Writerly Ways a day late

Mostly because i was so tired and feeling rather bad about my writing this week. Not that I didn't do much. No, I churned out 4400 of original fic and an uncharted amount of fanfic but those words were such a struggle.

I think I'm rather down about wondering where that anthology is (I have trouble loading the forum here which might have info for me and I won't load erotica websites at work for obvious reasons). Not to mention listenin to how other people have been screwed recently (but yay to mjaedin whose enovels are doing good)

I think I've made a decision. This latest vampire novella is going to be my last novella unless I'm dead sure I can turn it into a fullblown novel. It's getting very disillusioning to work hard on something that has a micromarket. There are just a handful of places I could possible sell something that length. We'll see how long that sticks since I DO like seeing the open calls for these places. It helps me think of things to do but seriously that's a lot of work for little payoff. The pay scale isn't good for them either.

In the light of that I really feel in some ways I wasted a lot of this year regardless of how much fic I've churned out. I'm not working on wider audience novels when I'm consumed with this erotica novellas. And I think that part of it is I know i can sell the erotica where I'm not so sure of the others.

It crystalized for me two days ago when I was reading a Hughes/Roy doujinshi that was rather sad. I want to be able to write something that makes people cry or laugh. I want to write something that stays with them. Hell, my ego is big enough that I want a fandom to spring up around and have fanfic writers totally rearrange shipping canon and put people together who never would be and wank over why they're right.

Some days I think I'm asking for too much. THen I start reading something published in my preferred genres and say, HOW did this get out there? I know I'm this good if not better. Then I think they probably tried harder than me. I'm lazy about that sort of thing and this year has been better. I have been putting it out there but not as much as I should.

On the upside, I've been thinking about the professional criticism I got for Machiavelli Moon. It's rested for several months now and I can see it objectively instead of defensively. All three reviewers liked it but the one from Publisher Weekly said it there were too many characters with more and more pouring in. S/He isn't wrong. I'm wondering if I can restructure this a bit. Remove Sulien's insane daughter and save her for book two or something. Give her role over to the evil lady scientist who NEEDS an expanded role anyhow otherwise the motives in this are weak. It probably means another readthrough of the end without editing. Sigh. This is the worst time of year for something like that.

I'll leave you with a quote I snagged from moschus on facebook. "We write by the light of every book we ever read." -- Richard Peck


and hmmm I totally underestimated my ability to write. I will have to up the word count

96397 / 100000 words. 96% done!

i almost wish i had to work today

Since being off just wasn't working for me...

could not sleep. The last four days I've had insomnia which has become rare since i got the memory foam bed. My character was busy telling me all the porny stuff he's now willing to commit to and I'm thinking yeah, this is all because my period is a few days away and I'm horny but I'mnot getting out of my bed at 3AM to hunt down batteries so just forget about it body. Stomach, ditto, it's 3 AM you're not getting food.

It rained a lot but we needed it. I went grocery shopping which i HATE doing on Monday since it's all shopped out but i needed a few things. SOmehow i dropped teh eggs getting them out of the trunk, no idea how since it was in a canvas bag.

Naturally two eggs explode everywhere, all over the bag. I run it inside, trying not to drip on the carpet and assess the damage. Okay only 4 lost, two utterly destroyed and two cracked but not so bad that I can't make scrambled eggs out of them. The rest might have microfractures so i decide to hardboil them immediately (I bought this dozen to hardboil). i promptly drop one of the uncracked ones (naturally) on the floor. SPLAT. WAAH. scrubs floor, sees a clean spot, scrubs all of floor.

Accidentally put the frying pan on the hot burner and the hardboiled eggs on the med. heat burner and turned the butter black (the scrambled tasted good but looked like hell)

Decided to try editing my space opera to get it back out there. That took longer than i thought but it's ready. Also tried to clean and watch the NCIS marathon.

The meat I took out never defrosted enough to use but i sliced it up for tomorrow.

i just feel a little disaffected today. I decided to try the eharmony free weekend since a) not a real fan of that site b) not about to pay that kind of money after seeing how they match people.

Age matters. I said so. WHY are you giving me people 5 years younger than my dad?

Also eating healthy does NOT equate to I'm MIss Athletic. THanks for the 10 marathoners. We'll be a great compatible match. Bite me


ETA - forgot the meme again



Day one: a song
Day two: a picture
Day three: a book/ebook/fanfic
Day four: a site
Day five: a youtube clip
Day six : a quote
Day seven : whatever tickles your fancy

in all honesty i don't GO to that many sites. So how about some humor (some of you have seen the Gobbler before. I've set stories here)

the gobbler and do follow a link to lileks.com (he writes comedic stuff, love his interior desecrations...)

or how about this for the manga fans. .mangajouhou












(my first bred pygmy)

(the deep sea dragon was happy to breed)