Yep, it was monday

Because I was going to be gone all afternoon, PT arrived with breakfast. I felt like I did so poorly too which sucks because apparently mondays are the day my insurance picks to do updates (i.e. can we toss you out of here). Part of it was we had to waste time letting me dress (how about telling the aide I'm going to PT so she could have gotten my clothes out and I'd have been dressed). I stood and did some stuff then nearly face planted with I got dizzy so that ended.

OT comes and goes...oh you're dressed...I needed to see you dress. OMG why don't you coordinate with PT!! I had to undress and redress and went back down to the gym more standing exercises and them insisting I can sit on the shower bench. Yes I can but can't you flip it to the OTHER side so my bad leg which can't get wet be sticking out rather than being against the shower wall....

And then they tell me what I'm doing is 'illegal' (i.e. their insurance says no) by getting up and going to the potty on my own. It's literally 2 inches from my bed. I think I can handle it. I could get into my wheelchair too if I wanted. I flat out told them that waiting 30 minutes when I have to pee doesn't work for me. I'm doing it especially when like today one aide didn't show.


Then trauma calls me for a televisit. I'm like I'm sorry I'm leaving for the vascular surgeon. BTW do you know your medical portal has NO WAY of calling you or canceling and rescheduling appointments, sorry to waste your time.

And the hospital called me to set me up for friday's surgery. You need to have your covid test today. I'm like wait, I had an appointment for that today but we canceled it and did it here on Friday. I thought that was for the vascular surgeon. Nope it wasn't but there was NOTHING in the appointment saying who wanted it. Gah and Friday is too far out for them so I have to do it again tomorrow. Bangs head. Also they'll give me my surgery time tthe day before. I can already see issues.

And because we were short handed today, the day I absolutely needed to have my lunch early so I can meet transport, it's a half hour late, an ungrilled cold 'grilled cheese' and ice cold onion rings. Thanks. I barely get downstairs in time.

I get to the vascular surgeon, get queasy from how hot it is in there. THe meeting was both relieving and frustrating. My pulses seem okay and that's all he said, no ultra sound until next moth (god knows why) and I told him i might be in Pittsburgh for that and will do the follow up there if I have to. He absolutely will not let me stop the aspirin and plavix anti coagulants not even for 4 days for the surgery.

But he's NOT the one who gave me the lovanox anticoagulant shot. He thinks it's ortho. I have to talk to them tomorrow and also because the ride service doesn't start til 8 AM so I have to let ortho know that I HAVE to have a later surgery because I can't make it there. I'm still terrified I'll get there and they won't do it because I'm on so much blood thinner.

And all this on top of a sleepless night because that upper pin hole is cavitating and getting red. I said let's draw a demarcation line around it. The nurse didn't. Today the bandage flopped open early so I drew the fucking line. It's used to figure out if the redness is spreading indicating possible infection (but it's also right up under a brace strap). I was up all night because it hurt and I was thinking it was i nfected. I only slept long enough to dream about being murdered.

And today because of the short staffed situation I didn't get my insulin right and my sugars are fucked up. I came home and laid on the bed for three hours, unable to sit up because I was so tired but unable to sleep. Also I was calling for help for an hour and gone none which is unusual and that's why I see someone disconnected my call button (probably when they made my bed). I had to shout out the door.


I did however get stuff in the mail. A huge box of crackers and chips and wasabi soy almonds that I love from my brother/SiL broken on three sides (UPS did you run it over?) cards from alexcat, kiramaru7 and Betty (which was hysterical), a book from honor_reid and more goodies from sylvanwitch (also broken on one side) THANK YOU to all of you.

So I'm going to sulk and stuff dill pickle chips into my mouth until I feel better.