Ficlet - Waiting to Feel Good

Title Waiting to Feel Good
Author- cornerofmadness
Disclaimer all rights belong to Arakawa sensei
Rating PG
Characters/Pairing Chris, Roy
Timeline/Spoilers Spoilers for Roy’s upbringing, mangaverse, set before the series
Word Count 246
Warning none
Summary She couldn’t stand to see him so unhappy
Author’s Note these miniscule word counts whips my butt every time.

( Roy was celebrating his first birthday without his parents )

yeah okay so it will be the week of suck #2

it started this morning with the nurses from my insurance calling (I belong to a support group for diabetics/asthmatics, helps getting certain things covered). They were not impressed with my blood sugar, that insulin has made me gain 10 pounds in one month (had to up it) and wanted to know with all my symptoms why I'm NOT in therapy for my depression (because I'm depressed and can't make the call...duh. it's also why I'm not job searching when I should)

Grandma is home. they kicked her out that fast. I didn't even know it was happening today. Didn't get to talk to mom.

My students failed my test. as in ALL BUT ONE. I'm going to double check the keys. I've never had 19 F's before EVER (but I knew it would be a debacle when they couldn't answer a single basic question in my review on MOnday and yes, I am going to be a bitch about this because this IS for the health professionals)

Had a horrible school meeting. I hate to say it. My life would be so. much. better. if two of them would just retire. Seriously. And one who is retiring shocked me. (math prof) we're friends. I knew she would be doing it soon but to suddenly say i'm done in dec threw me. I'm so sad. I'm going to miss her and her Indian cooking so much.

I haven't written shit in 3 days. This is going to be a wasted week. I did go to the write in. I went to my favorite turkish restaurant which is next door to the coffee house we meet in. They must have been ultra short on help because it took over an hour to get my shawarma.

ANd then the coffee house was ridiculously hot. I mean it was 68 today. Was there any reason to have the heat blasting. Got nothing written since I was busy melting (seriously, disgustingly, there was a sweat line down my spine and it looked like I wet myself). however the coffee was good.i got a double shot latte but she accidentally put in a third espresso shot. whee.

I came home, had an itch on my foot but because the diabetes has wrecked sensation in it I didn't realize how hard I scratched until blood was everywhere.

the only bright spot was as I was at a red light in town I got to watch a fraternity make their new pledges stand outside the house and sing songs with all the girls in the world there teasing them. I couldn't help shouting 'louder' ah, I miss those days.

15284 / 50000 words. 31% done!

so far the main plot point for the day is one of my main characters hung himself

quote of the day (NOT from that scene) “You don’t value our taste,” Soren complained once they were back out on the street.

“If I let you decide on a dress, my neckline would go to my navel,” Lilika replied.

“Why so conservative?” Sahen laughed.

“They would be happier if we just showed up to the dance naked,” Rikka said.

“Now you have the right idea. Well, except for Amede. No one wants to see that.” Rohan pointed to his sister, shuddering.

She slapped him. “Idiot.”


( day 41 wanna see my place? )

hormonal dreams

I had some completely weird dreams last night.

The first of them I was alternately Connor and Angel but I was trapped inside a high rise building where these cyborg like beings were killing and enslaving everyone (fits Dr Who better now that I think about it). Anyhow I had to navigate this maze like high rise (again with the maze buildings), with a piece of technology that I had to get out of there so they could be stopped. (I didn't know how to use it). At this point I'm definitely Connor because I had to be thin and quick to do this. I shocked them by dropping several stories at a time and not getting hurt.

Once I got outside i was Angel. I found this old monastary. Inside was a priest I had to hand this thing off to. The building was amazingly detailed. The real entrance you could only get to along this narrow high ledge. There was ivy, mostly dead, everywhere and the walls were covered with green mosiac tiles. It opened with a hidden door and i snuck inside with the old priest just as I woke up.

dream two, I was in a house and I was trying to fix up my brother's room. I don't know what i had done with it but it was trashed and it was my fault. But I couldn't get anywhere because my mom and evil_little_dog wouldn't leave me alone. ELD was mad because i had also wrecked her sister's room and wanted me to fix her bed. The problem was the bed was colonial in style with the rope 'box springs' By the time I finally got back to my brother's room it was teeming with tiny tan spiders.

woke up to pee

dream three- Most of this is now gone from my mind but it was highly anxious and weird. wish i had time to have written this out earlier when I could remember it.