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[cornerofmadness]

My day today was not stellar. Basically the endocrinologist said the only thing that will control my sugar at night is insulin. Those were words I do not want to hear. He's over the moon about how good my sugar is doing with the byetta which by the way actually only made me lose 1 pound which has him stunned. You know a month of starving to death should have made me lose more than that. We decided to bypass the insulin this time but things look very bad.

Which does nothing for my annual depression. It's always worse this time of year. It's not seasonal really. It's more this is the time of the year I'm reminded I owe nearly 300K, that they're looking to take everything I own away from me in compensation right up to and including my driver's license, the car and dictating at what level I live (i.e. that apartment is too expensive for you, you owe us money), that the job markets are in places I don't want to go etc etc. And almost all the new wave anti=depressants stop me breathing so that sucks.

and the day just kept going down from there. The library took the book I was waiting three weeks for, DIDNT call me in spite of the hold on it and lent it out to someone else. And I got home to see Roy the Cat acting strangely. He clung to me from the car to my porch in spite of deep snow then he froze up. I looked at what he was staring at and in the microwave box I rigged up with blankets and covers for him to sleep in was a puppy, a very starved looking puppy. Sighing. I put Roy inside and fed him then fed the puppy...only to have a second head appear. God damn it. Two starving puppies. I call the humane society which their recording tells me to drop dead and call the dog catcher. I do. Leave a message. It wasn't returned. I can NOT drive two puppies myself to the Athens humane society some 50 miles away. They're mistrustful (look to be lab/pit bull)and i have nothing to carry them in and it's not like I can let them run free in the car. I'm just going to tell the land lord. He's from here. He's going to have to deal with them.

Then mom's yelling at me for telling my brother I didn't want to stay with her and dad any more. I did NOT tell him that. he's just so excited that he has a spare bedroom that he's already bought me a bed to stay on when I come home next time.

the only good thing about today was that the library had Brother Odd by Dean Koontz, the latest in the Odd Thomas series. It's already much better than the second (which left me disappointed). So good that I'm thinking, gee, I really do write for shit in comparison.

Comments

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Poor, poor babies. You, Roy and the puppies.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

at the rate we're going all of us will be euthanized

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

*pouts* What happened with the pups?

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

still on my freaking porch

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Poor babies.

[sp23.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear about your sugar. And your debt. Holy cow! ((hugs))

Whatever asshat just dumped those puppies instead of taking them to the pound themselves should be consigned to the lowest level of hell. Bastard.

I hope your day tomorrow is better than today. {{hugs again}}

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks. Yeah medical school cost me lots and lots and LOTS and then interest ranges between 12-18 % (thank you federal government) so the amount just keeps going up

that bastard would be beaten by me with my knowledge of anatomy should i ever catch him

[sp23.livejournal.com]

*facepalm*

When I first read your last sentence I read it as "that bastard would be eaten by me with my knowledge of anatomy..."

So, of course, my first thought was "with fava beans and a nice Chianti."

Hee!

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

snort

[dknightshade.livejournal.com]

Sorry about your blood sugar. That sucks mightily.

And the puppies too -- people really suck! My in-laws had an 8 week old kitten dumped at their house this week and it was below zero all week there too.

*hugs*

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks and yes it does suck.

People in general suck. You've seen how many animals I've taken to shelters.

[ex-chaos-by-699.livejournal.com]

*hugs* *hugs*

I'm sorry life is going so crappy.

The student loan people are so evil. Looking to take away your driver's license? That's not even good for them. I mean, you can't get to work without a car, and if you can't work, you certainly can't pay them. It's positively Dickensonian.

I'm sorry about your health too. And the puppies.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks and yes it is. I'd get a special license that allows driving to work only...

[calijirl5150.livejournal.com]

Go talk to a lawyer, you have options & usually lawyers willdo a consult free.

::HUGS YOU::

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks but I can't even find a lawyer who does this sort of thing and the last one i talked to three years ago said 'you're screwed' literally

[silvrethorn.livejournal.com]

My mother asked me tonight, in re ELD's Meniere's disease, whether any of my friends were going to live past age 65. I swear the way things are going with everybody I think the answer to that one is "no." None of us is going to be around twenty years from now. Now there's a cheerful thought.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

yeah isn't it. i have a cheerier one, i could be alive and in a nursing home from all the complications. I think i know which i'd prefer

[silvrethorn.livejournal.com]

Let's see now. Your system is already toast, ELD's going deaf, I have blood-sugar issues and a family history of heart disease. I say we make a pact to go somewhere wonderful ten years from now, have a glorious time, and the day we're due to come home we all commit suicide in the luxury hotel. Preferably in the in-room whirlpool, like the old-time Romans except with jets and bubbles. I swear the more I look at getting old and disabled, the more tempting that scenario gets.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

oh no kidding

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

We'll live.

...we just won't be happy about it.

Speaking of happy, you DID notice that God and his Back Up Group are playing on the Grammys, yes?

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

i did then wondered if any of the young people who watch the grammies would even know who they are

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

"The who?"

"No, that's a DIFFERENT group."

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

snort

[silvrethorn.livejournal.com]

Yes, the God Group finally had enough time away from each other to forget how much they hated each other. It's almost worth plowing through the Grammys to see them, but they're so damn old now. I bet they regret ever having recorded "Born in the Fifties". You can just forget lying about your age after a stunt like that. As for the band member born in the 40's--well, the less said the better.

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

I'm actually debating watching it just for that, or at least having it in the background while I'm playing on the computer. If I remember. I'm bad about TV now that I don't get a guide anymore.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks and yes by all means dance

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

ought to be a sight to see. Hey considered coming to Oz for my birthday in the summer...then saw the price of airfare and nearly fainted

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Syndey would have been a destination. Put it this way I could go to Rome for 5 days airfare and hotel included for the price of Aussie air fare

[0-mother-0.livejournal.com]

Holy crap, what a god-awful day. I mean, did they really have to throw the puppies in there as well? Sadists...

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

oh i know. this is how my life always goes

[mzzgoddessblue.livejournal.com]

crap day. you poor thing. when it rains, it pours.

and poor puppies. where are they now?

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

still on the porch sadly.

My life just really sucks

[sita-137.livejournal.com]

Oh my.

[hands you bottle of hard liquor]

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks

[a2zmom.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you're dealing with all this.

What exactly is the issue with taking insulin?

And the loan is ridiculous that they keep refusing to work with you on this.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

The problem is insulin is a ball and chain but then again so is byetta. Mostly it's psychological. Insulin is the end line drug. Nothing else is working and plain and simple, you're not doing badly (this goes for type two diabetes, not type one where they don't make insulin and it's the standard treatment). It's a signal that your diabetes isn't under control in spite of all your best efforts (well my best efforts, other people don't give a damn and I'll never understand that). DIabetes is a very depressing disease for the suffers because we know what waits especially if there's not good control. Blindness, PVD, nerve damage, amputation, kidney failure and death. Every time you get back a bad report, you know you're one step closer to these. INsulin is end game and it's fourth and long