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Managed to sneak out shopping
Jul. 1st, 2016 12:16 amThe Joy for the day: finding a few nice shorts at Macy's to replace some of my ancient ones. I broke down and tried on one of the skorts. It didn't look half bad.
Then I went into Home Goods. That's another bad store to enter, so dangerous but I didn't buy anything for a change!
Got my contacts too.
Kanda met his first deer. SHe pawed the ground and snorted before taking off. He was fascinated.
Other than that, I'm busy exploring my defeatist self loathing attitude. It's easy to see where it comes from when you realize that nothing you do is right and you've been told that your whole life. Ridiculous body image ideas mentioned all the time. I have to wonder just how much I disgust my dad (Mom must too), he couldn't even look at a liposuction commercial because they were disgusting. He keeps going on and on about how much the actress in Miss Fisher's mysteries needs to loose 20 pounds and her outfits would look better then. I'm like this woman is thin as a rail.
Also I'm making HIM fat. every time I come home he gets fatter according to him. It's ME n ot the fact that he eats non stop. (and is no longer 50 and get away with that). It's because I buy all sorts of junk food etc etc. I'm like a) no I don't b) if I did why are you eating it if you don't want it? Eye rolls
I haven't written shit, edited anything and feel like throwing all the stories in the bin.
Then I went into Home Goods. That's another bad store to enter, so dangerous but I didn't buy anything for a change!
Got my contacts too.
Kanda met his first deer. SHe pawed the ground and snorted before taking off. He was fascinated.
Other than that, I'm busy exploring my defeatist self loathing attitude. It's easy to see where it comes from when you realize that nothing you do is right and you've been told that your whole life. Ridiculous body image ideas mentioned all the time. I have to wonder just how much I disgust my dad (Mom must too), he couldn't even look at a liposuction commercial because they were disgusting. He keeps going on and on about how much the actress in Miss Fisher's mysteries needs to loose 20 pounds and her outfits would look better then. I'm like this woman is thin as a rail.
Also I'm making HIM fat. every time I come home he gets fatter according to him. It's ME n ot the fact that he eats non stop. (and is no longer 50 and get away with that). It's because I buy all sorts of junk food etc etc. I'm like a) no I don't b) if I did why are you eating it if you don't want it? Eye rolls
I haven't written shit, edited anything and feel like throwing all the stories in the bin.
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