I know it's getting bad.

[cornerofmadness]

The depression that is. When I'm staying in bed for 8-10 hours, it's a bad sign. Worse sign it's 1 pm and I'm still in pajamas, having done nothing but drink a cup of tea (and I mean nothing, no writing, editing, or anything I'm meant to be doing) Nothing is getting cleaned, no work on the project is getting done (or very little I should say) Everything hurts. My Halloween decorations aren't really up. I'm going to do 4 festivals in 3 days starting tomorrow. I know I will enjoy them. I sense no joy in the anticipation just dullness and lethargy about even preparing. I might need to call for some medication.

There is good news though. ALL the people I know personally in Florida are okay and I am very truly glad of that after facing 2 monster storms in 2 weeks.

I did get through a few bags of bullshit. My house looks trashed because things are in piles. WHY do I have tons upon tons of recipes cut from god knows how many magazines? My goal is now, pick one page, try it and if it's good type it in, if it is not toss.

One last call from fandomgiftbasket which only needs 4 stories (anyone a castlevania games fan?)

I just got a flash about a frost warning. I got most of the plants into the greenhouse today but I better go out there and cover the rest.

I gave up on going as Edalyn tomorrow to the anime con. they have a cyberpunk/steampunk thing. I'm dragging out my dress and calling it a cosplay.

Comments

[kerk_hiraeth]

Wish I could be of some help, but my own depression, for too much of this last year, been actually worse than when I was still suicidal.

If not for people like elisi in my life it might have got the better; even with the Goddess making it very clear there is no option but to get through it.

kerk

[cornerofmadness]

Sorry things are being so rough for you too

[sylvanwitch]

I'm sorry everything is a struggle for you right now, and I hope the festivals give you the distraction you need to break the downward spiral. *hugs*

[cornerofmadness]

Thanks. I appreciate it. Today wasn't bad

[sysann]

I know depression's not something you can wave a magic wand at, but please let me know if there's anything I can do for you from over here. <3

As far as the recipes go, can you maybe take pictures of ones that still interest you with your phone or scan them? I do applaud your enthusiasm to actually try and cook them all, but that sounds like it'd take months. Maybe cook one and save five for later?

Please take the time to congratulate yourself on saving most of your plants already and making plans to save the rest. That's good -and heavy!- work and you deserve credit. :)

Have fun at your con! I hope it's a good one. :)

[cornerofmadness]

Thanks yeah no it doesn't go away easily

I can take the recipes and scan them.

The plants survived bundled up. I'll drag them back down to the school soon.

I did have fun today (my knee disagrees but it's dumb)

[sysann]

Maybe scanning may help with getting through the piles faster. I'll admit that cooking is more fun, though.

Glad the plants survived! :)

Sorry your knee is a mutineer. :( Good to hear that you had fun though. :)