remembrance
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cornerofmadnessA few nights ago Mom mentioned it was five years since her sister died and I said no Mom, it's six because remember I couldn't make it back because it was over a grand to fly back from FL and it was the middle of mid terms and grad school isn't kindly. She said 'oh yeah...you still should have come.' I reminded her again about that min. wage job I had.
Today she informs me that I was wrong . She found a prayer card and it was definitely 2004. I said mom, that's not possible. I was in Florida. by 2004,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
evil_little_dog had sold her house and moved to IN. Remember I was in FLORIDA at the time. She got pissed said yes I just HAD to be right and everyone else was wrong and hung up on me. I felt bad, figuring I shouldn't have pushed it but for the love of god, I know where I was and why I couldn't make the funeral. evil_little_dog vaguely remembers this. I remember the whole conversation with the family at the memorial dinner. I sat out on the back porch and stared at the orange trees wishing I was there and angry that my one cousin had left his own mother's memorial early.
Anyhow I thought that was the end of it but no. Mom called back to say that she found another prayer card AND an obituitary and that it was 2004. I could not believe she actually went through that much effort just to prove me wrong. I don't know why I'm surprised. This is how my family is. We all have to be right. I'm pretty sure what she has is the first year anniversary prayer cards. And I'm just as bad. If I knew which cemetary she was in, I'd look up the burial record on line.
but it wasn't until after that spiteful callback that I remember today was the day my aunt died of alcoholism. It's one of those very frustrating things. It makes you sad and angry because even though you know it's an addicition, they still did this to themselves and you're always wondering, could I have done more? You know the answer is no but still...
Anyhow, here's to my aunt. I do miss you very much.
Funny how animals seem to know you're upset. Frick and Frack actually not only behaved themselves they also both sat with me AND Roy cleaned Kyo's face. He's never ever done that.
Also I got the first disk of Ouran High School Host Club I'm not sure how they made it more cracky and gay than the manga but they did. It was very funny. Kyo helped me grade exams while I watched.
Today she informs me that I was wrong . She found a prayer card and it was definitely 2004. I said mom, that's not possible. I was in Florida. by 2004,
evil_little_dog had sold her house and moved to IN. Remember I was in FLORIDA at the time. She got pissed said yes I just HAD to be right and everyone else was wrong and hung up on me. I felt bad, figuring I shouldn't have pushed it but for the love of god, I know where I was and why I couldn't make the funeral. evil_little_dog vaguely remembers this. I remember the whole conversation with the family at the memorial dinner. I sat out on the back porch and stared at the orange trees wishing I was there and angry that my one cousin had left his own mother's memorial early.Anyhow I thought that was the end of it but no. Mom called back to say that she found another prayer card AND an obituitary and that it was 2004. I could not believe she actually went through that much effort just to prove me wrong. I don't know why I'm surprised. This is how my family is. We all have to be right. I'm pretty sure what she has is the first year anniversary prayer cards. And I'm just as bad. If I knew which cemetary she was in, I'd look up the burial record on line.
but it wasn't until after that spiteful callback that I remember today was the day my aunt died of alcoholism. It's one of those very frustrating things. It makes you sad and angry because even though you know it's an addicition, they still did this to themselves and you're always wondering, could I have done more? You know the answer is no but still...
Anyhow, here's to my aunt. I do miss you very much.
Funny how animals seem to know you're upset. Frick and Frack actually not only behaved themselves they also both sat with me AND Roy cleaned Kyo's face. He's never ever done that.
Also I got the first disk of Ouran High School Host Club I'm not sure how they made it more cracky and gay than the manga but they did. It was very funny. Kyo helped me grade exams while I watched.
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Date: 2009-03-03 02:50 am (UTC)And Cheers to you and your mom fighting over nonsense (not the death but the debate over years) because you're alive and talking to each other and that's GOOD!
:)
Icky. I got exams to grade. Don't wanna.
Edit: "Cheers" is not meant to be facetious - more like "Life goes on and death sucks and it's good to remember the good parts." Hope I haven't offended.
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Date: 2009-03-03 03:04 am (UTC)yeah that's the suck part of being at a small school no TA's to dump grading on. Then again I'm such a control freak I probably WOULDN"T even if i could
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Date: 2009-03-03 03:06 am (UTC)Never had em. Never will. BIG school. TAs gotta teach their own sections of comp.
This is my film studies class. Some good. Some horrifying. I think about it tomorrow. :D
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Date: 2009-03-03 03:30 am (UTC)mine were my nurses doing the bits of the bones (ie every lump bump and hole in every bone of the body) god some of the horrors there...
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Date: 2009-03-03 02:50 am (UTC)*siiiigh* to your family.
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Date: 2009-03-04 01:06 am (UTC)Oh, wait, this might be my NURSE some day.
I'm never going to the doctor AGAIN.
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Date: 2009-03-03 03:04 am (UTC)I loved Ouran High School Host Club (we just finished watching
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Date: 2009-03-03 03:32 am (UTC)Oh Ouran is much fun. I adore Tamaki and the twins
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Date: 2009-03-03 03:35 am (UTC)Sounds like they may be starting to adapt to their situation.
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Date: 2009-03-03 04:29 am (UTC)i would love it if they adapted especially after that three days gone incident over the weekend
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Date: 2009-03-03 04:50 am (UTC)I remember one Christmas I was gone for two weeks and boarded them with the vet. I chose to have them in one cage instead of two because it was cheaper. When I came to pick them up, it looked as if they weren't in the cage at all. Then I found them crammed together in Jezebel's carrier (both had their carriers in the cage), seeking comfort in what was familiar--each other.
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Date: 2009-03-04 03:21 am (UTC)Ouran High School Host Club
Date: 2009-03-03 04:21 am (UTC)Good luck with yours. And grading. Because, really, grading is more important than having an old lady prove you wrong.
Sorry about your aunt, it's always sad to lose somebody no matter what the cause.
could I have done more? You know the answer is no but still...
Tell me about it!
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Date: 2009-03-03 04:42 am (UTC)grading is very important to those nurses I'm sure
yeah I know you know far more about it than I (though your mom was much like my mom's mom which is part of the reason MY mom is so bitchy lately)
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Date: 2009-03-03 06:27 am (UTC)Ouran High School Host Club rocks!
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Date: 2009-03-04 03:15 am (UTC)Ouran is just such silly fun
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Date: 2009-03-05 04:37 am (UTC)you know what i like thebest? NOT the comedy (which is great) but the more serious histories we get glimpses of, the twins pain, Tamaki's very lonely homelife, Haruhi's homelife...that really balances the story
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Date: 2009-03-05 05:05 am (UTC)i think once we understand Tamaki's background nad his dying mom and his bitch of a grandma he makes sense.
and holy heck is Kyo SNORING over here
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Date: 2009-03-04 03:00 am (UTC)i'm still on the first disc
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