By all means, up the stress levels

[cornerofmadness]

You know, I'm not under enough pressure as it is, by all means let's turn up the heat. I'm now being sued for my loan money. I told them good luck and try to find me. I told them as of 8/1 I no longer have a home in Florida (which is true). I told them I'm partially disabled and unemployed (also currently true) what would you like me to do? (first questions was how can we get in touch with you, answer look for my license plate since right now everything I own is stuffed into the car) They are sending paperwork to get the loan discharged but I have to be 100% disabled and I'm not (well, frankly I'm just about nuts enough to qualify...now there's a thought). Still, I'm handing it all to my lawyer and let her worry about it. I now have to see a doctor again because it has to be within 4 months for the paperwork to get my loan discharged (what being told 4 years ago I'm disabled is somehow not good enough?) My fear is they want to come after a) my professional license (good luck I have none) b) my drivers license (yeah, make it so I can't work. THAT will help you get your fucking money, dimwits).

This comes on top of the nurse calling me to tell me the results of my blood test (I had a severe reaction to the paper tape too. The venipuncture is nearly invisible by my elbow is covered with blood blisters as a result). My blood sugar is out of control. Since my diet and medication is unchanged, I'm praying it's because of the stress (which can really raise your blood sugars). If it doesn't come down I'll end up on insulin and I'm really not wanting that to happen.

I talked to Nicolet College. The guy who'll be mentoring me sounds nice but a bit crazed from overwork. Problem is the state of Wisconsin has upped the hours needed for the class but won't raise the credit hours. Everyone has to take it with no pre-resiquite which means I can be teaching just about anyone with no background at all and there is SO much medical terminology you need for this class it's not funny. I MIGHT get lucky and be there a full year now but that's not definite. And to be honest, if it's still just one class that'll be a hard choice to make. Do I stay for that?

Add to this the stress of packing and moving and wondering about where I'll be living. Once again I'm imposing on a friend. At least this time I'll be in my own house, which is all well and good since I have those trust issues with men. Not that I don't trust my friend but it's very hard to overcome the anxiety attacks about being alone in the woods with a man. I'd much rather be alone in the woods by myself.

See THIS is why I have been sticking to the fandom part of LJing and not entering shit about my RL.

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[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

I'm sure hoping so. At least it's a step forward since I've been taking so many backwards lately.