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Rather horrid day today. Class went okay except for minor details which is fine. This class is much more outspoken and particpatory. I like that. IT was the home stuff that's killing me. My electric bill went up 15$ and my heating bill doubled to 400$ (I keep it between 65-68 in here. God forbid the house was actually warm, I'd never be able to pay it) Now I wasn't here for 2 weeks of that. I'm thinking estimate on the electric bill and/or the thing that we plugged in to keep the pipes from bursting from the cold. I dunno and since I just rent and all the bills aren't in my name, it's not like I can call and scream and find out. SIgh.
Worse, the med school loan company, the one that won't cut me a break called my dead grandmother for the money today (good luck) unfortunately my uncle who lives in her house gave them my parent's phone and now they're harrassing my parents. I'm calling the lawyer tomorrow. I want to know if there's a way of delaying default until my settlement. MAYBE they can have their damn money if they just wait and NOT default me (which never comes off my record). If I'm defaulted, it doesn't come off my record like a bankruptcy. They garnish my wages until I die and I can never inherit money nor can I receive monetary gifts without them taking it all until my debt is repaid. It's bad situation. ANd of course mom calls in the middle of dinner to tell me this. Nothing like lamb steak curdling in your stomach.
Worse, paying my electric and gas bills hav eleft me with 70 dollars to pay all my other bills and food and gas for the month. Get the feeling that I'm drowning and nothing's going to keep me from going down? And the psychiatrist thinks some stupid pills will help me? You know if my depression was 100% brain chemistry imbalance sure, but this isn't from an imbalance, this is ugly reality.
And I don't even get the stress relief of Law and ORder tonight. Pbttt.
Worse, the med school loan company, the one that won't cut me a break called my dead grandmother for the money today (good luck) unfortunately my uncle who lives in her house gave them my parent's phone and now they're harrassing my parents. I'm calling the lawyer tomorrow. I want to know if there's a way of delaying default until my settlement. MAYBE they can have their damn money if they just wait and NOT default me (which never comes off my record). If I'm defaulted, it doesn't come off my record like a bankruptcy. They garnish my wages until I die and I can never inherit money nor can I receive monetary gifts without them taking it all until my debt is repaid. It's bad situation. ANd of course mom calls in the middle of dinner to tell me this. Nothing like lamb steak curdling in your stomach.
Worse, paying my electric and gas bills hav eleft me with 70 dollars to pay all my other bills and food and gas for the month. Get the feeling that I'm drowning and nothing's going to keep me from going down? And the psychiatrist thinks some stupid pills will help me? You know if my depression was 100% brain chemistry imbalance sure, but this isn't from an imbalance, this is ugly reality.
And I don't even get the stress relief of Law and ORder tonight. Pbttt.
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