper isn't 'real' work

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

"I'm not, Dad, I'm planting magic beans that will hopefully win me accolades."

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

exactly

[tinhutlady.livejournal.com]

(sigh) Can relate on parents and weight/esteem issues.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Sucks, doesn't it