Bad night

[cornerofmadness]

One of those nights where you know you're not going to sleep, when you just want to call someone and talk but it's so damn late that you know everyone is in bed and there's work tomorrow so you can't call.

One of those nights where your hand hovers above the phone, thinking this is what hotlines are for, make the call before you get further adrift

One of those nights when all the crap that has been building for so long crashes in on you and you can't breathe, you can't even stop trembling long enough to try to lie down because the whole bed shakes. And it's the little things that set it off, the emotional right cross that came out of nowhere when you least expect it, the thing you should be able to say screw it, this isn't going to get to me.

Only it does and it's one in the morning and you're alone and dawn is so very far away.

Comments

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

I owe a quarter of million for medical school once you add in the interest (those I AM trying to get discharged because of my disability).

Grad school is about 40,000K which my insurance said they were going to pay and a year and a half into it said 'wait, it's a HAND injury? You don't deserve retrained for that.'

[aaronlisa.livejournal.com]

But you can't work because of your hand injury? that's kind of lame of them.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Wisconsin, like many states assigns percentages to injuries. Hurting your back is worth say 50% while a hand is only 10%. Not worth it to a lawyer to go to court and you're right it's lame and unfair.

[aaronlisa.livejournal.com]

I think it's pretty much the same everywhere. Stupid lame things like that happen.