Death and sleeping

yeah two subjects that don't go together but rather than spam with two tiny posts.....


When i saw that David Carradine had died, I didn't expect to click on that link and find out it was suicide. How sad. I spent my formative years madly in love with his Kung Fu character. Been in love with Shao Lin monks ever since. This makes me sad



a good night’s sleep

Outside of the coffee bit, there is nothing here I don't do. Ever since Christmas, I've become so light sensitive I have to drape a towel over the clock to get any sleep. And I love a cold room to sleep in...maybe not as cold as Flippy kept it (morgue like but boy did I sleep good)

okay out into the rain to plant my garden since it's NEVER going to stop.

back to begging for betas

Since I want to give my usual beta time to write her own stuff for springkink I have two that absolutely need a beta other than evil_little_dog (since they're for her) and two that are for people currently unknown to me.

The two that absolutely need other betas are -

FMA, Hughes/Mustang/Hawkeye and it'll be a day or two before it's done and it'll be NC-17 in all likelihood

Dresden Files/BtVS - and it'll be a day or two before it's done and it'll be NC-17 in all likelihood

The two that could be beta'ed by ELD or by someone else

FMA - Roy/Riza and it'll be a day or two before it's done and it'll be NC-17 in all likelihood

Ghost Hunt - Naru/Mai and it'll be ready in an hour and it's PG 13

So is anyone up to sparing evil_little_dog's sanity, such as it is?

a remembrance and other things

Tiananmen 20 years later
20 years ago, we weren't quite as connected as we are now, news wasn't downloaded into our phones, we weren't bombarded with the badness of this world. But some things still were able to overwhelm us and this was one of them. I was a senior in college, killing the summmer between college and medical school doing an internship at a government research lab. SOmehow I had been put in charge of entertaining several visiting CHinese scientists. Why, I have no idea. I had no business, as a student intern, doing that sort of thing and I remember feeling so helpless in trying to console them.

I don't remember their names, just their pain. Even more than that I remember, not the events in China, but rather those closer to home. It relates back to the writing post on sunday about harsh words getting put on the mental playback track that crops up at random moments. (oddly this person was friends with the one on Sunday and in the same group). I had written a letter about those experiences (you know, actual pen pals instead of emails). Somehow this person read that experience as me bitching about having to deal with the Chinese scientists and went on for pages about how horrible and selfish and heartless I was and how dare I complain about being put out for a day while hundreds died. I still remember that letter. SOmewhere I've carried my reply on various floppy discs for 20 years. I can't look at it but I have it. I think I stopped talking to her soon after. 20 years later, I still don't know where she got all the from and it still hurts. And maybe that proves her point. WHo knows.


On a happier note, here's another story written for me at springkink. It's from Saiyuki and PG rated. Hakkai and Gojyo and Tea

Another techie question, how do i know how many gig I use while online? The new boy next door reacted in horror to the news that we only have dial up here and started calling all over god's creation to find something better. Time Warner cable MIGHT come out here but he DID find wireless broadband but it IS three times what I pay now and you're limited to 5 gig a month but i have NO idea who to gauge that. Help.

I finally gave up on it stopping with the cold-assed rain. I put in half the garden in a frigid drizzle. I have not played with THAT much mud since I was seven. It was kinda fun.

i tried to breed wildrider a red dorsal fin dragon by breeding Abby and McGee and ended up with a gold. It figures, when I want gold I get squat, when I don't want gold...