The Long Weekend and thoughts

[cornerofmadness]

I know I haven't said all that much about Katrina other than to offer up my writing services in exchange for donations both here in my LJ and now at fandom_charity . Some of that is because I don't even know what to say and how not to drown in emotion. Many of you have put it much more elegantly than I could and others have let actions speak for them like southernbangel  (you're quite amazing. At this point I'd write you a novel if I could so whatever you'd like to see, tell me). I stopped and thought about something. There was an offer for me to interview with a job in New Orleans (which I probably mentioned back in May). I really wanted to go there because in spite of the heat and it being a big and crime stat nightmare of a city, I really liked it there. However, the school of science was so rude in the intial contact, I decided to pass on the interview. I figured if they were this rude before they even met me how would they be like to work with. I think now, 'what if they had been nice to me, would I have been there?' It's a little chilling.

On a personal level, things are just frustrating. I saw the dentist today. My broken tooth will be staying broken for almost a month before they can fix it and since they're literally the only game in town, there's not much to be done for it. And to H.R. who said just go don't worry you're covered, guess what you haven't turned my name in to the insurance yet. I'll have to pay for this. If I didn't know how to pay the 1,000$+ it would cost with insurance, I sure as hell don't know how to handle it now.

I was supposed to go home to PA today. I'm not in a festive mood. Gas prices are of course figuring into why I changed my mind about a 450+ mile round trip. But more importantly was I thought i was caught up in school. Well I'm not.    I have no lectures ready for next week. It'll take me 1 full day if not two to get prepared. So even if I went home, I'd have to work. And I'd only resent the time away from work or maybe even enjoy myself then be kicking myself in the ass for not working. It used to be I only got home once a year. I'm used to holidays by myself. I know this is the right choice but I feel oddly torn by it. Sigh. Maybe I should take the rest of today just for myself.

Comments

[married-n-mich.livejournal.com]

My advice... take the rest of the day for yourself. Sounds like you need it.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

I think I will. I'll go work on the fanfic for charity...though I did want to go to the lake with my family. it inspired the fic you're betaing. Maybe it would help me find an end to it...

[married-n-mich.livejournal.com]

Everyone needs 'me' time. And I think once you've decided what you're going to do, for real, will make you feel much better.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

apparently at the moment it was talking to neighbors then lougning around watching the history channel.

[married-n-mich.livejournal.com]

Whatever works!

[bashipforever.livejournal.com]

That is a very chilling thought. I feel the same way you do about speaking about, so many other people have put it so much better then I ever could.

Taking the rest of the day for yourself is a good thing. Hopefully it will recharge you and you'll be able to concentrate on your work and get it done without pulling all your hair out.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

so far I've spent it sitting on the porch chatting to my neighbors. I did get a few pages of Acquainted with the night going and I hope maybe to finish the threesome today

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

You would have been there, but you probably would have been one of the fortunate people who were able to get out before the hurricane. And lost whatever you left behind, but still.

Sorry to hear about your tooth problems. I agree with the others, take the rest of the day off!

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

yeah I would have had somewhere else to go and would have went.

at least the tooth isn't in too much pain. but after a month I suspect it'll change.

I'm going to try a write a little

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

Enjoy.

(the writing, I mean!)

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

i hope to. It'll hopefully see the conclusion to the threesome and a start on the two charity pieces

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

So did you ever get Spike and Connor into the same bed at the same time?

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

yes I did. Parts even brushed against each other (okay connor kinda freaked) Right now Spike's calling Daddy because his little boy is having a nervous breakdown

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

"Connor, this is *not* the time to be your usual emotional wreck of a self, we're having TeH SEX!!"

*sheesh* that boy.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

happens immediately post screw, barely finished his business. Faith really should just slap the boy

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

Did he experience a moment of true happiness and lose his new memories?

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

he knows himself in this one. But I think it's finally sinking in a) Connor Reilly isn't real b) he's getting lost in his head c) I'm involved in threesome sex with a vampire.

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that happens to me all the time post-sex. Hate when that happens.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

it truly is traumatic