It's amazing what sends you into a tailspin

[cornerofmadness]

frankly it started out innocently enough, a manga to read to review. This particular manga is based on a series of YA vampire novels. This review coincided with the release of the latest Twilight book. It was like a double whammy. The manga/YA thing is literally the biggest cliche fest I have ever witnessed. In fact the circlet publishers just ran a list of things they never want to see in their vampire stories and this had everyone plus a few others. The less said about that utter crap series that somehow not only got published but made it on the bestseller list the better.

It was a combo that has left me in a tail spin. I've hardly finished anything since. There is a deep feeling of 'why bother.' Every writers group i'm in has better writing than this and produces nothing. I think it hit me hard since the one novel I've been working at for 12 years now is in this genre. I've sold short stories from this universe. The novel itself has been excerpted. One agent told me he loved it, that it was better than anything he had seen on the shelves but he had moved into another genre and asked me to send him something in that (it was a genre I don't write) and another agent liked it well enough but wanted it updated.

Who knew 1995 was too old to be interesting?

As wildrider said not too long ago, more or less, 'I don't want to write anything every again. She pulled out of it and i know i will too. But occasionally it's very hard, especially when you see utter garbage making it. It doesn't help when your source of refuge is somewhat gone. Three writers groups, and two are down to a trickle as summer takes over demands on time. That'll change but wow, could have needed them now. Original fiction filter, quieter than church.

sometimes you get to a point where you sit back and think, why am I bothering?

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[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

sounds good. who are they

and yeah i think i'd have to make more reasonable pledges