Fic - Bittersweet Tones

Bittersweet Tones
Disclaimer - not mine, all characters belong to Hiromu Arakawa et al, Square Enix and funimition. I don’t make a profit
Rating – PG-13
Pairing – Ed/Win
Time Line/Spoilers – Manga based – while no direct spoilers for anything, other than Armstrong’s other sister, this is future fic
Summary – Sometimes all it takes is a wrench, other times you have to go to extremes.
Chosen Prompt – Swimming Hole (but ice cream did get worked in)
Word Count - 3,676
Author's Note - Written for the fire & Ice challenge that was run through ed_winry, didn't win but don't let that stop you. There was some amazing competition, every story there is well worth the read.

( Bittersweet Tones )

confused and irritated

about a lot of things...like why I can't find ONE lawyer who'll at least talk to me about student loans. I mean not one. There was one who wanted 200$ to even decide if he could help me or not (um pass, sorry if everyone else could tell me for free they can't help me, so can you)

and I'm wondering what the new LJ drama is. Censorship again? What? I see my flist complaining but i haven't seen the details. Which leads me to the what to do dilemma again. Half the crew are going to Greatest Journal. But suddenly now it's Insanejournal that's the big hot place to jump ship to. I'm thinking oh great, I can't keep up with ONE journal let alone two or three and now with half my friends going one way and the other half going another, i have no idea which journal I would want should I leave here. Is Insanejournal any better than Greatest? I'm still very unconvinced either of those would fare any better than LJ if enough pressure is brought on them to 'keep the internet safe,' so it hardly seems worth the effort (beyond the getting more icons for my money which really, is that a reason to move?)

The geekgirlz have taken steps to make the website active again so we can publish stuff there and not really worry too much about it, which mostly it's just nice to have an archive for all the fic anyhow.

well i'm off to go do the laundry so I'm sure the day will find more ways to confuse and irritate me

Spin Out

I've been expecting it really with this student loan boogieman raising its ugly head again (and it doesn't help that lovely time of the month is late...let's just hope it holds off until sunday now.)

It's got the ball bouncing around in my head again, all those phantoms that came with the injury screeching. the dreaded 'if only's'. If only I hadn't been hurt, if only i got to keep all 120K that I made a year instead of the firm I worked for only giving me 40K, if only I hadn't had to incur even more loans, if they had given me more than 3 grand for a lifetime disability, if only the lawyers now would help. See my life would have been perfect without all of the 'if only's'. No, of course it wouldn't have been but it would undeniably have been better.

I promised that since my 30's were filled with so much pain that I wouldn't let my 40's get dragged down too. this is not an auspicious start, back to thinking why bother at all. Thinking more and more about looking for another therapist down here. Problem is, i can't take most anti-depressants and really, i'm not too sure what talking is supposed to do. I don't feel much better for having written this. Hell I'd probably feel better listening to you all than I would to someone i'm paying 100$/hr.

well i'd better get back to making tests. Turns out the Dublin Irish Festival is this weekend and NOT next weekend like I thought it was. Sigh. it was 97 today. It's probably too hot for me to withstand it but to the Ohioans on the list if you'll be in Dublin this weekend, drop me an email and I'll give you my cell phone #. Maybe we can hook up for some good music and beer.